My therapist said that my deep fear of rejection is handicapping me and I agree. I will lose out on anyone I have any interest in because of inaction due to my fear of rejection. It causes such a somatic response even thinking about expressing my feelings. I am the one thing standing in the way.
March 19, 2025 at 7:33 PM
My therapist said that my deep fear of rejection is handicapping me and I agree. I will lose out on anyone I have any interest in because of inaction due to my fear of rejection. It causes such a somatic response even thinking about expressing my feelings. I am the one thing standing in the way.
It’s long sleeve band shirt and bike shorts weather 😌 PRAISE
March 12, 2025 at 6:50 PM
It’s long sleeve band shirt and bike shorts weather 😌 PRAISE
Surprise surprise, Anora made me cry. Every relationship was transactional for her and Igor showed her it wasn’t for him. People are so cruel and take and take. I relate too much to the “common whore” in shit and it’s because I feel like I am a common whore.
March 10, 2025 at 1:36 AM
Surprise surprise, Anora made me cry. Every relationship was transactional for her and Igor showed her it wasn’t for him. People are so cruel and take and take. I relate too much to the “common whore” in shit and it’s because I feel like I am a common whore.
I’m very lightly spiraling a little. Like spiral lite. I need to just take a deep breath and focus on myself and that is not easy…
March 4, 2025 at 3:03 PM
I’m very lightly spiraling a little. Like spiral lite. I need to just take a deep breath and focus on myself and that is not easy…
Wow, the latest episode of Severance was ABSOLUTELY stunning. They’re all visually striking but this one was just different. Such a phenomenal episode.
March 1, 2025 at 7:16 PM
Wow, the latest episode of Severance was ABSOLUTELY stunning. They’re all visually striking but this one was just different. Such a phenomenal episode.
Been trying to replace some of my Tiktok scrolling with Substack scrolling and it’s been really nice. Healing is tough work and will take time but the time will pass anyway.
February 27, 2025 at 12:48 AM
Been trying to replace some of my Tiktok scrolling with Substack scrolling and it’s been really nice. Healing is tough work and will take time but the time will pass anyway.
My anxiety is so insanely high today I feel like I’m being hunted for sport.. like idk what’s causing it but I just feel extremely off.
February 25, 2025 at 2:57 PM
My anxiety is so insanely high today I feel like I’m being hunted for sport.. like idk what’s causing it but I just feel extremely off.
Just bought a banjo so excited to get that going. Am also considering getting super into making chainmail. It’s been a good weekend.
February 23, 2025 at 8:42 PM
Just bought a banjo so excited to get that going. Am also considering getting super into making chainmail. It’s been a good weekend.
It’s so fitting that the day I realized that my nails are brat green (I hated this color until today) they’re playing a brat mix at axis 💚.
February 22, 2025 at 6:29 AM
It’s so fitting that the day I realized that my nails are brat green (I hated this color until today) they’re playing a brat mix at axis 💚.
It’s such a mind fuck when people on tiktok are like “5’5” size 18/20” and they’re a SOLID 70-80 lbs lighter than me. Like WHAT?? There’s no way. When I think about progress I’ve made and what more I’m losing and I see people my height and a weight I would like to be but the same size?! Crash out.
February 18, 2025 at 4:25 PM
It’s such a mind fuck when people on tiktok are like “5’5” size 18/20” and they’re a SOLID 70-80 lbs lighter than me. Like WHAT?? There’s no way. When I think about progress I’ve made and what more I’m losing and I see people my height and a weight I would like to be but the same size?! Crash out.
Do you think my therapist will entertain my psychoanalyzing interactions with my crush to help distract me from the bullshit going on??
February 14, 2025 at 5:43 PM
Do you think my therapist will entertain my psychoanalyzing interactions with my crush to help distract me from the bullshit going on??
Also I got to land the finishing blow on a chimera with a crazy sneak attack roll in my D&D session last night and therefore got to describe what it looked like. That was sick. That also made my day better.
February 14, 2025 at 2:39 PM
Also I got to land the finishing blow on a chimera with a crazy sneak attack roll in my D&D session last night and therefore got to describe what it looked like. That was sick. That also made my day better.
Just bought a hat that says “dumb bitch” and my day feels infinitely better. Our purpose is to buy things 😎
February 14, 2025 at 2:35 PM
Just bought a hat that says “dumb bitch” and my day feels infinitely better. Our purpose is to buy things 😎
I know the minute I go to take a shit, the maintenance guy will be here to switch out the furnace filter..
February 13, 2025 at 6:46 PM
I know the minute I go to take a shit, the maintenance guy will be here to switch out the furnace filter..
Having never been a dress girlie before, I’m finding myself wanting buy a selkie dress BAD. I need an excuse to put on a gorgeous dress and do my hair and make up. I NEED IT!
February 13, 2025 at 3:08 AM
Having never been a dress girlie before, I’m finding myself wanting buy a selkie dress BAD. I need an excuse to put on a gorgeous dress and do my hair and make up. I NEED IT!
“Lean is law.” “Waist snatching body suit.” “Viral arm lift shirt.” “Stair master queen.” I’m gonna kms.. time is a circle.
February 12, 2025 at 3:37 PM
“Lean is law.” “Waist snatching body suit.” “Viral arm lift shirt.” “Stair master queen.” I’m gonna kms.. time is a circle.
This all silly and goofy and possibly foreshadowing but it reminds me that the ER department at OSU medical center is literally called the Abercrombie and Fitch Emergency Department..
February 12, 2025 at 1:10 PM
This all silly and goofy and possibly foreshadowing but it reminds me that the ER department at OSU medical center is literally called the Abercrombie and Fitch Emergency Department..
I’ll never forgive Grimes for having Elons children and being a weird cosplaying poor person but her music is so good 😩
February 12, 2025 at 12:50 PM
I’ll never forgive Grimes for having Elons children and being a weird cosplaying poor person but her music is so good 😩
It’s depressing thinking about what I could spend my time doing or how I would live my life if I wasn’t so obsessed with my body. It’s a constant thought every fucking day. I’m tired.
February 11, 2025 at 11:27 PM
It’s depressing thinking about what I could spend my time doing or how I would live my life if I wasn’t so obsessed with my body. It’s a constant thought every fucking day. I’m tired.
This is a picture of my latest MRI.
February 11, 2025 at 5:20 PM
This is a picture of my latest MRI.
My best friend is coming over for lunch and I’m so excited. Mid workday lunch hangout and my place!!! Small pleasures like this will get me through the blight that is life on this planet in the modern day.
February 10, 2025 at 3:25 PM
My best friend is coming over for lunch and I’m so excited. Mid workday lunch hangout and my place!!! Small pleasures like this will get me through the blight that is life on this planet in the modern day.
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Wanna be a little invertebrate when I grow up. Just give me a rock to live under and stick me on the bottom of the sea. No more push notifications. No more endless news cycle. One smooooth little brain please.
February 9, 2025 at 3:10 PM
Wanna be a little invertebrate when I grow up. Just give me a rock to live under and stick me on the bottom of the sea. No more push notifications. No more endless news cycle. One smooooth little brain please.
I hate when tattoo artists post videos of their fresh work and they pinch it?! If you pinched me after tattooing me, it would take a lot to keep me from punching you. That shit hurts! I mostly see it with embroidery tattoos which I hate anyway but.. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
February 8, 2025 at 8:56 PM
I hate when tattoo artists post videos of their fresh work and they pinch it?! If you pinched me after tattooing me, it would take a lot to keep me from punching you. That shit hurts! I mostly see it with embroidery tattoos which I hate anyway but.. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
There’s a smell on my shirt today and I cannot think of where it is from. It doesn’t smell like any of my perfumes so I don’t think it’s from me? Like did I hug someone? Idk, but it smells PHENOMENAL and I can’t stop sniffing my shirt.
February 8, 2025 at 6:25 PM
There’s a smell on my shirt today and I cannot think of where it is from. It doesn’t smell like any of my perfumes so I don’t think it’s from me? Like did I hug someone? Idk, but it smells PHENOMENAL and I can’t stop sniffing my shirt.