Syko
@syko.ruins.party
MH/vent diary
topics : blow-ups, episodes, delusions, paranoia, hallucinations, gender identity, trauma, regression
adult (20s) mdni pls
dni: edsky, ists, phobes, blocked
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PLS RESPECT DNI + BLOCKS <3
topics : blow-ups, episodes, delusions, paranoia, hallucinations, gender identity, trauma, regression
adult (20s) mdni pls
dni: edsky, ists, phobes, blocked
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PLS RESPECT DNI + BLOCKS <3
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Syko
@syko.ruins.party
· 15d
also if you’re here and i’ve blocked you, you’re really fucking weird so maybe stop pls thnx. blocking boundaries exist for a reason and clearsky isn’t healthy. leave me be. if you think you’re smart enough to find my main, fucking block me there too, but don’t stalk people bc that’s weird as fuck.
reminder that your problems ARE valid, regardless of what they are. if it’s big enough to bother you, it’s important. don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
December 24, 2025 at 9:23 PM
reminder that your problems ARE valid, regardless of what they are. if it’s big enough to bother you, it’s important. don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
even christmas eve isn’t safe from daily turmoil. not sure what else I expected, though.
December 24, 2025 at 9:22 PM
even christmas eve isn’t safe from daily turmoil. not sure what else I expected, though.
ever think the universe typecasts you in others lives? like no matter how well you’re perceived, who it is, or where you are, online or irl, you’re always just an extra? someone that’s “in” enough to be involved when everyone else is or someone is missing, but not “in” enough to actually be liked?
December 24, 2025 at 3:53 AM
ever think the universe typecasts you in others lives? like no matter how well you’re perceived, who it is, or where you are, online or irl, you’re always just an extra? someone that’s “in” enough to be involved when everyone else is or someone is missing, but not “in” enough to actually be liked?
haven’t been on here and seeing that friends deactivated? I missed it anything happened so now I’m sad and worried. I just hope they’re okay..
December 23, 2025 at 3:19 AM
haven’t been on here and seeing that friends deactivated? I missed it anything happened so now I’m sad and worried. I just hope they’re okay..
love when a friend actually ASKS first before sending a photo of an injury, but then when I say no thanks, they just send it anyway. why the fuck did you even ask—
like atp just flash me g0re or smth omg. may as well. /sarcasm
like atp just flash me g0re or smth omg. may as well. /sarcasm
December 18, 2025 at 2:26 AM
love when a friend actually ASKS first before sending a photo of an injury, but then when I say no thanks, they just send it anyway. why the fuck did you even ask—
like atp just flash me g0re or smth omg. may as well. /sarcasm
like atp just flash me g0re or smth omg. may as well. /sarcasm
so many vents and nowhere to start. idk who I am anymore (what’s new?), I’m constantly questioning if I’m the real problem or if others just genuinely don’t understand me. my perception of others is shit due to my negative experiences with the general public, and I’m lonely in a room full of people.
December 17, 2025 at 7:06 PM
so many vents and nowhere to start. idk who I am anymore (what’s new?), I’m constantly questioning if I’m the real problem or if others just genuinely don’t understand me. my perception of others is shit due to my negative experiences with the general public, and I’m lonely in a room full of people.
I find it interesting witnessing someone who constantly judges others for using AAVE terms but they are also a white person who constantly uses slang that was taken from AAVE. can you be any more of a hypocrite?
December 17, 2025 at 4:11 PM
I find it interesting witnessing someone who constantly judges others for using AAVE terms but they are also a white person who constantly uses slang that was taken from AAVE. can you be any more of a hypocrite?
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OMG NO I accidentally blocked friend’s partner during my mass-blocking and now I feel bad bc I hope they don’t think I did it on purpose— block lists are nice until you remember that they are made by other people with different opinions than you. well shit gotta fix that now ;-;
December 17, 2025 at 2:28 AM
OMG NO I accidentally blocked friend’s partner during my mass-blocking and now I feel bad bc I hope they don’t think I did it on purpose— block lists are nice until you remember that they are made by other people with different opinions than you. well shit gotta fix that now ;-;
I feel as though if I truly spoke my mind on certain controversial topics, especially on my main, I’d be looked at like a freak. There’d be an immediate hatetrain and cancel culture bus hurdling towards me, because no one would listen or actually try to understand my thoughts beforehand.
sighhhhhh
sighhhhhh
December 16, 2025 at 2:38 AM
I feel as though if I truly spoke my mind on certain controversial topics, especially on my main, I’d be looked at like a freak. There’d be an immediate hatetrain and cancel culture bus hurdling towards me, because no one would listen or actually try to understand my thoughts beforehand.
sighhhhhh
sighhhhhh
these days just getting out of bed and inhaling oxygen is a fucking chore. why am I like this? why can’t I just exist and be normal? why does there always have to be something wrong with me, or something I “can’t” do? where did I go wrong? how do I make it stop or make myself change?
December 16, 2025 at 12:42 AM
these days just getting out of bed and inhaling oxygen is a fucking chore. why am I like this? why can’t I just exist and be normal? why does there always have to be something wrong with me, or something I “can’t” do? where did I go wrong? how do I make it stop or make myself change?
I think I’m finally coming to terms with the fact that i’ll never be what i’ve dreamed of my entire life. i’ll never be a big time artist, i’ll never be a Vtuber, or even a youtuber in general. it’s not even a lack of skill, but a lack of resources and motivation.
December 16, 2025 at 12:39 AM
I think I’m finally coming to terms with the fact that i’ll never be what i’ve dreamed of my entire life. i’ll never be a big time artist, i’ll never be a Vtuber, or even a youtuber in general. it’s not even a lack of skill, but a lack of resources and motivation.
I don’t understand being fussed at like I did something wrong over something I cannot help. I just wanted food..
December 15, 2025 at 4:38 PM
I don’t understand being fussed at like I did something wrong over something I cannot help. I just wanted food..
If anyone sneaks up on us, I will smell them coming. Or I might not. We shall see..
- Kharjo, Khajiit companion (Skyrim)
- Kharjo, Khajiit companion (Skyrim)
Some Khajiit are thieves, others are very good thieves.
December 14, 2025 at 1:18 PM
If anyone sneaks up on us, I will smell them coming. Or I might not. We shall see..
- Kharjo, Khajiit companion (Skyrim)
- Kharjo, Khajiit companion (Skyrim)
idk man I just feel like racism isn’t cute regardless of who it’s coming from or going towards, but that’s just me. idc who the victim is, if you’re pushing a racist mentality, get the fuck away from me. it’s disgusting that some ppl seem to think if it’s not towards a blpoc, it’s okay— it’s not.
December 13, 2025 at 3:02 PM
idk man I just feel like racism isn’t cute regardless of who it’s coming from or going towards, but that’s just me. idc who the victim is, if you’re pushing a racist mentality, get the fuck away from me. it’s disgusting that some ppl seem to think if it’s not towards a blpoc, it’s okay— it’s not.
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Why should I tell him? What's he done for ME lately?
December 13, 2025 at 4:30 AM
Why should I tell him? What's he done for ME lately?
really fckin hurts to be super excited to share something and the minute you try, someone talks over you, acknowledges that they interrupted you, but then continues to do it anyway.
like they tried to bring attention back to my thing, but at that point I didn’t even wanna share anymore… like why
like they tried to bring attention back to my thing, but at that point I didn’t even wanna share anymore… like why
December 13, 2025 at 6:03 AM
really fckin hurts to be super excited to share something and the minute you try, someone talks over you, acknowledges that they interrupted you, but then continues to do it anyway.
like they tried to bring attention back to my thing, but at that point I didn’t even wanna share anymore… like why
like they tried to bring attention back to my thing, but at that point I didn’t even wanna share anymore… like why
me @ me
Disgusting thing. Leave now.
December 12, 2025 at 5:54 PM
me @ me
okay now I feel much safer venting here lol
December 11, 2025 at 3:36 AM
okay now I feel much safer venting here lol
ah, that explains so much.
November 25, 2025 at 4:03 PM
ah, that explains so much.
love when mean ppl bitch about other mean ppl being rude to them because like… is this not just the consequences of your own actions? a little karma maybe? hmmst..
October 14, 2025 at 2:04 AM
love when mean ppl bitch about other mean ppl being rude to them because like… is this not just the consequences of your own actions? a little karma maybe? hmmst..
every time I try to make a post, they get so loud, talking all at once constantly. I can’t think straight. I can’t focus on what I want to say. everything is yelling “stop” “don’t do that” or telling me why I shouldn’t. I’m riding an episode today, every little thing is pissing me off. I’m scared..
September 30, 2025 at 2:08 PM
every time I try to make a post, they get so loud, talking all at once constantly. I can’t think straight. I can’t focus on what I want to say. everything is yelling “stop” “don’t do that” or telling me why I shouldn’t. I’m riding an episode today, every little thing is pissing me off. I’m scared..
tired of being an attention whore
September 27, 2025 at 6:58 PM
tired of being an attention whore