Squal
@lavishsqualor.bsky.social
All of us are better when we’re loved.
I’ve been very low for a couple weeks now, but today, my own pain is overshadowed by my pain for others.
I know two people who are celebrating their birthday in the hospital today.
1) My husband’s baby cousin is in the hospital with meningitis on her first birthday. They sent her home
I know two people who are celebrating their birthday in the hospital today.
1) My husband’s baby cousin is in the hospital with meningitis on her first birthday. They sent her home
November 27, 2025 at 8:01 PM
I’ve been very low for a couple weeks now, but today, my own pain is overshadowed by my pain for others.
I know two people who are celebrating their birthday in the hospital today.
1) My husband’s baby cousin is in the hospital with meningitis on her first birthday. They sent her home
I know two people who are celebrating their birthday in the hospital today.
1) My husband’s baby cousin is in the hospital with meningitis on her first birthday. They sent her home
vivid dreams for a week now. side effect of the new anti-cancer drug, perhaps, or perhaps just induced by stress. hoping the latter. but last night’s was finally FINALLY a very ~very good dream, not horrific.
November 22, 2025 at 12:33 PM
vivid dreams for a week now. side effect of the new anti-cancer drug, perhaps, or perhaps just induced by stress. hoping the latter. but last night’s was finally FINALLY a very ~very good dream, not horrific.
my lips are more chapped than they’ve ever been in my entire life.
is it perimenopause?
is it perimenopause?
November 18, 2025 at 3:30 PM
my lips are more chapped than they’ve ever been in my entire life.
is it perimenopause?
is it perimenopause?
Excuse me, Jared Padalecki is going to lead a MEDICAL DRAMA?! My genre?!? 🤩
November 16, 2025 at 2:41 PM
Excuse me, Jared Padalecki is going to lead a MEDICAL DRAMA?! My genre?!? 🤩
started an estrogen blocking drug a week ago, to reduce likelihood of recurrence and to protect the remaining breast. the possible side effects are terrifying.
a single person has asked me how it’s been going so far. and none of my closest people.
everything is just back to normal, I guess.
a single person has asked me how it’s been going so far. and none of my closest people.
everything is just back to normal, I guess.
November 15, 2025 at 1:23 AM
started an estrogen blocking drug a week ago, to reduce likelihood of recurrence and to protect the remaining breast. the possible side effects are terrifying.
a single person has asked me how it’s been going so far. and none of my closest people.
everything is just back to normal, I guess.
a single person has asked me how it’s been going so far. and none of my closest people.
everything is just back to normal, I guess.
this is why I can’t talk to people.
everyone thinks it’s all okay, I’m alive so I must be good. I’m not good.
everyone thinks it’s all okay, I’m alive so I must be good. I’m not good.
November 15, 2025 at 12:52 AM
this is why I can’t talk to people.
everyone thinks it’s all okay, I’m alive so I must be good. I’m not good.
everyone thinks it’s all okay, I’m alive so I must be good. I’m not good.
don’t think I’ve hit a wall in anger so hard as to hurt my own hand in two decades plus.
you know you’re not doing well when…
you know you’re not doing well when…
October 19, 2025 at 2:11 AM
don’t think I’ve hit a wall in anger so hard as to hurt my own hand in two decades plus.
you know you’re not doing well when…
you know you’re not doing well when…
mastectomy a week from today. the emotions are BIG
September 9, 2025 at 11:24 PM
mastectomy a week from today. the emotions are BIG
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My phone just closed all of my 500 open Safari tabs and I’ve never felt more vulnerable and exposed
September 8, 2025 at 8:59 PM
My phone just closed all of my 500 open Safari tabs and I’ve never felt more vulnerable and exposed
funerals hit different when you have cancer
August 28, 2025 at 3:33 PM
funerals hit different when you have cancer
when is this app gonna allow us to save drafts???
a baby girl is sitting in a car seat holding a lollipop and making a funny face .
ALT: a baby girl is sitting in a car seat holding a lollipop and making a funny face .
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August 27, 2025 at 3:24 AM
when is this app gonna allow us to save drafts???
holy shit. I finally got a mattress topper (2 inches of down & fake down pillow top on top of 2 inches cooling memory foam) and splurged on new sheets and a neck supporting pillow and silk pillowcase. holy shit. let’s see how this sleep hits.
August 27, 2025 at 3:22 AM
holy shit. I finally got a mattress topper (2 inches of down & fake down pillow top on top of 2 inches cooling memory foam) and splurged on new sheets and a neck supporting pillow and silk pillowcase. holy shit. let’s see how this sleep hits.
after driving my manual TDI Jetta with after market stereo, speakers, and subwoofers for 16 years (as, you know, that was the thing when I was a teenager and I got that car at 19), no other car’s music loudness levels ever satisfy the loudness I crave.
August 21, 2025 at 6:21 PM
after driving my manual TDI Jetta with after market stereo, speakers, and subwoofers for 16 years (as, you know, that was the thing when I was a teenager and I got that car at 19), no other car’s music loudness levels ever satisfy the loudness I crave.
so it turns out there were no decisions to be made at the surgical consult: right boob is getting chopped off in a month…
August 18, 2025 at 5:37 PM
so it turns out there were no decisions to be made at the surgical consult: right boob is getting chopped off in a month…
maybe it’s true that sometimes love just isn’t enough…
August 16, 2025 at 10:09 PM
maybe it’s true that sometimes love just isn’t enough…
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This surprisingly relaxing footage is from SIX MILES under the ocean – and it’s the deepest ecosystem yet discovered
July 31, 2025 at 3:38 PM
This surprisingly relaxing footage is from SIX MILES under the ocean – and it’s the deepest ecosystem yet discovered
what a strange birthday today is
a woman in a purple shirt is sitting on a stair lift with the caption rolling into your 40s be like
ALT: a woman in a purple shirt is sitting on a stair lift with the caption rolling into your 40s be like
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July 25, 2025 at 1:19 PM
what a strange birthday today is
my babygirl turns 2 today, and I am not okay
July 23, 2025 at 11:32 AM
my babygirl turns 2 today, and I am not okay
can I just call the radiology dept and tell them to hurry the fuck up???
July 14, 2025 at 5:46 PM
can I just call the radiology dept and tell them to hurry the fuck up???
okay but I am going to need to watch Sinners AGAIN
July 6, 2025 at 4:16 AM
okay but I am going to need to watch Sinners AGAIN
so desperate for chocolate, I had to search out the little remainder of the Easter candy.
as my dad would say, it is hitting the spot.
as my dad would say, it is hitting the spot.
July 4, 2025 at 1:20 AM
so desperate for chocolate, I had to search out the little remainder of the Easter candy.
as my dad would say, it is hitting the spot.
as my dad would say, it is hitting the spot.
as I said back on twitter, when one spends a decade there, one starts to think in tweets.
July 3, 2025 at 8:15 PM
as I said back on twitter, when one spends a decade there, one starts to think in tweets.
it’s been hot (and humid) af here for weeks now and we’re past the summer solstice and the boy has been out of school for five whole days, but it’s the fireflies popping up the past few nights that truly marks the start of summer for me.
July 2, 2025 at 1:42 AM
it’s been hot (and humid) af here for weeks now and we’re past the summer solstice and the boy has been out of school for five whole days, but it’s the fireflies popping up the past few nights that truly marks the start of summer for me.
ten years later, I’ve finished deadheading/pruning my two petunia hanging baskets.
my god, that was a job and a half. that my mother warned me about. but I was so fixated on colour.
perhaps they’ll come back full and beautiful, and I’ll decide it was worth it. perhaps not. we shall wait and see!
my god, that was a job and a half. that my mother warned me about. but I was so fixated on colour.
perhaps they’ll come back full and beautiful, and I’ll decide it was worth it. perhaps not. we shall wait and see!
July 1, 2025 at 8:18 PM
ten years later, I’ve finished deadheading/pruning my two petunia hanging baskets.
my god, that was a job and a half. that my mother warned me about. but I was so fixated on colour.
perhaps they’ll come back full and beautiful, and I’ll decide it was worth it. perhaps not. we shall wait and see!
my god, that was a job and a half. that my mother warned me about. but I was so fixated on colour.
perhaps they’ll come back full and beautiful, and I’ll decide it was worth it. perhaps not. we shall wait and see!
so I am smack in the middle of a pretty bad cancer scare. it’s really hard, bc I’d like accepted that I’d probably get lung cancer in my 60s or 70s or something (that’s fucked up, I know), but hadn’t anticipated getting breast cancer before I turn 40. before my baby turns 2.
June 20, 2025 at 4:37 PM
so I am smack in the middle of a pretty bad cancer scare. it’s really hard, bc I’d like accepted that I’d probably get lung cancer in my 60s or 70s or something (that’s fucked up, I know), but hadn’t anticipated getting breast cancer before I turn 40. before my baby turns 2.