Esme Rylan
@esmerylan.bsky.social
Trans woman, nursing home social worker, obsessive music nerd, undisputed Jump Showdown champion. She/her
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Esme Rylan
@esmerylan.bsky.social
· Sep 10
My comment on current events: I don't mourn Nazis.
Got through MAP03 pretty easily, and while MAP04 is a step up in difficulty I still managed to survive, though I probably used too many rockets in the final fight against a dozen or so Hell Knights (plus a Mancubus, but he's not much of a threat).
I saw that the final release version of Necromantic Thirst is up on the /idgames archive and I still had RC2, so I downloaded it and played partway into MAP03. On UV. When I first attempted this WAD even MAP01 kicked my ass on UV, but I fared much better now that I know what I'm up against.
November 12, 2025 at 4:22 AM
Got through MAP03 pretty easily, and while MAP04 is a step up in difficulty I still managed to survive, though I probably used too many rockets in the final fight against a dozen or so Hell Knights (plus a Mancubus, but he's not much of a threat).
Switch 2 ran a system update, and when it restarted it was in handheld mode even though it was still docked, I had to pull it out of the dock and put it back in for the image to display on the TV. What the fuck?
November 12, 2025 at 1:45 AM
Switch 2 ran a system update, and when it restarted it was in handheld mode even though it was still docked, I had to pull it out of the dock and put it back in for the image to display on the TV. What the fuck?
New fame pass, new outfit, same old feud with the bananas. 😝
www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnY2...
www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnY2...
My Old Nemesis! We Meet Again!
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November 12, 2025 at 12:03 AM
New fame pass, new outfit, same old feud with the bananas. 😝
www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnY2...
www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnY2...
Woke the PS5 out of rest mode when I got home and it said I was offline. Went into network settings, it connected immediately. This console has more Internet connection problems than any other device I've ever used.
Remember how a while back I set my PS5 to only connect to the 5GHz band of the wifi because I was having so many problems? Well, last night it stopped connecting to the network at all. Every other device was connected, and I could connect it to my phone's hotspot.
November 11, 2025 at 11:28 PM
Woke the PS5 out of rest mode when I got home and it said I was offline. Went into network settings, it connected immediately. This console has more Internet connection problems than any other device I've ever used.
Anyway, I forgot schools were closed today so my commute was a lot faster than usual. But there was nearly an accident when someone turned right on red in front of the car next to me as it started to accelerate (way too fast, since everyone also does that now).
November 11, 2025 at 1:08 PM
Anyway, I forgot schools were closed today so my commute was a lot faster than usual. But there was nearly an accident when someone turned right on red in front of the car next to me as it started to accelerate (way too fast, since everyone also does that now).
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There's a lot of chatter on the other place about Ninja getting commemorated by YouTube Gaming for being on there for 14 years, while AVGN's been on there for 20 and gets no recognition at all. Fair, but I think we're ignoring who REALLY deserves the commendation here.
November 11, 2025 at 12:57 PM
There's a lot of chatter on the other place about Ninja getting commemorated by YouTube Gaming for being on there for 14 years, while AVGN's been on there for 20 and gets no recognition at all. Fair, but I think we're ignoring who REALLY deserves the commendation here.
Remember how a while back I set my PS5 to only connect to the 5GHz band of the wifi because I was having so many problems? Well, last night it stopped connecting to the network at all. Every other device was connected, and I could connect it to my phone's hotspot.
November 11, 2025 at 12:37 PM
Remember how a while back I set my PS5 to only connect to the 5GHz band of the wifi because I was having so many problems? Well, last night it stopped connecting to the network at all. Every other device was connected, and I could connect it to my phone's hotspot.
I saw that the final release version of Necromantic Thirst is up on the /idgames archive and I still had RC2, so I downloaded it and played partway into MAP03. On UV. When I first attempted this WAD even MAP01 kicked my ass on UV, but I fared much better now that I know what I'm up against.
November 11, 2025 at 5:13 AM
I saw that the final release version of Necromantic Thirst is up on the /idgames archive and I still had RC2, so I downloaded it and played partway into MAP03. On UV. When I first attempted this WAD even MAP01 kicked my ass on UV, but I fared much better now that I know what I'm up against.
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gamer therapist: so have you self harmed since our last session?
me: yeah, i've been playing league of legends again
therapist (trying not to laugh): no thats not what I-
me: yeah, i've been playing league of legends again
therapist (trying not to laugh): no thats not what I-
November 10, 2025 at 3:51 PM
gamer therapist: so have you self harmed since our last session?
me: yeah, i've been playing league of legends again
therapist (trying not to laugh): no thats not what I-
me: yeah, i've been playing league of legends again
therapist (trying not to laugh): no thats not what I-
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Brianna Ghey was the target of brutal bullying and assault that cumulated in her violent murder because she was trans. Any 'solution' to her death that isn't focused on the culture of transphobia that made a group of children think her life was worth less is a distraction from this fact.
Phones did not murder Brianna Ghey in cold blood.
November 10, 2025 at 1:00 PM
Brianna Ghey was the target of brutal bullying and assault that cumulated in her violent murder because she was trans. Any 'solution' to her death that isn't focused on the culture of transphobia that made a group of children think her life was worth less is a distraction from this fact.
Traffic light at a major intersection on my commute went out and I thought it was going to be a problem but then it came back on in less than a minute. 😝
November 10, 2025 at 1:11 PM
Traffic light at a major intersection on my commute went out and I thought it was going to be a problem but then it came back on in less than a minute. 😝
Turns out on UV, this entire fucking map is brutal. Not sure what I did wrong but I had nearly no ammo by the end, and there were still 2 kills left, including a Cyberdemon. I didn't get any of the 3 secrets.
But the beginning of MAP06 is brutal, mostly because of the two Mancubi in the tower across from the yellow key door- they've got perfect line of sight on you as you're trying to fight your way through the enemies behind the door, and I'm terrible at dodging their fireballs as it is!
November 10, 2025 at 1:59 AM
Turns out on UV, this entire fucking map is brutal. Not sure what I did wrong but I had nearly no ammo by the end, and there were still 2 kills left, including a Cyberdemon. I didn't get any of the 3 secrets.
So I've only just now realized, after more than 50 hours of playing Brighter Shores, that the "past action" option lets you catch lower levels of a type of fish (or forage lower levels of a item, etc.), so you never have to buy those lower level versions from a vendor.
November 9, 2025 at 11:35 PM
So I've only just now realized, after more than 50 hours of playing Brighter Shores, that the "past action" option lets you catch lower levels of a type of fish (or forage lower levels of a item, etc.), so you never have to buy those lower level versions from a vendor.
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imagine being so privileged in your own safety that you can hate on another person for reasons that don’t mean a goddamn thing to your life other than the ghost you create in your head
get some real problems
get some real problems
November 9, 2025 at 9:51 PM
imagine being so privileged in your own safety that you can hate on another person for reasons that don’t mean a goddamn thing to your life other than the ghost you create in your head
get some real problems
get some real problems
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what gets me is how unnecessary so much of the hate in people’s hearts is, like embarrassingly dangerous levels of unnecessary, it’s ridiculous, it’s offensive, it’s disgusting
November 9, 2025 at 9:48 PM
what gets me is how unnecessary so much of the hate in people’s hearts is, like embarrassingly dangerous levels of unnecessary, it’s ridiculous, it’s offensive, it’s disgusting
I'm now watching the VOD of Spectere playing this map, and it turns out you just have to survive long enough for everything to get instakilled. But also Hell Knights show up after a while, making that task even more difficult.
Decided to give Vytaan's new map a try even though I'm terrible at slaughtermaps. It has 3090 enemies on UV and I can't even get past the first fight, which involves a ton of Zombiemen and Pinkies teleporting in while Revenants fire at you from a central pillar. You only get a chaingun.
November 9, 2025 at 9:16 PM
I'm now watching the VOD of Spectere playing this map, and it turns out you just have to survive long enough for everything to get instakilled. But also Hell Knights show up after a while, making that task even more difficult.
Man responsible for the deaths of hundreds of thousands calls a novelist "mean" for daring to describe his absolute lack of humanity. 🫤
November 9, 2025 at 7:19 PM
Man responsible for the deaths of hundreds of thousands calls a novelist "mean" for daring to describe his absolute lack of humanity. 🫤
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theres a whole category of newstertainment thats gotta go. and its "ask a really rich freak who is also evil and directly stealing from you what hes seen on the computer lately that has made him feel bad." the only -- ONLY -- story about this guy worth exploring is: he is getting rich spying on you
November 9, 2025 at 6:44 PM
theres a whole category of newstertainment thats gotta go. and its "ask a really rich freak who is also evil and directly stealing from you what hes seen on the computer lately that has made him feel bad." the only -- ONLY -- story about this guy worth exploring is: he is getting rich spying on you
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Made it through MAP19 and most of MAP20 with relatively little trouble, but the final fight of the latter is brutal and I need to stop for a while before I try and tackle it again.
Picked back up where I last saved partway through MAP18, and this map has some absolutely evil Arch-Vile placements. Also two separate fights where a Revenant teleports in behind you to fuck up your day while you're trying to deal with an Arch-Vile.
Because I can never stick with one Doom WAD at a time, I went back to my last save for Dominus Diabolicus (the first one, I'm also playing the second one on my Mac!), which was partway through MAP17, and the final fight introduces what I can only describe as a Super Arch-Vile.
November 9, 2025 at 6:02 PM
Made it through MAP19 and most of MAP20 with relatively little trouble, but the final fight of the latter is brutal and I need to stop for a while before I try and tackle it again.
Took my walk, stopped at Harris Teeter to get a sub and I'm still waiting because the guy in front of me's getting THREE. 😵💫
November 9, 2025 at 4:13 PM
Took my walk, stopped at Harris Teeter to get a sub and I'm still waiting because the guy in front of me's getting THREE. 😵💫
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The truth is not "more nuanced," the truth is that none of these people are narco terrorists.
GÜIRIA, Venezuela (AP) — One was a fisherman struggling to eke out a living on $100 a month. Another was a career criminal. A third was a former military cadet. And a fourth was a down-on-his-luck bus driver.
apnews.com/article/trum...
apnews.com/article/trum...
Trump has accused boat crews of being narco-terrorists. The truth, AP found, is more nuanced
One was a fisherman struggling to eke out a living on $100 a month. Another was a career criminal. A third was a former military cadet.
apnews.com
November 9, 2025 at 2:04 PM
The truth is not "more nuanced," the truth is that none of these people are narco terrorists.
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WHAT'S up YouTube, it's your boy Bartleby the Scrivener here, coming at you for another day of the I Would Prefer Not To challenge. Be sure to SMASH that subscribe button and hit that bell so you don't miss a single video. If you saw last week's video, you'll know I am now SLEEPING in the office.
Bartleby the Scrivener logging on for another day of bullshit
November 7, 2025 at 10:54 AM
WHAT'S up YouTube, it's your boy Bartleby the Scrivener here, coming at you for another day of the I Would Prefer Not To challenge. Be sure to SMASH that subscribe button and hit that bell so you don't miss a single video. If you saw last week's video, you'll know I am now SLEEPING in the office.
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Man, I repeat:
If art is a machine that generates empathy, AI generated art is a machine that generates apathy. It erodes trust and human connection. The entire point of it is to make solidarity impossible, because it becomes unimaginable.
If art is a machine that generates empathy, AI generated art is a machine that generates apathy. It erodes trust and human connection. The entire point of it is to make solidarity impossible, because it becomes unimaginable.
I spotted this on Mastodon and I find it horrible, not least for the speed with which this has happened.
November 4, 2025 at 6:11 PM
Man, I repeat:
If art is a machine that generates empathy, AI generated art is a machine that generates apathy. It erodes trust and human connection. The entire point of it is to make solidarity impossible, because it becomes unimaginable.
If art is a machine that generates empathy, AI generated art is a machine that generates apathy. It erodes trust and human connection. The entire point of it is to make solidarity impossible, because it becomes unimaginable.
Came across a 5x5 post on r/lastfm where the pics were so exactly the shit my ex used to listen to obsessively that I thought for a moment maybe it was her, then I checked the profile and the OP is 18 and nonbinary. Not sure how someone that young in 2025 has the exact same taste she had in 2011.
November 9, 2025 at 1:19 PM
Came across a 5x5 post on r/lastfm where the pics were so exactly the shit my ex used to listen to obsessively that I thought for a moment maybe it was her, then I checked the profile and the OP is 18 and nonbinary. Not sure how someone that young in 2025 has the exact same taste she had in 2011.