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day eighty five was very fine indeed. good focus through most of the hour, even with some construction noise starting outside. deep relaxation and good physical discipline. vyvanse definitely helped this one, but it was the strong intention that carried me through.
so a few months ago i decided i would do a magical working of meditating for an hour a day until my 40th birthday, starting tomorrow for obscure reasons. wish me luck on the “sit there and do nothing working”! i’m going to struggle a lot!
February 1, 2026 at 9:29 PM
day eighty five was very fine indeed. good focus through most of the hour, even with some construction noise starting outside. deep relaxation and good physical discipline. vyvanse definitely helped this one, but it was the strong intention that carried me through.
ben shapiro’s opinions on WAP were a form of non-grool meditation
February 1, 2026 at 9:27 PM
ben shapiro’s opinions on WAP were a form of non-grool meditation
“this will fix me” and it’s just meditating for longer and more often
February 1, 2026 at 11:38 AM
“this will fix me” and it’s just meditating for longer and more often
is it a bit on the nose that when i drew tarot cards for this year (one per month and one for the year overall) that for the month i turn 40 i drew the queen of wands?
February 1, 2026 at 11:04 AM
is it a bit on the nose that when i drew tarot cards for this year (one per month and one for the year overall) that for the month i turn 40 i drew the queen of wands?
note: kind of hot in parts, though, right?
just watched “Mulholland Drive” (2001), and i’m not even going to pretend i have a solid interpretation of that movie after one watch 😛
February 1, 2026 at 9:47 AM
note: kind of hot in parts, though, right?
just watched “Mulholland Drive” (2001), and i’m not even going to pretend i have a solid interpretation of that movie after one watch 😛
February 1, 2026 at 9:33 AM
just watched “Mulholland Drive” (2001), and i’m not even going to pretend i have a solid interpretation of that movie after one watch 😛
it’s fun to be a social media pocket dimension
February 1, 2026 at 6:32 AM
it’s fun to be a social media pocket dimension
me, lightly putting FODMAPS into my belly: stomach please accept this danger food so i feel good
stomach, her farts enormous: you SICK stomach? you fill her body with the taco? oh! oh! diarrhoea for mother! diarrhoea for mother for One Thousand Years!!!!
stomach, her farts enormous: you SICK stomach? you fill her body with the taco? oh! oh! diarrhoea for mother! diarrhoea for mother for One Thousand Years!!!!
February 1, 2026 at 4:25 AM
me, lightly putting FODMAPS into my belly: stomach please accept this danger food so i feel good
stomach, her farts enormous: you SICK stomach? you fill her body with the taco? oh! oh! diarrhoea for mother! diarrhoea for mother for One Thousand Years!!!!
stomach, her farts enormous: you SICK stomach? you fill her body with the taco? oh! oh! diarrhoea for mother! diarrhoea for mother for One Thousand Years!!!!
just watched “The Last Movie” (1971), a fascinating exercise in self-indulgence by Dennis Hopper. some absolutely beautiful imagery, and the rest is a disorientating garble that is mostly incoherent but occasionally fourth wall breaking genius. watch it alone.
February 1, 2026 at 1:49 AM
just watched “The Last Movie” (1971), a fascinating exercise in self-indulgence by Dennis Hopper. some absolutely beautiful imagery, and the rest is a disorientating garble that is mostly incoherent but occasionally fourth wall breaking genius. watch it alone.
day eighty four with excellent physical discipline, good resistance of sleepiness, some periods of concentration, but unending mundane distractions. the problem is that life is pretty fun, you know? even the suffering is sometimes fun!
so a few months ago i decided i would do a magical working of meditating for an hour a day until my 40th birthday, starting tomorrow for obscure reasons. wish me luck on the “sit there and do nothing working”! i’m going to struggle a lot!
February 1, 2026 at 12:05 AM
day eighty four with excellent physical discipline, good resistance of sleepiness, some periods of concentration, but unending mundane distractions. the problem is that life is pretty fun, you know? even the suffering is sometimes fun!
this feels like an ad read frasier crane would have to do to advertise trans girls
“Leaving the dick for you to enjoy in a feminine setting.”
fucking chasers
January 31, 2026 at 12:42 PM
this feels like an ad read frasier crane would have to do to advertise trans girls
just watched “Weird Science” (1985), very much a movie from history that is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay creepier in current year, yikes. also, once again, Kevin Smith really liked John Hughes movies, huh?
January 31, 2026 at 11:25 AM
just watched “Weird Science” (1985), very much a movie from history that is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay creepier in current year, yikes. also, once again, Kevin Smith really liked John Hughes movies, huh?
uhhhh i dropped my bicalutamide into a little container and it landed on its side and stayed upright 😰
January 31, 2026 at 10:44 AM
uhhhh i dropped my bicalutamide into a little container and it landed on its side and stayed upright 😰
too many problems are due to some people never accepting that being a human being is the most embarrassing thing in the entire fucking universe and there is no cure
January 31, 2026 at 10:36 AM
too many problems are due to some people never accepting that being a human being is the most embarrassing thing in the entire fucking universe and there is no cure
just watched “F for Fake” (1975), a docudrama by Orson Welles about forgery and fakery that is absolutely delightful. once again i lament that i never got a chance to seduce 50-something Orson Welles 😔
January 31, 2026 at 9:16 AM
just watched “F for Fake” (1975), a docudrama by Orson Welles about forgery and fakery that is absolutely delightful. once again i lament that i never got a chance to seduce 50-something Orson Welles 😔
also, while arnold wasn’t much for delivering dialogue, his style of physical acting is actually kind of perfect for this thing?
just watched “Conan The Barbarian” (1982) for the first time in a loooooong time and it really goes on and on, huh? absolutely the most “dudes rock” fantasy movie ever made, made at the exact point in time that this specific adaptation could possibly have been made.
January 31, 2026 at 6:36 AM
also, while arnold wasn’t much for delivering dialogue, his style of physical acting is actually kind of perfect for this thing?
just watched “Conan The Barbarian” (1982) for the first time in a loooooong time and it really goes on and on, huh? absolutely the most “dudes rock” fantasy movie ever made, made at the exact point in time that this specific adaptation could possibly have been made.
January 31, 2026 at 6:35 AM
just watched “Conan The Barbarian” (1982) for the first time in a loooooong time and it really goes on and on, huh? absolutely the most “dudes rock” fantasy movie ever made, made at the exact point in time that this specific adaptation could possibly have been made.
okay, i do draws from two different decks for my weekly tarot spreads, and you have to admit it tracks for this hangover that the RWS draw for today was 5 of pentacles 😂
January 31, 2026 at 2:59 AM
okay, i do draws from two different decks for my weekly tarot spreads, and you have to admit it tracks for this hangover that the RWS draw for today was 5 of pentacles 😂
supplementary 45-minute meditation to music didn’t go wrong either, starting to feel a bit more human
January 31, 2026 at 2:31 AM
supplementary 45-minute meditation to music didn’t go wrong either, starting to feel a bit more human
hahaha noooo you’re too hot to know the true face of god 😏
January 31, 2026 at 1:25 AM
hahaha noooo you’re too hot to know the true face of god 😏
day eighty three, a brutally hungover sit but a sit nonetheless. naturally, fighting off sleepiness a lot, but still got some periods of decent focus. also had extremely detailed visuals when on the edge of sleep, just hyperrealistic flashes of things good and bad and unsettling and glorious.
so a few months ago i decided i would do a magical working of meditating for an hour a day until my 40th birthday, starting tomorrow for obscure reasons. wish me luck on the “sit there and do nothing working”! i’m going to struggle a lot!
January 31, 2026 at 1:00 AM
day eighty three, a brutally hungover sit but a sit nonetheless. naturally, fighting off sleepiness a lot, but still got some periods of decent focus. also had extremely detailed visuals when on the edge of sleep, just hyperrealistic flashes of things good and bad and unsettling and glorious.
okay, time to attempt what will probably be the hardest sit of the sit and do nothing working. pray for me.
i bet meditating when i wake up is gonna suuuuuck
January 30, 2026 at 11:51 PM
okay, time to attempt what will probably be the hardest sit of the sit and do nothing working. pray for me.
it’s really developing into a rough one, maturing even. don’t be me.
i am disastrously hungover 😭
January 30, 2026 at 11:32 PM
it’s really developing into a rough one, maturing even. don’t be me.
rotoscoped simpsons
January 30, 2026 at 11:14 PM
rotoscoped simpsons
i think it is funny when FODMAPS advice for some fruit is “you may have a quarter of a cup at this *exact* ripeness, no more and no less” like how many people had to shit themselves to find the exact amount
January 30, 2026 at 9:45 PM
i think it is funny when FODMAPS advice for some fruit is “you may have a quarter of a cup at this *exact* ripeness, no more and no less” like how many people had to shit themselves to find the exact amount