Sean
@varutotham.com
Likes ttrpgs, dwarf fortress, morrowind, whisk(e)y, weird machines, empathy, fermentation, puzzles, maps, absurdity, and permaculture. Systems and chaos. Is queer, leftist, student, jankwright. Former eve player.
When you load a morrowind save from months ago and have to figure out why you're at a shrine surrounded by dead bodies.
January 18, 2026 at 6:47 AM
When you load a morrowind save from months ago and have to figure out why you're at a shrine surrounded by dead bodies.
I used to be so cool, I don't know what happened.
October 19, 2025 at 12:22 PM
I used to be so cool, I don't know what happened.
I've not recently felt quite so old, poor, and helpless as going into a subway (food) and seeing footlongs for $20.
October 3, 2025 at 6:25 AM
I've not recently felt quite so old, poor, and helpless as going into a subway (food) and seeing footlongs for $20.
Investigation show where the duo is replaced by one person. I've never seen this done. Audience accepts that it's one person, but it cuts between two or more... imagine in the car, like true detective. It's not observed by folks in the world. But you get the trope and get to drool over one actor.
September 22, 2025 at 5:54 AM
Investigation show where the duo is replaced by one person. I've never seen this done. Audience accepts that it's one person, but it cuts between two or more... imagine in the car, like true detective. It's not observed by folks in the world. But you get the trope and get to drool over one actor.
Pickled eggs I jarred last Friday are coming along really nicely; Lao Gan Ma ones are the best, but the garlic ones are great too. Lemon pepper might take another week or two to really shine, we'll see.
September 18, 2025 at 2:42 AM
Pickled eggs I jarred last Friday are coming along really nicely; Lao Gan Ma ones are the best, but the garlic ones are great too. Lemon pepper might take another week or two to really shine, we'll see.
This feels so performative and I hate that, but to trans folks who rightfully are scared shitless, I'm politically and kinetically active. Let me know if there's anything I can do. I can, will, and am fighting.
August 28, 2025 at 6:24 AM
This feels so performative and I hate that, but to trans folks who rightfully are scared shitless, I'm politically and kinetically active. Let me know if there's anything I can do. I can, will, and am fighting.
Something I've never seen in a ttrpg book, but think it would be cool. Bind the pages to a rail, hardcover can slide off the rail and become a GM screen. Also flash memory is dummy cheap now. Including a microsd with the book that has a pdf of the book and also generators and other tools would rule.
August 26, 2025 at 8:54 AM
Something I've never seen in a ttrpg book, but think it would be cool. Bind the pages to a rail, hardcover can slide off the rail and become a GM screen. Also flash memory is dummy cheap now. Including a microsd with the book that has a pdf of the book and also generators and other tools would rule.
Me at the opera house in San Francisco in the 90s. Real Baratheon vibes here. I miss having long hair! Working on it, but the in-between stage is rough. Using lots of oil to keep it in check.
August 26, 2025 at 8:02 AM
Me at the opera house in San Francisco in the 90s. Real Baratheon vibes here. I miss having long hair! Working on it, but the in-between stage is rough. Using lots of oil to keep it in check.
Thought once about someone whose superpower is they know everything that's known (by humans?). So not omniscient? I wonder what a story following such a person would look like. And if they actually gave a fuck and wanted to do good. Idk if I've seen this in comics or ttrpgs. Certainly alters scope.
August 24, 2025 at 2:54 AM
Thought once about someone whose superpower is they know everything that's known (by humans?). So not omniscient? I wonder what a story following such a person would look like. And if they actually gave a fuck and wanted to do good. Idk if I've seen this in comics or ttrpgs. Certainly alters scope.
Saw this map recently and thought "might make for the start of a good cyberpunk map". I also like the idea that the borders here don't need to be adjusted to fit the coast; the megacites of circa 2XXX extend as a tight swarm of houseboats connected by walkways, sometimes for hundreds of miles.
August 22, 2025 at 3:55 AM
Saw this map recently and thought "might make for the start of a good cyberpunk map". I also like the idea that the borders here don't need to be adjusted to fit the coast; the megacites of circa 2XXX extend as a tight swarm of houseboats connected by walkways, sometimes for hundreds of miles.
(in no particular order)
- TES: Morrowind
- KotOR 1&2
- Mario 64
- Dwarf Fortress
- Perfect Dark
- Myst
- Sonic 2
- Boson X
- Half-Life
- Halo: CE
- TES: Morrowind
- KotOR 1&2
- Mario 64
- Dwarf Fortress
- Perfect Dark
- Myst
- Sonic 2
- Boson X
- Half-Life
- Halo: CE
- Command and Conquer Red Alert 2
- Shenmue 1+2
- The Elder Scrolls: Morrowind
- Streets of Rage
- Jet Set Radio
- Final Fantasy 8
- God Hand
- Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 2
- Metal Gear Solid
- Panzer Dragoon Zwei
kinda
- Shenmue 1+2
- The Elder Scrolls: Morrowind
- Streets of Rage
- Jet Set Radio
- Final Fantasy 8
- God Hand
- Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 2
- Metal Gear Solid
- Panzer Dragoon Zwei
kinda
10 games to get to know you (not necessarily my favorites! But the ones that left the biggest impact on me)
- Metro 2033
- Caves of Qud
- Day of the Tentacle
- Fatal Frame 2
- XCOM
- Metal Gear Solid
- Elite: Dangerous
- Pyre
- Shogun 2: Total War
- Battletech
- Metro 2033
- Caves of Qud
- Day of the Tentacle
- Fatal Frame 2
- XCOM
- Metal Gear Solid
- Elite: Dangerous
- Pyre
- Shogun 2: Total War
- Battletech
August 22, 2025 at 3:45 AM
(in no particular order)
- TES: Morrowind
- KotOR 1&2
- Mario 64
- Dwarf Fortress
- Perfect Dark
- Myst
- Sonic 2
- Boson X
- Half-Life
- Halo: CE
- TES: Morrowind
- KotOR 1&2
- Mario 64
- Dwarf Fortress
- Perfect Dark
- Myst
- Sonic 2
- Boson X
- Half-Life
- Halo: CE
I just wanna think about castles and friendship and food and sunrises over the mountains while drinking coffee. I'm so damn tired.
August 18, 2025 at 10:01 AM
I just wanna think about castles and friendship and food and sunrises over the mountains while drinking coffee. I'm so damn tired.
arduous character creation
arguments about esoteric topics
gratuitous disregard for ethics
arguments about esoteric topics
gratuitous disregard for ethics
Name 3 reasons folks may dislike your fave ttrpg:
Lancer
1) incredibly gamey and war as a sport
2) builds, builds, builds, it's all about builds
3) there is a hard disconnect between controlling the pilot and controlling the mech
Lancer
1) incredibly gamey and war as a sport
2) builds, builds, builds, it's all about builds
3) there is a hard disconnect between controlling the pilot and controlling the mech
Name 3 reasons folks may dislike your fave TTRPG:
Pokemon Tabletop united
1) Everyone gets a character sheet! *insert Oprah meme here*
2) it's possible to play on paper, but your gonna want to use the excel sheet (yes the spread sheet but man its a godsend)
3) initiatives can change each round
Pokemon Tabletop united
1) Everyone gets a character sheet! *insert Oprah meme here*
2) it's possible to play on paper, but your gonna want to use the excel sheet (yes the spread sheet but man its a godsend)
3) initiatives can change each round
May 29, 2025 at 4:47 AM
arduous character creation
arguments about esoteric topics
gratuitous disregard for ethics
arguments about esoteric topics
gratuitous disregard for ethics
"Angerangered", dwarven mountainhome. Pigma micron 03 (black) and pilot g2 05 (light blue) pens.
May 29, 2025 at 1:13 AM
"Angerangered", dwarven mountainhome. Pigma micron 03 (black) and pilot g2 05 (light blue) pens.
ttrpg that's written on loose pages, numbered but distributed separately. most who play don't have the full book. some pages are more common than others.
February 21, 2025 at 6:36 AM
ttrpg that's written on loose pages, numbered but distributed separately. most who play don't have the full book. some pages are more common than others.
Hmmm... Manshoon as Dracula Flow?
February 20, 2025 at 10:29 PM
Hmmm... Manshoon as Dracula Flow?
Still alive, just exhausted. Working on this little town today felt very healing.
February 8, 2025 at 5:26 AM
Still alive, just exhausted. Working on this little town today felt very healing.
Didn't get much writing done today, but I did poke around in the Tiny Glade demo. 😊
September 23, 2024 at 1:39 AM
Didn't get much writing done today, but I did poke around in the Tiny Glade demo. 😊
Cyberpunk horror idea: to test a skill, convert character portrait to .txt, sum the letter values in the skill being used, multiply sum by number of tests that have been made so far, scroll to that line in the txt and delete it. Effect this has on image is used to determine effects on the character.
September 19, 2024 at 11:35 PM
Cyberpunk horror idea: to test a skill, convert character portrait to .txt, sum the letter values in the skill being used, multiply sum by number of tests that have been made so far, scroll to that line in the txt and delete it. Effect this has on image is used to determine effects on the character.
Boyfriend brought me some of this Maui BBQ curry spice back from his Hawaii trip, and it's amazing on eggs.
September 19, 2024 at 6:30 PM
Boyfriend brought me some of this Maui BBQ curry spice back from his Hawaii trip, and it's amazing on eggs.
Saw some butterflies today, that was nice.
September 19, 2024 at 12:11 AM
Saw some butterflies today, that was nice.
I can't get over how much I love this. "Deplorable Death of Savoisy" by Gustave Doré.
September 18, 2024 at 7:26 PM
I can't get over how much I love this. "Deplorable Death of Savoisy" by Gustave Doré.
