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Syko
@syko.ruins.party
MH/vent diary

topics : blow-ups, episodes, delusions, paranoia, hallucinations, gender identity, trauma, regression

adult (20s) mdni pls
dni: edsky, ists, phobes, blocked
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PLS RESPECT DNI + BLOCKS <3
if you’re interested (after you get some rest ofc!!) I definitely say go for it.
fun fact: english is a west germanic language, which is why some words are so similar to their english counterparts.
December 18, 2025 at 12:17 AM
honestly, it’s one of the easier languages to learn (imo at least), and it’s really fun to angrily shout random things that aren’t angry like… at all lol.
December 18, 2025 at 12:17 AM
that’s so fucking creepy, I’m sorry that happened to you and I hope you can find genuine friendship and enjoyment with less creepy league players in the future ;-;
December 17, 2025 at 7:53 PM
I want to reach out to others, but even if someone tells me prior that it’s okay, I still just feel like a burden. like my problems aren’t comparable to theirs and isnt worth their time or care. same as how I reacted when I was diagnosed. why me? others have it so much worse..
December 17, 2025 at 7:06 PM
I know going to therapy would potentially help, but would it really? I mean I know from experience all they’ll want to do is focus on my past trauma which doesn’t help the current issues at all, if anything it makes them worse. sigh. idk what to do about any of this.
December 17, 2025 at 7:06 PM
not try and take that on yourself. because just as you are clearly still learning, likely so is the person you’re chastising for it. but wouldn’t it be better and help them understand it more if it’s coming from someone who actually knows wtf they’re talking about?
December 17, 2025 at 4:16 PM
also just as a disclaimer: I am not blpoc so I can’t personally speak on the topic of AAVE overall, but no one, and I mean no one, likes a white knight. why are you as a white person dictating what you believe is appropriate for others to say? your job is to direct them to folks who CAN educate them
December 17, 2025 at 4:16 PM
like I want to just block all of them, but I also know that as much as they all bitch about clearsky, they use that shit religiously. and I don’t need people connecting this to my main and trying to run me off the platform like they did to others. fucking bullies.
December 17, 2025 at 4:12 PM
all the people from that group of friends just give off the energy that they think they’re hot shit bc they call out people they deem as “shitty”, meanwhile blatantly going against their own words and doing the same exact shit they’ve accused others of. fucking hypocrisy at its finest.
December 17, 2025 at 4:11 PM
this is also the same person that ran my friend’s name through the ground because “if you post ANYTHING nsfw related you’re supposed to have mdni in your bio!1!1!” yet they have “-17 dnf” in their bio…
December 17, 2025 at 4:11 PM
okey fixed friend partner successfully unblocked (I had to unfortunately unblock the entire list but that’s okay)
December 17, 2025 at 2:30 AM
just now seeing this, but thank you.
December 17, 2025 at 12:42 AM
i’ll keep doodling and sketching for my own entertainment, but I’m done with the delusion that I could ever create something that someone hasn’t already perfected, that others could enjoy or use. I’m done thinking I could ever make this a career. I’m sorry, I give up.
December 16, 2025 at 12:39 AM
+ there are already so many amazing artists that do everything I could only ever wish to accomplish, why would someone want another copy of one of them?

I thought art was my passion for the past 20yrs. But I think I’m learning that it’s just something I admire, rather than something I can achieve.
December 16, 2025 at 12:39 AM