Jen “cool older trans lady trying her best”
@transducer.bsky.social
40, she/her, east coast. Live-blogging transition since 2023. 🏳️⚧️💊24-12-06; 🏳️⚧️💉25-06-24
My posts are about me, not you. Go write your own—I’d love to read them! 💖
Start HRT now, figure the rest out later.
There is still time. The time will pass either way.
My posts are about me, not you. Go write your own—I’d love to read them! 💖
Start HRT now, figure the rest out later.
There is still time. The time will pass either way.
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Well y’all, a bish welcomes any thoughts on the matter, bc it do be that time lol
Again, I’m most looking for tactical advice in doing this as an out trans woman, which is the new part for me this go-round 🏳️⚧️🚺🤷🏻♀️ Some of y’all are uniquely qualified, among my friends, to share that perspective!
Again, I’m most looking for tactical advice in doing this as an out trans woman, which is the new part for me this go-round 🏳️⚧️🚺🤷🏻♀️ Some of y’all are uniquely qualified, among my friends, to share that perspective!
Sweetie & I considered doing the big Pokémon Go event today but (after a long & very gay processing sesh) we concluded we used our last spoons on going last night. We have no regrets about that & we figured it out the easy way, before making ourselves miserable. Proud of our communication skills tbh
November 16, 2025 at 7:13 PM
Sweetie & I considered doing the big Pokémon Go event today but (after a long & very gay processing sesh) we concluded we used our last spoons on going last night. We have no regrets about that & we figured it out the easy way, before making ourselves miserable. Proud of our communication skills tbh
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also if dorley hall is unethical, then all of human society that force-mascs you against your will for the first 10-20 years of your life is even MORE unethical
November 16, 2025 at 4:27 PM
also if dorley hall is unethical, then all of human society that force-mascs you against your will for the first 10-20 years of your life is even MORE unethical
@saintwalker98.bsky.social love your new profile pic! Very cute 💖
November 16, 2025 at 5:49 PM
@saintwalker98.bsky.social love your new profile pic! Very cute 💖
holding awareness that, yes, I spent 2-3 decades conspiring with most of society to gaslight myself that I was a man. “Just a really good ally.”
I’m working to get out from under that. I can understand & accept that it’s taking me a sec.
Trying to breathe & consciously relax my shoulders about it
I’m working to get out from under that. I can understand & accept that it’s taking me a sec.
Trying to breathe & consciously relax my shoulders about it
🥺😮💨💖 thank you, I’m trying lol. It really is like trying to deprogram ourselves from a cult, isn’t it? It helps to be reminded of that. I’m glad you’re feeling progress too. Thank you for sharing your experience with me 🫂
November 16, 2025 at 4:34 PM
holding awareness that, yes, I spent 2-3 decades conspiring with most of society to gaslight myself that I was a man. “Just a really good ally.”
I’m working to get out from under that. I can understand & accept that it’s taking me a sec.
Trying to breathe & consciously relax my shoulders about it
I’m working to get out from under that. I can understand & accept that it’s taking me a sec.
Trying to breathe & consciously relax my shoulders about it
I will not post dysphoria. It is kind to myself to deny specific dysphoric thoughts the weight of the written word. It is kind to my friends to invite them to community without judgement of bodily features.
I can acknowledge I am experiencing feelings of dysphoria & allow them to pass through me 😮💨
I can acknowledge I am experiencing feelings of dysphoria & allow them to pass through me 😮💨
November 16, 2025 at 11:17 AM
I will not post dysphoria. It is kind to myself to deny specific dysphoric thoughts the weight of the written word. It is kind to my friends to invite them to community without judgement of bodily features.
I can acknowledge I am experiencing feelings of dysphoria & allow them to pass through me 😮💨
I can acknowledge I am experiencing feelings of dysphoria & allow them to pass through me 😮💨
ok girl this is becoming a level of late-night night doomscrolling that verges on being, itself, a form of psychological self-harm. Maybe put back on the audiobook of the (cute but condescending*) prequel to the T4T romance novel & see about some more sleep
November 16, 2025 at 9:51 AM
ok girl this is becoming a level of late-night night doomscrolling that verges on being, itself, a form of psychological self-harm. Maybe put back on the audiobook of the (cute but condescending*) prequel to the T4T romance novel & see about some more sleep
really up-in-my-head about the dysphoria tonight; it’s not despair so much as frustration but it does suck 😮💨 I can acknowledge that & keep going
Jen: you were all “IDK, am I even allowed to go outside in eyeliner?” not *six months* ago. It’s been a wild six months, but… it’s still early. 😮💨 It’s ok.
Jen: you were all “IDK, am I even allowed to go outside in eyeliner?” not *six months* ago. It’s been a wild six months, but… it’s still early. 😮💨 It’s ok.
(Context: I was JUST, like *at that moment,* talking with my partner about maybe wearing eyeliner when we go see a movie tomorrow. Which is a thing I have literally never done outside except in a stage play or Halloween-type situation. But like, I’m an adult & I can just… do that? I think?)
This is literally exactly what I needed to hear at *this exact moment,* ty
November 16, 2025 at 9:08 AM
really up-in-my-head about the dysphoria tonight; it’s not despair so much as frustration but it does suck 😮💨 I can acknowledge that & keep going
Jen: you were all “IDK, am I even allowed to go outside in eyeliner?” not *six months* ago. It’s been a wild six months, but… it’s still early. 😮💨 It’s ok.
Jen: you were all “IDK, am I even allowed to go outside in eyeliner?” not *six months* ago. It’s been a wild six months, but… it’s still early. 😮💨 It’s ok.
YUP
I know it's cliché to say this, but if you're thinking about transitioning, just fucking do it already. You can always stop if you don't like it, but if you wait years and years and then do it and realize it was the best decision you ever made, you'll bitterly regret not having done it sooner.
November 16, 2025 at 2:40 AM
YUP
this actually went… really well. “I feel bad about being such a b about her on here” well. Bc—much as with any time I see my father—once I get out of my dang head and actually have the person in front of me? It’s fine. It’s fucking fine. Chill, Jen. It’s ok to think a little less sometimes.
she’s in town for a week; sweetie & I are having dinner with her tmrw. I haven’t spoken well of her on this acct, so you may be like “Jen why would you do that?” but… for all the whatever… she’s family 🤷🏻♀️
family comes to town, you take em to dinner. Especially if it’s been a whole gender since. 🤷🏻♀️
family comes to town, you take em to dinner. Especially if it’s been a whole gender since. 🤷🏻♀️
Oh 💩, the Australian narcissist who roomed with me 2016-2017 logged on. I sort of forgot that eventually this would probably reach her awareness lol. Wonder what she thinks about all this… beyond “❤️”
That’s the crux of it, right? I don’t want react emojis, I want ESSAYS. 2-page minimum! 12pt font!
That’s the crux of it, right? I don’t want react emojis, I want ESSAYS. 2-page minimum! 12pt font!
November 16, 2025 at 2:00 AM
this actually went… really well. “I feel bad about being such a b about her on here” well. Bc—much as with any time I see my father—once I get out of my dang head and actually have the person in front of me? It’s fine. It’s fucking fine. Chill, Jen. It’s ok to think a little less sometimes.
fuck, Jennifer’s Body was *nineteen years ago*? [looks it up] ok no, it’s 2009 not 2006.
So if it came out in 2009, Jennifer’s Body is only like five or six years old. Because I’m pretty sure it’s still 2014
So if it came out in 2009, Jennifer’s Body is only like five or six years old. Because I’m pretty sure it’s still 2014
A friend found this on a car parked in Naarm last night, I have never coveted anything more in my entire life
November 16, 2025 at 1:50 AM
fuck, Jennifer’s Body was *nineteen years ago*? [looks it up] ok no, it’s 2009 not 2006.
So if it came out in 2009, Jennifer’s Body is only like five or six years old. Because I’m pretty sure it’s still 2014
So if it came out in 2009, Jennifer’s Body is only like five or six years old. Because I’m pretty sure it’s still 2014
I hear we’re posting the sugar pastries we’re enjoying today
November 15, 2025 at 7:27 PM
I hear we’re posting the sugar pastries we’re enjoying today
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Pretty much.
I think a lot of cis people, even allies, don’t really understand that we’re not doing this for fun.
So they think if they just make it inconvenient enough to be trans, we’ll all go “okay, fine, whatever” and stop, and then there just won’t be trans people and we can all move on.
I think a lot of cis people, even allies, don’t really understand that we’re not doing this for fun.
So they think if they just make it inconvenient enough to be trans, we’ll all go “okay, fine, whatever” and stop, and then there just won’t be trans people and we can all move on.
cis people do know that they don’t *actually* want us “using the bathroom of our assigned sex at birth” right? it’s to make us feel unsafe using *any* bathroom in public as a way to make us unsure about heading out into public *at all*
November 15, 2025 at 5:15 PM
Pretty much.
I think a lot of cis people, even allies, don’t really understand that we’re not doing this for fun.
So they think if they just make it inconvenient enough to be trans, we’ll all go “okay, fine, whatever” and stop, and then there just won’t be trans people and we can all move on.
I think a lot of cis people, even allies, don’t really understand that we’re not doing this for fun.
So they think if they just make it inconvenient enough to be trans, we’ll all go “okay, fine, whatever” and stop, and then there just won’t be trans people and we can all move on.
Out & about wearing eyeliner to be read as Girl for the first time in a week or so (I know, I know)
really having to breathe deep & recite the mantra about “HRT will make you look like your mother, and that’s ok” 😮💨
fuckin anxiety disorder all up in the 🏳️⚧️ like unwanted chocolate in my peanut butter
really having to breathe deep & recite the mantra about “HRT will make you look like your mother, and that’s ok” 😮💨
fuckin anxiety disorder all up in the 🏳️⚧️ like unwanted chocolate in my peanut butter
November 15, 2025 at 4:23 PM
Out & about wearing eyeliner to be read as Girl for the first time in a week or so (I know, I know)
really having to breathe deep & recite the mantra about “HRT will make you look like your mother, and that’s ok” 😮💨
fuckin anxiety disorder all up in the 🏳️⚧️ like unwanted chocolate in my peanut butter
really having to breathe deep & recite the mantra about “HRT will make you look like your mother, and that’s ok” 😮💨
fuckin anxiety disorder all up in the 🏳️⚧️ like unwanted chocolate in my peanut butter
every arc the protagonist has to deal with a new weird-ass complication to the concept of martial arts—ribbon dancing, giant pancake spatulas, principal with a pineapple on his head sometimes—in order to resolve gender dysphoria
you will read this voraciously and examine nothing about it for years
you will read this voraciously and examine nothing about it for years
I don’t know anything about “mixed martial arts,” I assume it’s like Street Fighter, one guy’s a boxer, another guy’s a ninja, another guy’s a werewolf, they all have their martial arts
November 15, 2025 at 3:13 PM
every arc the protagonist has to deal with a new weird-ass complication to the concept of martial arts—ribbon dancing, giant pancake spatulas, principal with a pineapple on his head sometimes—in order to resolve gender dysphoria
you will read this voraciously and examine nothing about it for years
you will read this voraciously and examine nothing about it for years
Nice work Timmy. So glad your kids who actually hate you get to visit for Thanksgiving or whatever. I bet they don’t even mask on the flights you stuck a knife in our back to un-cancel.
Hey @kaine.senate.gov I’m talking to you.
Hey @kaine.senate.gov I’m talking to you.
Congress’s shutdown deal eliminated key food safety rules, blocking agencies from enforcing measures to prevent contamination and trace outbreaks. This rollback has coincided with a surge in hospitalizations and deaths from foodborne illnesses.
Shutdown Deal Kills Rules to Prevent Food Contamination and Foodborne Illnesses
The gutting of these rules coincides with a huge increase in hospitalizations and deaths from foodborne illnesses.
truthout.org
November 15, 2025 at 2:02 PM
Nice work Timmy. So glad your kids who actually hate you get to visit for Thanksgiving or whatever. I bet they don’t even mask on the flights you stuck a knife in our back to un-cancel.
Hey @kaine.senate.gov I’m talking to you.
Hey @kaine.senate.gov I’m talking to you.
she’s in town for a week; sweetie & I are having dinner with her tmrw. I haven’t spoken well of her on this acct, so you may be like “Jen why would you do that?” but… for all the whatever… she’s family 🤷🏻♀️
family comes to town, you take em to dinner. Especially if it’s been a whole gender since. 🤷🏻♀️
family comes to town, you take em to dinner. Especially if it’s been a whole gender since. 🤷🏻♀️
Oh 💩, the Australian narcissist who roomed with me 2016-2017 logged on. I sort of forgot that eventually this would probably reach her awareness lol. Wonder what she thinks about all this… beyond “❤️”
That’s the crux of it, right? I don’t want react emojis, I want ESSAYS. 2-page minimum! 12pt font!
That’s the crux of it, right? I don’t want react emojis, I want ESSAYS. 2-page minimum! 12pt font!
November 15, 2025 at 4:24 AM
she’s in town for a week; sweetie & I are having dinner with her tmrw. I haven’t spoken well of her on this acct, so you may be like “Jen why would you do that?” but… for all the whatever… she’s family 🤷🏻♀️
family comes to town, you take em to dinner. Especially if it’s been a whole gender since. 🤷🏻♀️
family comes to town, you take em to dinner. Especially if it’s been a whole gender since. 🤷🏻♀️
Did my nails for the first time in a minute—properly trimmed, and painted 💙 💅🏻
not an A+ job, but the base coat’s down; I can tidy it up in the morning
weird how much such a simple thing helps the gender feels 🤷🏻♀️
not an A+ job, but the base coat’s down; I can tidy it up in the morning
weird how much such a simple thing helps the gender feels 🤷🏻♀️
November 15, 2025 at 4:20 AM
Did my nails for the first time in a minute—properly trimmed, and painted 💙 💅🏻
not an A+ job, but the base coat’s down; I can tidy it up in the morning
weird how much such a simple thing helps the gender feels 🤷🏻♀️
not an A+ job, but the base coat’s down; I can tidy it up in the morning
weird how much such a simple thing helps the gender feels 🤷🏻♀️
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The implication in that Trump/Bill Clinton email is funny but for everyone riffing on it, give your post a second read and ask yourself: “Does this joke hinge on the idea that it’s inherently funny or shameful for a man to do oral on another man?”
I’m not saying don’t joke, just please joke well.
I’m not saying don’t joke, just please joke well.
November 15, 2025 at 3:56 AM
The implication in that Trump/Bill Clinton email is funny but for everyone riffing on it, give your post a second read and ask yourself: “Does this joke hinge on the idea that it’s inherently funny or shameful for a man to do oral on another man?”
I’m not saying don’t joke, just please joke well.
I’m not saying don’t joke, just please joke well.
[narrator voice] “she did *not,* in fact, get her ass kicked.”
[regular voice] I’m surprised too! But one good Surf from Alpha Mega Starmie ninja’d like three KO’s at once lol.
[regular voice] I’m surprised too! But one good Surf from Alpha Mega Starmie ninja’d like three KO’s at once lol.
November 15, 2025 at 1:05 AM
[narrator voice] “she did *not,* in fact, get her ass kicked.”
[regular voice] I’m surprised too! But one good Surf from Alpha Mega Starmie ninja’d like three KO’s at once lol.
[regular voice] I’m surprised too! But one good Surf from Alpha Mega Starmie ninja’d like three KO’s at once lol.
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The filibuster is a critical tool to stop corrupt Republican legislation, unless they threaten to take it away, then we'll just let the bill pass.
That is such insulting logic he really should resign.
That is such insulting logic he really should resign.
November 13, 2025 at 1:03 AM
The filibuster is a critical tool to stop corrupt Republican legislation, unless they threaten to take it away, then we'll just let the bill pass.
That is such insulting logic he really should resign.
That is such insulting logic he really should resign.
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@kaine.senate.gov What has the filibuster stopped? When Trump and unelected Elon Musk were firing federal workers en masses where was the filibuster? Where was the filibuster when Trump shut down USAID? Where's the filibuster on health care cuts? Troops in cities including DC? University shakedowns?
November 13, 2025 at 12:24 AM
@kaine.senate.gov What has the filibuster stopped? When Trump and unelected Elon Musk were firing federal workers en masses where was the filibuster? Where was the filibuster when Trump shut down USAID? Where's the filibuster on health care cuts? Troops in cities including DC? University shakedowns?
i would love us to have this conversation just once WITHOUT the implicit assumption that millionaires (let alone billionaires) leaving someplace is a bad thing.
“They’ll leave and take their money with them!” GOOD. Great! Have fun in Galt’s Gulch. The rest of us have shit to do
“They’ll leave and take their money with them!” GOOD. Great! Have fun in Galt’s Gulch. The rest of us have shit to do
When Massachusetts passed a "millionaires tax" in 2023, conservatives claimed the rich would flee.
But two years later, they haven't — and MA has collected $5.7B for infrastructure and public education.
A reminder that positive change can still happen at the state level.
But two years later, they haven't — and MA has collected $5.7B for infrastructure and public education.
A reminder that positive change can still happen at the state level.
November 14, 2025 at 9:57 PM
i would love us to have this conversation just once WITHOUT the implicit assumption that millionaires (let alone billionaires) leaving someplace is a bad thing.
“They’ll leave and take their money with them!” GOOD. Great! Have fun in Galt’s Gulch. The rest of us have shit to do
“They’ll leave and take their money with them!” GOOD. Great! Have fun in Galt’s Gulch. The rest of us have shit to do
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Do iiii know anyone else here who's going to PAX Unplugged or will be in Philly next weekend?
November 14, 2025 at 8:07 PM
Do iiii know anyone else here who's going to PAX Unplugged or will be in Philly next weekend?
I cherish my novelty Halloween apron for at least a couple reasons, but I do sometimes wish it had pockets
November 14, 2025 at 9:20 PM
I cherish my novelty Halloween apron for at least a couple reasons, but I do sometimes wish it had pockets
well, the world seems to be quite a mess this afternoon.
Time to get back to my week’s allotment of “prying my deadname off the forty years of online accounts I’ve built up”
(so many old Gmail addresses… 😣)
(I basically don’t even use them at all anymore, but it’s on *principle*)
Time to get back to my week’s allotment of “prying my deadname off the forty years of online accounts I’ve built up”
(so many old Gmail addresses… 😣)
(I basically don’t even use them at all anymore, but it’s on *principle*)
November 14, 2025 at 9:19 PM
well, the world seems to be quite a mess this afternoon.
Time to get back to my week’s allotment of “prying my deadname off the forty years of online accounts I’ve built up”
(so many old Gmail addresses… 😣)
(I basically don’t even use them at all anymore, but it’s on *principle*)
Time to get back to my week’s allotment of “prying my deadname off the forty years of online accounts I’ve built up”
(so many old Gmail addresses… 😣)
(I basically don’t even use them at all anymore, but it’s on *principle*)