ju1ia
@ju1ia.bsky.social
cybergirl (gender neutral) ☆ https://ju1ia.neocities.org/
still alive, but need to feel more stable emotionally before i can get back on here + get back to being creative. healing from such a horrible mistreatment in my long term relationship (for the 2nd time... the prev one was 10 years...) is going to take time. but im slowly doing better <3
September 27, 2024 at 8:26 PM
still alive, but need to feel more stable emotionally before i can get back on here + get back to being creative. healing from such a horrible mistreatment in my long term relationship (for the 2nd time... the prev one was 10 years...) is going to take time. but im slowly doing better <3
im alive. had to go stay at hospital a while and have been staying at parents house after. turned out my gf of 4yrs who acted rly strange the past half year while in her home country abroad, has been cheating on me and lying and manipulating me about it.... so i wanted to die & ended up at hospital.
September 19, 2024 at 11:15 PM
im alive. had to go stay at hospital a while and have been staying at parents house after. turned out my gf of 4yrs who acted rly strange the past half year while in her home country abroad, has been cheating on me and lying and manipulating me about it.... so i wanted to die & ended up at hospital.
in positive news as usual, my current programming self-studying is still going great, learning lots. i am exhausted and overall today is a horrible day for many reasons, but im hoping someday soon will be less horrible and then i can start working on a project properly. rn im in too much suffering.
September 2, 2024 at 2:19 PM
in positive news as usual, my current programming self-studying is still going great, learning lots. i am exhausted and overall today is a horrible day for many reasons, but im hoping someday soon will be less horrible and then i can start working on a project properly. rn im in too much suffering.
the thing about therapy is that some people, MOST people, really, really do need it. im very for therapy. but it cant help me specifically very much, because i dont freeze for long or do bad things while stressed or upset, i dont emotionally overreact to random shit and treat others badly
September 2, 2024 at 2:05 PM
the thing about therapy is that some people, MOST people, really, really do need it. im very for therapy. but it cant help me specifically very much, because i dont freeze for long or do bad things while stressed or upset, i dont emotionally overreact to random shit and treat others badly
ive been going to therapy for a while, it was useful for minor stress/bad feelings to learn to use calming methods w mental safe space, but could not help my actual large problems in life. but the therapist herself wasnt that smart and occasionally said queerphobic things which i just ignored-
September 2, 2024 at 1:56 PM
ive been going to therapy for a while, it was useful for minor stress/bad feelings to learn to use calming methods w mental safe space, but could not help my actual large problems in life. but the therapist herself wasnt that smart and occasionally said queerphobic things which i just ignored-
me and my siblings used to play bubsy all the time.... we didnt play sonic, just bubsy, so i never had that strong affection for sonic lots of ppl have XD i should play it again sometime
What could possibly go wrong today, Bubsy's here! And so I am with a good afternoon, Skyline!👋
August 29, 2024 at 4:06 PM
me and my siblings used to play bubsy all the time.... we didnt play sonic, just bubsy, so i never had that strong affection for sonic lots of ppl have XD i should play it again sometime
@empressantares.bsky.social stole this from tumblr for u, i think it might be relevant for a certain someone. definitely something ive seen happen and been confused about. its interesting how empathy can backfire like that if you dont have good ways to handle feeling sad/worried/guilty/etc.
August 28, 2024 at 7:25 PM
@empressantares.bsky.social stole this from tumblr for u, i think it might be relevant for a certain someone. definitely something ive seen happen and been confused about. its interesting how empathy can backfire like that if you dont have good ways to handle feeling sad/worried/guilty/etc.
in positive news im slowly improving on programming every week, got myself a pretty (but cheap) physical notebook to take notes in so i can feel like im in an actual uni class just for fun and have a physical sign of what im learning, and i plan to start a proper game project this month if i can.
August 28, 2024 at 7:21 PM
in positive news im slowly improving on programming every week, got myself a pretty (but cheap) physical notebook to take notes in so i can feel like im in an actual uni class just for fun and have a physical sign of what im learning, and i plan to start a proper game project this month if i can.
why does my whole life have to feel like constantly having to analyse, target and destroy tons of bullshit that makes no sense, all on my own, with no support, and barely anyone else who can understand that its even happening bc everyone is so up their ass with dumb illogical shit :(
August 28, 2024 at 7:14 PM
why does my whole life have to feel like constantly having to analyse, target and destroy tons of bullshit that makes no sense, all on my own, with no support, and barely anyone else who can understand that its even happening bc everyone is so up their ass with dumb illogical shit :(
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The Weird and the Wonderful(?) N64 pads out there as of Nintendo Official Magazine's July 1998 issue.
I'm so fascinated by the design of the Sharkpad Pro and Trident Pads. And the bottom left too reminds me of the Brawler64 from Retro Fighters.
I'm so fascinated by the design of the Sharkpad Pro and Trident Pads. And the bottom left too reminds me of the Brawler64 from Retro Fighters.
June 17, 2024 at 3:30 PM
The Weird and the Wonderful(?) N64 pads out there as of Nintendo Official Magazine's July 1998 issue.
I'm so fascinated by the design of the Sharkpad Pro and Trident Pads. And the bottom left too reminds me of the Brawler64 from Retro Fighters.
I'm so fascinated by the design of the Sharkpad Pro and Trident Pads. And the bottom left too reminds me of the Brawler64 from Retro Fighters.
messing around making some music (*not Good music, just music) in bandlab today.... i miss how i used to have fun making tracks when i was younger n could just sit down and make stuff without thinking :( im not anxious about quality or anything, its just that my mind blanks out.....
August 22, 2024 at 5:36 PM
messing around making some music (*not Good music, just music) in bandlab today.... i miss how i used to have fun making tracks when i was younger n could just sit down and make stuff without thinking :( im not anxious about quality or anything, its just that my mind blanks out.....
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I'm back on my night schedule, so here's my latest project.... I've had this notebook sitting around for years now, finally found something to do with it after getting some great stickers from @mizucat.bsky.social!!! Please go check out her work, she is amazing. 🌃🌈💜
And a Cinnamoroll cameo!! 🐇💙
And a Cinnamoroll cameo!! 🐇💙
August 17, 2024 at 9:18 AM
I'm back on my night schedule, so here's my latest project.... I've had this notebook sitting around for years now, finally found something to do with it after getting some great stickers from @mizucat.bsky.social!!! Please go check out her work, she is amazing. 🌃🌈💜
And a Cinnamoroll cameo!! 🐇💙
And a Cinnamoroll cameo!! 🐇💙
i wanted to try getting on here but ive been really struggling with my life problems. im trying to be supportive to my gf with stuff she's going thru and pushing her to try get some help, worrying about her, while im also scared for her safety due to the war and shit :(
August 22, 2024 at 1:20 PM
i wanted to try getting on here but ive been really struggling with my life problems. im trying to be supportive to my gf with stuff she's going thru and pushing her to try get some help, worrying about her, while im also scared for her safety due to the war and shit :(
@empressantares.bsky.social cinnamorolls for u from that mobile game...
August 21, 2024 at 6:14 PM
@empressantares.bsky.social cinnamorolls for u from that mobile game...
thats tonights rant while i cry about that the person i love might die in a faraway country because of rich people's wars and that there's nothing i can do about it but try to keep myself alive another day in case she needs me.
August 1, 2024 at 9:06 PM
thats tonights rant while i cry about that the person i love might die in a faraway country because of rich people's wars and that there's nothing i can do about it but try to keep myself alive another day in case she needs me.
and then someone will say, look, it's that other group of victims that makes us victims, surely. conveniently, always finding other cogs in the machine to blame, always looking for ways to stay oiled, instead of zooming out and seeing that the machine is fucked up as all hell and should be destroyed
August 1, 2024 at 9:05 PM
and then someone will say, look, it's that other group of victims that makes us victims, surely. conveniently, always finding other cogs in the machine to blame, always looking for ways to stay oiled, instead of zooming out and seeing that the machine is fucked up as all hell and should be destroyed
they work you to your bone and you have no energy to enjoy life or truly love and be loved. they force you to use caffeine, alcohol and other drugs in order to keep yourself able to cope, to bring home rent money one more day. you have no time or energy left to question the system before you sleep
August 1, 2024 at 9:03 PM
they work you to your bone and you have no energy to enjoy life or truly love and be loved. they force you to use caffeine, alcohol and other drugs in order to keep yourself able to cope, to bring home rent money one more day. you have no time or energy left to question the system before you sleep
a butterfly flapping its wings isnt whats causing innocents dying. its Profits and Expansion. rich people's disgusting desires to make more, more, more. to never be happy, never be satisfied, never say: okay, i have enough for my family to live safe and happy, i'm good now. while others starve!
August 1, 2024 at 8:58 PM
a butterfly flapping its wings isnt whats causing innocents dying. its Profits and Expansion. rich people's disgusting desires to make more, more, more. to never be happy, never be satisfied, never say: okay, i have enough for my family to live safe and happy, i'm good now. while others starve!
while living like this, i have to face society every day. i have to hear the feelings and thoughts and opinions of people who dont know anything. people who aren't constantly in fear of death. people who keep being blind to the reality of the systems of rich people who make all these things happen.
August 1, 2024 at 8:54 PM
while living like this, i have to face society every day. i have to hear the feelings and thoughts and opinions of people who dont know anything. people who aren't constantly in fear of death. people who keep being blind to the reality of the systems of rich people who make all these things happen.
everytime i get a moment of peace to work on improving my life everything comes crashing down again a week later. now i will again be terrified to open the news every day. i am terrified of losing the one i love. its a fear i already had to live with for months and months, spread across years.
August 1, 2024 at 8:50 PM
everytime i get a moment of peace to work on improving my life everything comes crashing down again a week later. now i will again be terrified to open the news every day. i am terrified of losing the one i love. its a fear i already had to live with for months and months, spread across years.
im scared. i hate rich people and their wars. they kill and destroy and it benefits nobody. they have money but they don't have joy, and everyone else gets neither money nor joy because of them. it's completely meaningless. im so scared and for what? just for their joyless selfishness.
August 1, 2024 at 8:39 PM
im scared. i hate rich people and their wars. they kill and destroy and it benefits nobody. they have money but they don't have joy, and everyone else gets neither money nor joy because of them. it's completely meaningless. im so scared and for what? just for their joyless selfishness.
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A periodic reminder that if you are an indie comic book creator, Blambot's Indie Font free usage policy applies to YOU! blambot.com/pages/licenses
July 19, 2024 at 5:21 PM
A periodic reminder that if you are an indie comic book creator, Blambot's Indie Font free usage policy applies to YOU! blambot.com/pages/licenses
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This has been working for me.
Anything we devote 10 minutes a day to-- 5 minutes in the morning, 5 minutes in the evening-- we'll end up devoting over an hour a week to. We WILL get better at that thing w/ that kind of time investment, whether it's journaling, stretching, meditating, or 1% goal setting.
July 25, 2024 at 10:56 PM
This has been working for me.
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Today is Family Computer Day. Nintendo Entertainment System✨
今日はファミコン生誕の日、
ですね。
どちらも現役の、新旧マシンを並べて
カービィも、添えて。
おめでとうございます！
ーーーーーーーーーーーー
ーーーーーーーーーーーー
#famicom #kirby #kirbysadventure
#ファミコン #星のカービィ夢の泉の物語
今日はファミコン生誕の日、
ですね。
どちらも現役の、新旧マシンを並べて
カービィも、添えて。
おめでとうございます！
ーーーーーーーーーーーー
ーーーーーーーーーーーー
#famicom #kirby #kirbysadventure
#ファミコン #星のカービィ夢の泉の物語
July 15, 2024 at 6:29 AM
Today is Family Computer Day. Nintendo Entertainment System✨
今日はファミコン生誕の日、
ですね。
どちらも現役の、新旧マシンを並べて
カービィも、添えて。
おめでとうございます！
ーーーーーーーーーーーー
ーーーーーーーーーーーー
#famicom #kirby #kirbysadventure
#ファミコン #星のカービィ夢の泉の物語
今日はファミコン生誕の日、
ですね。
どちらも現役の、新旧マシンを並べて
カービィも、添えて。
おめでとうございます！
ーーーーーーーーーーーー
ーーーーーーーーーーーー
#famicom #kirby #kirbysadventure
#ファミコン #星のカービィ夢の泉の物語
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