Dead Inside
@pesimisticoptimist.bsky.social
I hate everything right now.
Hard left. Genderfluid. Having tits wouldn’t make me happy, having hips would!
GOOD NEWS
Am less drunk.
Still angsty.
Hard left. Genderfluid. Having tits wouldn’t make me happy, having hips would!
GOOD NEWS
Am less drunk.
Still angsty.
Me: start new job
Me: new systems unfamiliar with
Me: looking for where the sandboxes are to mess around with
Me >Dude who used to deal with it “hey where’s your sandboxes for testing”
Dude:
Me: new systems unfamiliar with
Me: looking for where the sandboxes are to mess around with
Me >Dude who used to deal with it “hey where’s your sandboxes for testing”
Dude:
February 6, 2026 at 3:27 PM
Me: start new job
Me: new systems unfamiliar with
Me: looking for where the sandboxes are to mess around with
Me >Dude who used to deal with it “hey where’s your sandboxes for testing”
Dude:
Me: new systems unfamiliar with
Me: looking for where the sandboxes are to mess around with
Me >Dude who used to deal with it “hey where’s your sandboxes for testing”
Dude:
I have somewhere around 30k photos of my life that I have taken…
I have barely any storage space left on my computer because of them…
Anytime I look at any of them I literally have a full blown panic attack and hysterically cry…
I fucking hate my life… I hate where I am.. I hate what I’ve become
I have barely any storage space left on my computer because of them…
Anytime I look at any of them I literally have a full blown panic attack and hysterically cry…
I fucking hate my life… I hate where I am.. I hate what I’ve become
February 1, 2026 at 7:45 PM
I have somewhere around 30k photos of my life that I have taken…
I have barely any storage space left on my computer because of them…
Anytime I look at any of them I literally have a full blown panic attack and hysterically cry…
I fucking hate my life… I hate where I am.. I hate what I’ve become
I have barely any storage space left on my computer because of them…
Anytime I look at any of them I literally have a full blown panic attack and hysterically cry…
I fucking hate my life… I hate where I am.. I hate what I’ve become
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And the hits just keep comin'! 😂🤣
February 1, 2026 at 5:38 AM
And the hits just keep comin'! 😂🤣
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Forgive yourself for not expressing yourself perfectly. Forgive yourself for not knowing exactly what to say. Forgive yourself for having mixed feelings & sometimes conflicting needs.
Forgive yourself for being human. Turns out it's not a crime. (Who knew?)
Forgive yourself for being human. Turns out it's not a crime. (Who knew?)
January 27, 2026 at 4:58 AM
Forgive yourself for not expressing yourself perfectly. Forgive yourself for not knowing exactly what to say. Forgive yourself for having mixed feelings & sometimes conflicting needs.
Forgive yourself for being human. Turns out it's not a crime. (Who knew?)
Forgive yourself for being human. Turns out it's not a crime. (Who knew?)
In a sliver of happiness in these dark times, snowmageddon has begun here!
Current estimates are 22-27”
I hope those are underestimates and we see like 3 fucking feet
Current estimates are 22-27”
I hope those are underestimates and we see like 3 fucking feet
January 25, 2026 at 4:25 PM
In a sliver of happiness in these dark times, snowmageddon has begun here!
Current estimates are 22-27”
I hope those are underestimates and we see like 3 fucking feet
Current estimates are 22-27”
I hope those are underestimates and we see like 3 fucking feet
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Time itself does not magically heal anything. Time that passes while a wound or injury is getting no care or the wrong care can actually be toxic.
I don't care how long ago a wound or injury occurred-- "you should be over that by now" is never a realistic approach to healing.
I don't care how long ago a wound or injury occurred-- "you should be over that by now" is never a realistic approach to healing.
January 24, 2026 at 4:54 AM
Time itself does not magically heal anything. Time that passes while a wound or injury is getting no care or the wrong care can actually be toxic.
I don't care how long ago a wound or injury occurred-- "you should be over that by now" is never a realistic approach to healing.
I don't care how long ago a wound or injury occurred-- "you should be over that by now" is never a realistic approach to healing.
Well today was a good day. It snowed (unplanningly) 6+ inches overnight, so I said fuck it and went snowmobiling. I did 60 miles and holy shit am I beat. The old sled I have is like riding a bucking bronco lmao. It was fun but damnnn my back 😣😆
January 20, 2026 at 3:54 AM
Well today was a good day. It snowed (unplanningly) 6+ inches overnight, so I said fuck it and went snowmobiling. I did 60 miles and holy shit am I beat. The old sled I have is like riding a bucking bronco lmao. It was fun but damnnn my back 😣😆
I have been crying on and off all day today. I wish I knew how to effectively deal with shame and regret. I wish I could understand how not to regret all of the decisions I’ve made in my life.
January 19, 2026 at 6:35 AM
I have been crying on and off all day today. I wish I knew how to effectively deal with shame and regret. I wish I could understand how not to regret all of the decisions I’ve made in my life.
DANG
After years of searching I found a real job that I start soon. Went notebook shopping, this, this would have been beautiful coming in on day one (I’m supposed to be a SME)
BUGGER
After years of searching I found a real job that I start soon. Went notebook shopping, this, this would have been beautiful coming in on day one (I’m supposed to be a SME)
BUGGER
January 18, 2026 at 2:47 AM
DANG
After years of searching I found a real job that I start soon. Went notebook shopping, this, this would have been beautiful coming in on day one (I’m supposed to be a SME)
BUGGER
After years of searching I found a real job that I start soon. Went notebook shopping, this, this would have been beautiful coming in on day one (I’m supposed to be a SME)
BUGGER
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Normally I do not purchase, post, or enjoy photos where props have been forced on cats, but I made an exception in this particular case for bluesky reasons. Postcard from my collection, mailed 1931.
January 14, 2026 at 6:29 AM
Normally I do not purchase, post, or enjoy photos where props have been forced on cats, but I made an exception in this particular case for bluesky reasons. Postcard from my collection, mailed 1931.
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On my way to the Supreme Court where I'll be proud to support 15-year-old Becky Pepper-Jackson, West Virginia's only transgender athlete, as she opposes the state's effort to ban her from playing as herself.
Win or lose, Becky and her family are heroes for standing up for what's right
Win or lose, Becky and her family are heroes for standing up for what's right
January 13, 2026 at 12:10 PM
On my way to the Supreme Court where I'll be proud to support 15-year-old Becky Pepper-Jackson, West Virginia's only transgender athlete, as she opposes the state's effort to ban her from playing as herself.
Win or lose, Becky and her family are heroes for standing up for what's right
Win or lose, Becky and her family are heroes for standing up for what's right
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It was me, 10 y/o, thinking I was rich, irrespective of what the adults told me
The joy and hope I held in those moments
The joy and hope I held in those moments
you know how the mineral iron pyrite is colloquially called "fool's gold"
what's that like, but with hope
what's that like, but with hope
January 13, 2026 at 7:42 AM
It was me, 10 y/o, thinking I was rich, irrespective of what the adults told me
The joy and hope I held in those moments
The joy and hope I held in those moments
I just started up Airplane! For the first time in a long time. His “smoking” ticket, looks 100% like it’s fucking white h
Phosphorus, especially once he gets on the plane, and holy shit, I wish I could find out if it was cuz that’d be pure insanity (toxic smoke)
Phosphorus, especially once he gets on the plane, and holy shit, I wish I could find out if it was cuz that’d be pure insanity (toxic smoke)
January 12, 2026 at 5:13 PM
I just started up Airplane! For the first time in a long time. His “smoking” ticket, looks 100% like it’s fucking white h
Phosphorus, especially once he gets on the plane, and holy shit, I wish I could find out if it was cuz that’d be pure insanity (toxic smoke)
Phosphorus, especially once he gets on the plane, and holy shit, I wish I could find out if it was cuz that’d be pure insanity (toxic smoke)
Helluva week to have a four day hangover and have to go through this shit sober
January 12, 2026 at 4:28 PM
Helluva week to have a four day hangover and have to go through this shit sober
