lostmysauce
@lostmysauce.bsky.social
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vent acc because journaling wasn't working
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lostmysauce
@lostmysauce.bsky.social
· Sep 12
I made this acc to separate all the gross feelings from my main.
A few ground rules:
A few ground rules:
A very dark time folks
But my birthday is coming up so suicide attempt postponed until it passes
But my birthday is coming up so suicide attempt postponed until it passes
November 6, 2025 at 2:01 AM
A very dark time folks
But my birthday is coming up so suicide attempt postponed until it passes
But my birthday is coming up so suicide attempt postponed until it passes
Backs 🥀
I have eaten two small backs of chips today despite not doing anything I have failed
October 22, 2025 at 1:00 PM
Backs 🥀
I have eaten two small backs of chips today despite not doing anything I have failed
October 21, 2025 at 3:16 AM
I have eaten two small backs of chips today despite not doing anything I have failed
Tempted to throw out all my food in the fridge so I have no way to eat
October 20, 2025 at 6:50 AM
Tempted to throw out all my food in the fridge so I have no way to eat
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Cat Bells behind Derwentwater. My special memory is of a family hike over Cat Bells with my two teenage sons over 20 years ago. The hike is relatively easy but the views are amazing.
#AlphabetChallenge
#WeekMforMemories
#MountainMonday
#LakeDistrict
#photography
#BlueSkyMonday
#AlphabetChallenge
#WeekMforMemories
#MountainMonday
#LakeDistrict
#photography
#BlueSkyMonday
September 22, 2025 at 2:27 PM
Cat Bells behind Derwentwater. My special memory is of a family hike over Cat Bells with my two teenage sons over 20 years ago. The hike is relatively easy but the views are amazing.
#AlphabetChallenge
#WeekMforMemories
#MountainMonday
#LakeDistrict
#photography
#BlueSkyMonday
#AlphabetChallenge
#WeekMforMemories
#MountainMonday
#LakeDistrict
#photography
#BlueSkyMonday
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September 22, 2025 at 11:36 AM
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This orchid seems to flower whenever it wants - spring, summer, autumn, winter.
Dendrobium Jonathan’s Glory ‘Dark Joy’
#flowers #gardening #nature #bloomscrolling #photography #macro #macrophotopraphy #365photo 📷🌱🌴🪴sky
Dendrobium Jonathan’s Glory ‘Dark Joy’
#flowers #gardening #nature #bloomscrolling #photography #macro #macrophotopraphy #365photo 📷🌱🌴🪴sky
September 22, 2025 at 4:02 PM
This orchid seems to flower whenever it wants - spring, summer, autumn, winter.
Dendrobium Jonathan’s Glory ‘Dark Joy’
#flowers #gardening #nature #bloomscrolling #photography #macro #macrophotopraphy #365photo 📷🌱🌴🪴sky
Dendrobium Jonathan’s Glory ‘Dark Joy’
#flowers #gardening #nature #bloomscrolling #photography #macro #macrophotopraphy #365photo 📷🌱🌴🪴sky
I haven't eaten since Saturday night. I could lie and say I was feeling constipated, that I'm trying to save money... but I know the truth.
September 22, 2025 at 4:22 PM
I haven't eaten since Saturday night. I could lie and say I was feeling constipated, that I'm trying to save money... but I know the truth.
Just a little drabble I wrote in like 15 minutes
September 20, 2025 at 10:23 AM
Just a little drabble I wrote in like 15 minutes
It looked very beautiful outside this morning. I want this to be the last thing I see before I kill myself.
#photography
#photography
September 19, 2025 at 3:51 PM
It looked very beautiful outside this morning. I want this to be the last thing I see before I kill myself.
#photography
#photography
I know I'm going to do it I just know it and every time I think that it always scares me
For a moment I felt so close to death without being in it's throes and I was scared of how peaceful I felt
For a moment I felt so close to death without being in it's throes and I was scared of how peaceful I felt
September 19, 2025 at 7:22 AM
I know I'm going to do it I just know it and every time I think that it always scares me
For a moment I felt so close to death without being in it's throes and I was scared of how peaceful I felt
For a moment I felt so close to death without being in it's throes and I was scared of how peaceful I felt
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I should stop making plans for the future so I have nothing that keeps me alive
September 19, 2025 at 7:16 AM
I should stop making plans for the future so I have nothing that keeps me alive
I feel like I almost died today and I have no one to run and cry to
Story of my life I guess
Story of my life I guess
September 18, 2025 at 7:18 AM
I feel like I almost died today and I have no one to run and cry to
Story of my life I guess
Story of my life I guess
I just want a physical manifestation of all the pain I'm going through
Am I doing it for attention? I suppose you can consider a cry for help to be a cry for pity as well
#photography
Am I doing it for attention? I suppose you can consider a cry for help to be a cry for pity as well
#photography
September 18, 2025 at 5:35 AM
I just want a physical manifestation of all the pain I'm going through
Am I doing it for attention? I suppose you can consider a cry for help to be a cry for pity as well
#photography
Am I doing it for attention? I suppose you can consider a cry for help to be a cry for pity as well
#photography
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September 18, 2025 at 2:58 AM
Doom scrolling with a belt around my neck go hard lowkey
September 18, 2025 at 1:09 AM
Doom scrolling with a belt around my neck go hard lowkey
I think I'm just going to drop out and kill myself
September 18, 2025 at 12:34 AM
I think I'm just going to drop out and kill myself
I spent almost 24 hours in my room. I left only to go to the bathroom and get food.
I shouldn't have gotten food. I should've gone hungry. That's what I deserve.
I shouldn't have gotten food. I should've gone hungry. That's what I deserve.
September 17, 2025 at 4:46 AM
I spent almost 24 hours in my room. I left only to go to the bathroom and get food.
I shouldn't have gotten food. I should've gone hungry. That's what I deserve.
I shouldn't have gotten food. I should've gone hungry. That's what I deserve.
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September 15, 2025 at 12:03 PM
One of these days, I'll find peace in knowing I'm not wanted. It'll make it easier to leave.
September 15, 2025 at 4:54 PM
One of these days, I'll find peace in knowing I'm not wanted. It'll make it easier to leave.
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September 14, 2025 at 2:05 AM
#photography
I'm not wanted. And no matter how much I tell myself otherwise, I'm not okay with it.
I want to feel wanted. I want to feel loved. But instead I feel utterly, completely, profoundly alone.
And it's all my fault.
I'm not wanted. And no matter how much I tell myself otherwise, I'm not okay with it.
I want to feel wanted. I want to feel loved. But instead I feel utterly, completely, profoundly alone.
And it's all my fault.
September 14, 2025 at 1:35 PM
#photography
I'm not wanted. And no matter how much I tell myself otherwise, I'm not okay with it.
I want to feel wanted. I want to feel loved. But instead I feel utterly, completely, profoundly alone.
And it's all my fault.
I'm not wanted. And no matter how much I tell myself otherwise, I'm not okay with it.
I want to feel wanted. I want to feel loved. But instead I feel utterly, completely, profoundly alone.
And it's all my fault.
Maybe it's not the fact that I'm boring - people just don't care. I've done fun and interesting things, but at the end of the day, my place is to listen, not speak. To give, not to take.
People take advantage of my body, my time, and I let them. As long as I get a crumb of attention.
People take advantage of my body, my time, and I let them. As long as I get a crumb of attention.
I try to show that I'm engaged and interested in someone's life when they tell me about it.
I wish I was offered the same courtesy. I talk about my day, how I'm doing, and I'm always met with radio silence and bored stares.
I guess I'm a boring person.
I wish I was offered the same courtesy. I talk about my day, how I'm doing, and I'm always met with radio silence and bored stares.
I guess I'm a boring person.
September 13, 2025 at 11:08 AM
Maybe it's not the fact that I'm boring - people just don't care. I've done fun and interesting things, but at the end of the day, my place is to listen, not speak. To give, not to take.
People take advantage of my body, my time, and I let them. As long as I get a crumb of attention.
People take advantage of my body, my time, and I let them. As long as I get a crumb of attention.