Estotiland
@estotiland.bsky.social
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Please smile and say hello to the people you meet.
Please smile and say hello to the people you meet.
December 24, 2025 at 4:44 AM
Please smile and say hello to the people you meet.
i wish my doctor would call me back
November 24, 2025 at 5:35 AM
i wish my doctor would call me back
even when i had a job i ended up being more of a leech. ten months in the army and i didn't even pass the basic military qualification course, spent most of my time bedridden due to illness and injury. provided no useful services to the state and the people. a leech. now i rot
November 24, 2025 at 5:14 AM
even when i had a job i ended up being more of a leech. ten months in the army and i didn't even pass the basic military qualification course, spent most of my time bedridden due to illness and injury. provided no useful services to the state and the people. a leech. now i rot
all leisure is contingent on proving to oneself that you meet the perceived societal standard of having 'given back'. if you haven't given back enough to society for the privilege of that society's rights and luxuries, you don't deserve fun or happiness. i don't deserve happiness until Im productive
November 24, 2025 at 5:04 AM
all leisure is contingent on proving to oneself that you meet the perceived societal standard of having 'given back'. if you haven't given back enough to society for the privilege of that society's rights and luxuries, you don't deserve fun or happiness. i don't deserve happiness until Im productive
you ever get so hyperexposed to porn that the act of merely imagining a sexual scenario now fills you with disgust and despair
November 24, 2025 at 4:59 AM
you ever get so hyperexposed to porn that the act of merely imagining a sexual scenario now fills you with disgust and despair
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i wish i could appease my brain for once in my life
September 13, 2025 at 9:48 PM
i wish i could appease my brain for once in my life
ive had multiple people say that i shouldn't care so much but being kicked out of the army for mental weakness makes me feel like a speck of dirt
like ive had my 'agent of change' card revoked and now i have to make do with being a slave with no way of effecting the world around me substantially
like ive had my 'agent of change' card revoked and now i have to make do with being a slave with no way of effecting the world around me substantially
September 13, 2025 at 9:46 PM
ive had multiple people say that i shouldn't care so much but being kicked out of the army for mental weakness makes me feel like a speck of dirt
like ive had my 'agent of change' card revoked and now i have to make do with being a slave with no way of effecting the world around me substantially
like ive had my 'agent of change' card revoked and now i have to make do with being a slave with no way of effecting the world around me substantially
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We're talking about the inherent worth of an individual, not economic utility.
September 5, 2025 at 2:15 PM
We're talking about the inherent worth of an individual, not economic utility.
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there's a lot continually said about the way algorithms are destroying peoples' brains but i think history will point to infinite scroll short-form video as being particularly evil because it is the distillation of every addictive strategy and negative psychological hack as the ultimate skinner box.
May 21, 2025 at 5:28 AM
there's a lot continually said about the way algorithms are destroying peoples' brains but i think history will point to infinite scroll short-form video as being particularly evil because it is the distillation of every addictive strategy and negative psychological hack as the ultimate skinner box.
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i constantly think about this post
September 3, 2025 at 3:15 AM
i constantly think about this post
social isolation means death
September 1, 2025 at 6:15 PM
social isolation means death
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One thing about me?
I love using my alleged clout to constantly share shit I give a fuck about.
I will not be gatekeeping, I am gateforcing. You WILL hear about this...
I love using my alleged clout to constantly share shit I give a fuck about.
I will not be gatekeeping, I am gateforcing. You WILL hear about this...
August 29, 2025 at 4:57 PM
One thing about me?
I love using my alleged clout to constantly share shit I give a fuck about.
I will not be gatekeeping, I am gateforcing. You WILL hear about this...
I love using my alleged clout to constantly share shit I give a fuck about.
I will not be gatekeeping, I am gateforcing. You WILL hear about this...
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the complete embrace of nihilism and the rejection of being genuine is the greatest danger to humanity right now
August 27, 2025 at 10:06 PM
the complete embrace of nihilism and the rejection of being genuine is the greatest danger to humanity right now
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The low grade horror every day of knowing how good at life you could be, but you came out the womb wired wrong and now it's impossible.
August 28, 2025 at 7:17 PM
The low grade horror every day of knowing how good at life you could be, but you came out the womb wired wrong and now it's impossible.
when every decision you make is done through the lense of being an observed agent needing to maximize its social capital through "being cool/attractive/charismatic" you have to realize youve lost the plot and you do not own yourself anymore
thats been happening to be for about 15 years give or take
thats been happening to be for about 15 years give or take
August 28, 2025 at 12:10 PM
when every decision you make is done through the lense of being an observed agent needing to maximize its social capital through "being cool/attractive/charismatic" you have to realize youve lost the plot and you do not own yourself anymore
thats been happening to be for about 15 years give or take
thats been happening to be for about 15 years give or take
gonna comm a drawing of my sona beating the shit out of me (irl) because even my idealized fursona self would find me repugnant
August 28, 2025 at 11:58 AM
gonna comm a drawing of my sona beating the shit out of me (irl) because even my idealized fursona self would find me repugnant
being queer and not wanting to be queer has ruined my life, don't let others fall into the same pit i have
August 28, 2025 at 11:47 AM
being queer and not wanting to be queer has ruined my life, don't let others fall into the same pit i have
envy is poison and man im dying
August 28, 2025 at 10:21 AM
envy is poison and man im dying
nature's the grand oppressor and any philosophical or political movement which uses nature to justify itself is a movement of chains
August 28, 2025 at 10:04 AM
nature's the grand oppressor and any philosophical or political movement which uses nature to justify itself is a movement of chains
also the feeling when a nude or a sexually explicit image is drawn of my sona (consensually) and the back of my mind is perpetually yelling "cope cope cope this is cope"
August 27, 2025 at 5:40 PM
also the feeling when a nude or a sexually explicit image is drawn of my sona (consensually) and the back of my mind is perpetually yelling "cope cope cope this is cope"
despite liking the drawings that are made of my fursona—a representation of myself—any sort of idealized depiction of them makes me feel like im the fakiest faker of all time. the only drawings that don't dig up this anxiety are those based on selfies, but paradoxically photos of myself make me sad.
August 27, 2025 at 5:35 PM
despite liking the drawings that are made of my fursona—a representation of myself—any sort of idealized depiction of them makes me feel like im the fakiest faker of all time. the only drawings that don't dig up this anxiety are those based on selfies, but paradoxically photos of myself make me sad.
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sketchbook comm 4 Estotiland
August 27, 2025 at 4:38 PM
sketchbook comm 4 Estotiland
if 🐝ing urself causes you to be ostracized by both society and its sub-societies, the main body of people and the groups rejected by them, then that makes you the reject of the rejects. A double strike against you and your social value.
August 1, 2025 at 6:30 PM
if 🐝ing urself causes you to be ostracized by both society and its sub-societies, the main body of people and the groups rejected by them, then that makes you the reject of the rejects. A double strike against you and your social value.
Not queer enough for queer spaces, too abnormal to be normal among normals. The silent killer of a life, unlived and unloved: being a neurological foreigner.
August 1, 2025 at 6:27 PM
Not queer enough for queer spaces, too abnormal to be normal among normals. The silent killer of a life, unlived and unloved: being a neurological foreigner.