hil
@wanderinghil.bsky.social
queer autistic poet. Chronic illness + memory loss, so please be patient. Currently writing about food and trauma. Always Dropout, ttrpgs, and audiodramas. (they/he)
I once told a minister who spoke on a subject dear to me "YOU ARE THE MOTHERFUCKING SUN"
it was the kind of compliment that was very weird but was the best approximation of my feelings I could make.
today, I found out she wrote that down and has carried it around since.
SAY THE WEIRD THING.
it was the kind of compliment that was very weird but was the best approximation of my feelings I could make.
today, I found out she wrote that down and has carried it around since.
SAY THE WEIRD THING.
October 19, 2025 at 1:34 AM
I once told a minister who spoke on a subject dear to me "YOU ARE THE MOTHERFUCKING SUN"
it was the kind of compliment that was very weird but was the best approximation of my feelings I could make.
today, I found out she wrote that down and has carried it around since.
SAY THE WEIRD THING.
it was the kind of compliment that was very weird but was the best approximation of my feelings I could make.
today, I found out she wrote that down and has carried it around since.
SAY THE WEIRD THING.
Between CR Campaign 4 starting and Dropout's Adventuring Academy, my squish on Luis Carazo is so indulged this week. 😍
October 5, 2025 at 12:40 AM
Between CR Campaign 4 starting and Dropout's Adventuring Academy, my squish on Luis Carazo is so indulged this week. 😍
I made it 3 hours and 11 minutes into the new Critical Role campaign before I was yelling GODDAMNIT BRENNAN LEE MULLIGAN, setting my phone down, and crying over an NPC we just met. 😭
October 4, 2025 at 1:57 AM
I made it 3 hours and 11 minutes into the new Critical Role campaign before I was yelling GODDAMNIT BRENNAN LEE MULLIGAN, setting my phone down, and crying over an NPC we just met. 😭
I am a Pile of Trembling Dogs because they fear the weather, and I am once again struck by a strange tender feeling about trying to comfort beings that I struggle with my own fear of.
September 22, 2025 at 7:50 PM
I am a Pile of Trembling Dogs because they fear the weather, and I am once again struck by a strange tender feeling about trying to comfort beings that I struggle with my own fear of.
My friends who send me "things that failed to kill you so far" lists on my birthday have started early this year, and I feel very American right now.
Cos "too broke to buy seizure meds" sits right next to "high hillbillies playing with guns in the house."
😅
Cos "too broke to buy seizure meds" sits right next to "high hillbillies playing with guns in the house."
😅
September 15, 2025 at 5:57 PM
My friends who send me "things that failed to kill you so far" lists on my birthday have started early this year, and I feel very American right now.
Cos "too broke to buy seizure meds" sits right next to "high hillbillies playing with guns in the house."
😅
Cos "too broke to buy seizure meds" sits right next to "high hillbillies playing with guns in the house."
😅
This morning's UU service involves a talk called "Hope is a Discipline" by Rachel Rogers and the words
"This is how hope learns our names"
Have been in my head all day now.
"This is how hope learns our names"
Have been in my head all day now.
September 14, 2025 at 6:54 PM
This morning's UU service involves a talk called "Hope is a Discipline" by Rachel Rogers and the words
"This is how hope learns our names"
Have been in my head all day now.
"This is how hope learns our names"
Have been in my head all day now.
My favorite storytelling show filled me full of free wine, Benedictine sandwiches, marinated onions, and pumpkin bread.
Hugged half the room, and now I shall sleep for a million years.
Hugged half the room, and now I shall sleep for a million years.
September 12, 2025 at 3:29 AM
My favorite storytelling show filled me full of free wine, Benedictine sandwiches, marinated onions, and pumpkin bread.
Hugged half the room, and now I shall sleep for a million years.
Hugged half the room, and now I shall sleep for a million years.
So tired of Blackburn. Just. So tired.
MTSU — the assistant dean of students was fired last night one hour after Senator Marsha Blackburn called on them to do so after her posts about Charlie Kirk.
September 12, 2025 at 3:24 AM
So tired of Blackburn. Just. So tired.
A few days ago, I spent several minutes at the grocery picking up a bagged salad and putting it back repeatedly before deciding I couldn't fit it in the $20 I was eating on for the week.
Just got approved for SNAP and I am going to go buy that salad as soon as I get my card. 😭
Just got approved for SNAP and I am going to go buy that salad as soon as I get my card. 😭
September 10, 2025 at 7:46 PM
A few days ago, I spent several minutes at the grocery picking up a bagged salad and putting it back repeatedly before deciding I couldn't fit it in the $20 I was eating on for the week.
Just got approved for SNAP and I am going to go buy that salad as soon as I get my card. 😭
Just got approved for SNAP and I am going to go buy that salad as soon as I get my card. 😭
Already calling: I'm going to need to write a fan poem from each head's perspective about their experience of the others.
Unveiling the cover for THE DRAGON HAS SOME COMPLAINTS!
Garrodigh is a curmudgeonly three-headed dragon who pretends to be tame so he can eat for free at the local dragon-riding academy. Unfortunately, the rider he's assigned to is... a lot.
Coming Summer 2026 from DAW (US) and Arcadia (UK)!
Garrodigh is a curmudgeonly three-headed dragon who pretends to be tame so he can eat for free at the local dragon-riding academy. Unfortunately, the rider he's assigned to is... a lot.
Coming Summer 2026 from DAW (US) and Arcadia (UK)!
September 9, 2025 at 6:44 PM
Already calling: I'm going to need to write a fan poem from each head's perspective about their experience of the others.
Me at a spoken word event politely laughing several times while the man asking to take a selfie with me gets more and more confused by my behavior. 😭
Christine Smout, 40, can barely process a single word you’re saying in the noisy, overcrowded pub you suggested meeting in.
Autistic woman who didn’t hear what you said about to chance it with a laugh
An autistic woman with auditory processing disorder who didn’t hear what you just said is about to take a risk and assume it was a joke, sources have revealed. Christine Smout, 40, can barely process…
thedailytism.com
September 7, 2025 at 2:04 PM
Me at a spoken word event politely laughing several times while the man asking to take a selfie with me gets more and more confused by my behavior. 😭
"If you can do X thing, you can also do Y thing."
This is the most common statement I get about literally everything I struggle with, and it's exhausting.
It does not work that way. Context and details matter so much.
This is the most common statement I get about literally everything I struggle with, and it's exhausting.
It does not work that way. Context and details matter so much.
I wish more people understood that autism is a dynamic disability:
- Just because we can do something one day doesn’t mean we can the next
- Our abilities change with context, environment, stress levels and support
- Co-occurring conditions also affect our autism and functioning
#AutismAwareness
- Just because we can do something one day doesn’t mean we can the next
- Our abilities change with context, environment, stress levels and support
- Co-occurring conditions also affect our autism and functioning
#AutismAwareness
September 6, 2025 at 5:49 PM
"If you can do X thing, you can also do Y thing."
This is the most common statement I get about literally everything I struggle with, and it's exhausting.
It does not work that way. Context and details matter so much.
This is the most common statement I get about literally everything I struggle with, and it's exhausting.
It does not work that way. Context and details matter so much.
Trying to write something for an online event after not writing much for a while, and thought I'd share. Link to my ko-fi because it's the only thing I have up right now for posting to.
ko-fi.com/post/just-a-...
ko-fi.com/post/just-a-...
just a lil quick poem
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September 6, 2025 at 3:53 PM
Trying to write something for an online event after not writing much for a while, and thought I'd share. Link to my ko-fi because it's the only thing I have up right now for posting to.
ko-fi.com/post/just-a-...
ko-fi.com/post/just-a-...
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Time is a flat circle
September 6, 2025 at 1:25 PM
Time is a flat circle
Thoughts and prayers for my friends' dinner guest who accidentally mentioned my special interest (Dropout).
September 6, 2025 at 2:42 AM
Thoughts and prayers for my friends' dinner guest who accidentally mentioned my special interest (Dropout).
Conversation with a care manager today: basically "I can put your pronouns on your records, but we ARE where we are and do you want them there if the state pulls them?"
September 4, 2025 at 8:13 PM
Conversation with a care manager today: basically "I can put your pronouns on your records, but we ARE where we are and do you want them there if the state pulls them?"
I'm staying with friends because of, ya know, homelessness. And every time I go from one room to another, the Inspectors come to question me about my intentions. At least I'm never lonely.
(Third, less nosy dog not pictured.)
(Third, less nosy dog not pictured.)
September 3, 2025 at 6:26 PM
I'm staying with friends because of, ya know, homelessness. And every time I go from one room to another, the Inspectors come to question me about my intentions. At least I'm never lonely.
(Third, less nosy dog not pictured.)
(Third, less nosy dog not pictured.)
Just finished Compound Fracture by Andrew Joseph White, and the autistic MC struggling to shower even when covered in gore made me feel so seen.
Showering makes me need a nap because it's so stressful. 😅
Showering makes me need a nap because it's so stressful. 😅
September 3, 2025 at 2:33 PM
Just finished Compound Fracture by Andrew Joseph White, and the autistic MC struggling to shower even when covered in gore made me feel so seen.
Showering makes me need a nap because it's so stressful. 😅
Showering makes me need a nap because it's so stressful. 😅
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The Play for Peace: Games for Palestine charity bundle is now live! Nearly 400 games from creators all around the world, with proceeds going directly to Gaza relief efforts.
Bundle link: itch.io/b/2979/play-...
We made a launch trailer to celebrate this moment👇 Please RT.
Bundle link: itch.io/b/2979/play-...
We made a launch trailer to celebrate this moment👇 Please RT.
September 2, 2025 at 4:22 PM
The Play for Peace: Games for Palestine charity bundle is now live! Nearly 400 games from creators all around the world, with proceeds going directly to Gaza relief efforts.
Bundle link: itch.io/b/2979/play-...
We made a launch trailer to celebrate this moment👇 Please RT.
Bundle link: itch.io/b/2979/play-...
We made a launch trailer to celebrate this moment👇 Please RT.
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I am calm. I am breathing deeply through my nose. I am counting to ten. I…
WHAT, ARE YOU AFRAID YOUR DOG WILL INFODUMP TO YOU ABOUT THE FUCKING BALL?!?
WHAT, ARE YOU AFRAID YOUR DOG WILL INFODUMP TO YOU ABOUT THE FUCKING BALL?!?
September 2, 2025 at 7:35 PM
I am calm. I am breathing deeply through my nose. I am counting to ten. I…
WHAT, ARE YOU AFRAID YOUR DOG WILL INFODUMP TO YOU ABOUT THE FUCKING BALL?!?
WHAT, ARE YOU AFRAID YOUR DOG WILL INFODUMP TO YOU ABOUT THE FUCKING BALL?!?
I am once again eating sweet potatoes, lentils, and rice lazily cooked in one pot. Because I am poor and tired.
September 2, 2025 at 10:03 PM
I am once again eating sweet potatoes, lentils, and rice lazily cooked in one pot. Because I am poor and tired.
Damn, all the talk about Trump being alive (maybe) has turned him into the Grandfather bird from ACOFAF in my head. You know, the guy made up of all the worst parts of birds. Who is alive, not dead.
September 2, 2025 at 8:55 PM
Damn, all the talk about Trump being alive (maybe) has turned him into the Grandfather bird from ACOFAF in my head. You know, the guy made up of all the worst parts of birds. Who is alive, not dead.
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The NRA buys off Congress. No action on guns.
The oil industry buys off Congress. No action on climate.
Insurance companies buy off Congress. No action on health care.
The list goes on and on.
Money in politics is the root of our dysfunction.
The oil industry buys off Congress. No action on climate.
Insurance companies buy off Congress. No action on health care.
The list goes on and on.
Money in politics is the root of our dysfunction.
August 29, 2025 at 9:45 PM
The NRA buys off Congress. No action on guns.
The oil industry buys off Congress. No action on climate.
Insurance companies buy off Congress. No action on health care.
The list goes on and on.
Money in politics is the root of our dysfunction.
The oil industry buys off Congress. No action on climate.
Insurance companies buy off Congress. No action on health care.
The list goes on and on.
Money in politics is the root of our dysfunction.