Have you seen the "extended cut"?

I read the book when I had pneumonia and was taking meds that made me hallucinate. I recovered from the pneumonia but I’ve never quite recovered from some of the scenes in that book (complimentary).

We shed as we pick up, like travelers who must carry everything in their arms, and what we let fall will be picked up by those behind. The procession is very long and life is very short. We die on the march. But there is nothing outside the march so nothing can be lost to it.