shannon
@closotezuka.bsky.social
the personal (venting) account of a really funny girl
⚠️ fragile; handle with care
⚠️ fragile; handle with care
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shannon
@closotezuka.bsky.social
· Apr 26
i just wanna be happy
people keep calling me racist. i dont want to be racist. it feels like people keep manipulating my autistic mind into saying racist things because theyre mad at me, using it like a weapon to try and justify violence. it makes me scared. i dont understand why people do this.
February 18, 2026 at 11:42 PM
people keep calling me racist. i dont want to be racist. it feels like people keep manipulating my autistic mind into saying racist things because theyre mad at me, using it like a weapon to try and justify violence. it makes me scared. i dont understand why people do this.
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hahaaaaaa im so normal look at me im such a normal girl :)
February 18, 2026 at 8:37 AM
hahaaaaaa im so normal look at me im such a normal girl :)
pls dont block me and be mad at me youre right im just stupid
September 12, 2025 at 7:24 PM
pls dont block me and be mad at me youre right im just stupid
that moment you realize it felt like nobody cared its just cause you never gave them a reason to, if you yourself know you are full of passion and love you need to show that to people and not just cry and beg for pity. i used to equate it to self worth and value but really its about communication
June 16, 2025 at 2:52 PM
that moment you realize it felt like nobody cared its just cause you never gave them a reason to, if you yourself know you are full of passion and love you need to show that to people and not just cry and beg for pity. i used to equate it to self worth and value but really its about communication
i feel miserable doing shit like this. isnt this literally the most fatherless thing ever? like, fuck, how fucking decrepit and miserable do you have to be to have to do this
June 16, 2025 at 9:13 AM
i feel miserable doing shit like this. isnt this literally the most fatherless thing ever? like, fuck, how fucking decrepit and miserable do you have to be to have to do this
i would never survive at a protest one triggering thing would happen and i would attempt to maul the first bad person i see and go to prison for life
June 9, 2025 at 5:46 AM
i would never survive at a protest one triggering thing would happen and i would attempt to maul the first bad person i see and go to prison for life
just saw a funny and cute interaction in a discord between a few friends and was laughing but i just realzied ive never had or been a part of a dynamic like that and i started crying so hard i was heaving. from the outside looking in, always. never allowed in.
June 3, 2025 at 6:19 AM
just saw a funny and cute interaction in a discord between a few friends and was laughing but i just realzied ive never had or been a part of a dynamic like that and i started crying so hard i was heaving. from the outside looking in, always. never allowed in.
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Let yourself be loved. Happy Pride Month!
June 1, 2025 at 2:58 PM
Let yourself be loved. Happy Pride Month!
we love screaming into the digital void hell yeah
May 28, 2025 at 6:45 AM
we love screaming into the digital void hell yeah
even now i feel so weird. making these posts. its weird how other people have like a network of friends who support them through things like this an affirm them. but not me. is it cause im broken? cause i dont put myself out there enough? or a secret third reason? i don't care anymore.
May 28, 2025 at 6:45 AM
even now i feel so weird. making these posts. its weird how other people have like a network of friends who support them through things like this an affirm them. but not me. is it cause im broken? cause i dont put myself out there enough? or a secret third reason? i don't care anymore.
im dense and overly flamboyant and have a tendency to overshare about things others only share a gleaming interest in. but im proud of that!! i can only hope others appreciate that of me. i cant go about worrying all the time if it's wrong or how to work around it. just work with who and what i got.
May 28, 2025 at 6:43 AM
im dense and overly flamboyant and have a tendency to overshare about things others only share a gleaming interest in. but im proud of that!! i can only hope others appreciate that of me. i cant go about worrying all the time if it's wrong or how to work around it. just work with who and what i got.
not sure what i wanna write but i wanna write something. im happy. i dont understand people. for the first time in my 27 years of life i genuinely felt cared and accomodated for without having to ask, no, PLEAD, BEG first. not only once, but twice in a row. what is even going on anymore?
May 28, 2025 at 6:07 AM
not sure what i wanna write but i wanna write something. im happy. i dont understand people. for the first time in my 27 years of life i genuinely felt cared and accomodated for without having to ask, no, PLEAD, BEG first. not only once, but twice in a row. what is even going on anymore?
“why are you posting this on bsky”
cause im too ashamed and terrified to post this in the serious channel of a fucking vtuber discord. none of them are equipped to handle/deal with my level of bullshit. and if i get kicked from there ill have actually nothing left
cause im too ashamed and terrified to post this in the serious channel of a fucking vtuber discord. none of them are equipped to handle/deal with my level of bullshit. and if i get kicked from there ill have actually nothing left
May 22, 2025 at 6:40 AM
“why are you posting this on bsky”
cause im too ashamed and terrified to post this in the serious channel of a fucking vtuber discord. none of them are equipped to handle/deal with my level of bullshit. and if i get kicked from there ill have actually nothing left
cause im too ashamed and terrified to post this in the serious channel of a fucking vtuber discord. none of them are equipped to handle/deal with my level of bullshit. and if i get kicked from there ill have actually nothing left
can someone please tell me how they feel about me, that they actually care? anyone, i dont care if its a lie, just help me alleviate this pain, just this once, please, give me attention, make me feel good, i deserve it, i promise im a good person. i swear.
May 22, 2025 at 6:28 AM
can someone please tell me how they feel about me, that they actually care? anyone, i dont care if its a lie, just help me alleviate this pain, just this once, please, give me attention, make me feel good, i deserve it, i promise im a good person. i swear.
i guess my life is just gonna be consuming media and playing games that make me miserable to fill a void, mooching off my parents until they are no longer capable of providing for me. am i happy about it? fuck no, is it for lack of trying? also fuck no. nothing works. nobody cares. is anyone reading
May 22, 2025 at 4:44 AM
i guess my life is just gonna be consuming media and playing games that make me miserable to fill a void, mooching off my parents until they are no longer capable of providing for me. am i happy about it? fuck no, is it for lack of trying? also fuck no. nothing works. nobody cares. is anyone reading
im coming to ruin your community next lmaoooo!
May 22, 2025 at 4:12 AM
im coming to ruin your community next lmaoooo!
“closo the shitstorm master” will never die, for better or for worse.
May 22, 2025 at 4:11 AM
“closo the shitstorm master” will never die, for better or for worse.
and these are all people with real lives they have to balance with an online life, i am online 24/7 and all i can manage is fractured relationships with 1 or 2 socially awkward autists who end up hating me eventually when they say the slightly wrong thing and i crash out anyway. i am so pathetic.
May 22, 2025 at 4:02 AM
and these are all people with real lives they have to balance with an online life, i am online 24/7 and all i can manage is fractured relationships with 1 or 2 socially awkward autists who end up hating me eventually when they say the slightly wrong thing and i crash out anyway. i am so pathetic.
i try so hard, every day, always ignored, my efforts for nothing. so envious of people who are loved by many without seeming to even need to try. its like everyone can see the sins bearing down on my shoulders and ill never be rid of them and in moments like this i feel that the most
May 22, 2025 at 3:56 AM
i try so hard, every day, always ignored, my efforts for nothing. so envious of people who are loved by many without seeming to even need to try. its like everyone can see the sins bearing down on my shoulders and ill never be rid of them and in moments like this i feel that the most
i wish i could die, so badly. i wish i lived in canada so i could do it painlessly and easily through maid. im stuck. im broken. there is nothing for me here. even the people who genuinely love me and bring me some comfort keep hurting me. i cant suffer it.
May 22, 2025 at 3:51 AM
i wish i could die, so badly. i wish i lived in canada so i could do it painlessly and easily through maid. im stuck. im broken. there is nothing for me here. even the people who genuinely love me and bring me some comfort keep hurting me. i cant suffer it.
why am i so determined to hurt myself just to prove points, why is that the only thing that drives me to move? im supposedly so scared but im not scared enough to do stupid shit on a whim, supposedly want to be happy but not enough to keep making myself miserable.
May 22, 2025 at 3:49 AM
why am i so determined to hurt myself just to prove points, why is that the only thing that drives me to move? im supposedly so scared but im not scared enough to do stupid shit on a whim, supposedly want to be happy but not enough to keep making myself miserable.
