this is me every day. i am surrounded by ugliness, it's baked into the rendering

every day is like this

im not allowed to apply for tertiary education because my grades are so bad

they say i need to go to adult ed but the shame makes me want to disappear

deep down i think they also expect a person who is 'truly exceptional' to be able to navigate life successfully despite the haters, and if that person is somehow humbled by society then they aren't exceptional in the first place

or something along that line of right

"it's the principle"

huh, i was wondering what happened

if someone had passed me this when i was 14~15 things would've been different

not saying that in a necessarily positive 'grass is greener' way but just definitely different

The low grade horror every day of knowing how good at life you could be, but you came out the womb wired wrong and now it's impossible.

its a form of running away from their truth

i hope with all my heart that you live and live well