El
@eliimikaela.bsky.social
🏳️🌈🇿🇲🇯🇲 | they/them | mostly post about music, mental health, disability and The Sims!
I was meant to be discharged from hospital today but they haven't decided what team they're discharging me to so they're going to wait until next week (but I'll be on leave until then). Hopefully, they've sorted themselves out by next week!
August 12, 2025 at 12:51 PM
I was meant to be discharged from hospital today but they haven't decided what team they're discharging me to so they're going to wait until next week (but I'll be on leave until then). Hopefully, they've sorted themselves out by next week!
There was a locum consultant in my ward round today. He completely changed my diagnosis, even though this was the first time I've met him, and has left me feeling very, very confused
August 5, 2025 at 11:55 AM
There was a locum consultant in my ward round today. He completely changed my diagnosis, even though this was the first time I've met him, and has left me feeling very, very confused
I got told my current diagnoses, and I don't know how to feel. One of the diagnoses (schizophrenia) is one that the community consultant dismissed as she said it was just BPD and nothing else. I don't know who I should listen to. It's very confusing.
July 31, 2025 at 3:41 PM
I got told my current diagnoses, and I don't know how to feel. One of the diagnoses (schizophrenia) is one that the community consultant dismissed as she said it was just BPD and nothing else. I don't know who I should listen to. It's very confusing.
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Transphobia as justification for subjecting all women athletes to intrusive medical tests and someone else's definition of who they 'really' are. Cursory searches online indicate presence of the SRY gene has a complex range of effects, including none. This is nonsense.
www.bbc.co.uk/sport/athlet...
www.bbc.co.uk/sport/athlet...
World Athletics introduces one-time genetic test for athletes wanting to compete in female category for world ranking competitions
Athletes who want to compete in the female category for world ranking competitions will have to take a one-time gene test, says World Athletics.
www.bbc.co.uk
July 31, 2025 at 8:53 AM
Transphobia as justification for subjecting all women athletes to intrusive medical tests and someone else's definition of who they 'really' are. Cursory searches online indicate presence of the SRY gene has a complex range of effects, including none. This is nonsense.
www.bbc.co.uk/sport/athlet...
www.bbc.co.uk/sport/athlet...
I've never had to take a medication to manage the side effects of another until yesterday, and I hate it. I didn't even want to be on the first medication. It feels like they are intentionally trying to harm me.
July 30, 2025 at 8:05 PM
I've never had to take a medication to manage the side effects of another until yesterday, and I hate it. I didn't even want to be on the first medication. It feels like they are intentionally trying to harm me.
I'm so sick of being in hospital. It's been almost 8 weeks of essentially being told that I'm not thinking in the "correct" way. Then, making no changes to anything until 6 weeks into the admission when they eventually decided to change my meds.
July 30, 2025 at 3:03 PM
I'm so sick of being in hospital. It's been almost 8 weeks of essentially being told that I'm not thinking in the "correct" way. Then, making no changes to anything until 6 weeks into the admission when they eventually decided to change my meds.
CN: Eating disorder
I downloaded a calorie counting app that I used when I was about 14 (I want to track my food/weight now I'm on clozapine) and it's made me realise just how shit my relationship with food and exercise was. Like, instead of just playing my instrument, I treated it as exercise.
I downloaded a calorie counting app that I used when I was about 14 (I want to track my food/weight now I'm on clozapine) and it's made me realise just how shit my relationship with food and exercise was. Like, instead of just playing my instrument, I treated it as exercise.
July 26, 2025 at 7:15 PM
CN: Eating disorder
I downloaded a calorie counting app that I used when I was about 14 (I want to track my food/weight now I'm on clozapine) and it's made me realise just how shit my relationship with food and exercise was. Like, instead of just playing my instrument, I treated it as exercise.
I downloaded a calorie counting app that I used when I was about 14 (I want to track my food/weight now I'm on clozapine) and it's made me realise just how shit my relationship with food and exercise was. Like, instead of just playing my instrument, I treated it as exercise.
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I think a lot of neurotypical people would be surprised at just how many autistic people go through life wondering for years if they’re “really” autistic, even after diagnosis
And if they’re “valid” 💔
(I know, because I was one of them)
And if they’re “valid” 💔
(I know, because I was one of them)
Lots of Autistic people when diagnosed with ASD immediately assume they conned the diagnostician into giving them the DX … that’s how deep the imposter syndrome goes.
“What if I conned him? I really think I conned him. Not on purpose, but I think I might be a very specific sort of con artist who only deceives people by accident?”
July 23, 2025 at 7:22 PM
I think a lot of neurotypical people would be surprised at just how many autistic people go through life wondering for years if they’re “really” autistic, even after diagnosis
And if they’re “valid” 💔
(I know, because I was one of them)
And if they’re “valid” 💔
(I know, because I was one of them)
The consultant thinks I might have schizoaffective disorder, and I don't know how to feel about that. All I can think is that it's essentially a lifelong condition and that it might hinder my career and my studies. I suppose maybe I'm feeling scared.
July 22, 2025 at 12:36 PM
The consultant thinks I might have schizoaffective disorder, and I don't know how to feel about that. All I can think is that it's essentially a lifelong condition and that it might hinder my career and my studies. I suppose maybe I'm feeling scared.
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The EHRC – the body which is meant to protect our human rights – is proposing guidance which would turn the Equality Act into a bathroom ban. If this becomes law, it would force trans people out of public life.
And terrifyingly - this is all happening behind closed doors 🧵
And terrifyingly - this is all happening behind closed doors 🧵
July 21, 2025 at 11:25 AM
The EHRC – the body which is meant to protect our human rights – is proposing guidance which would turn the Equality Act into a bathroom ban. If this becomes law, it would force trans people out of public life.
And terrifyingly - this is all happening behind closed doors 🧵
And terrifyingly - this is all happening behind closed doors 🧵
I started talking to this wonderful person before i went into hospital and they know i'm now in hospital and they haven't backed away which is honestly a really nice feeling. I always feel like i'm unlikeable/unlovable because of my mental health but maybe i'm not
July 19, 2025 at 6:47 PM
I started talking to this wonderful person before i went into hospital and they know i'm now in hospital and they haven't backed away which is honestly a really nice feeling. I always feel like i'm unlikeable/unlovable because of my mental health but maybe i'm not
I'm meant to start the new medication today, and this is a list of things they haven't told me:
- How long i might be on it.
- What the starting dose is.
- How they determine the optimal dose.
- What it's actually for.
Basically, all I've been told is that I'm being prescribed it. I'm very annoyed.
- How long i might be on it.
- What the starting dose is.
- How they determine the optimal dose.
- What it's actually for.
Basically, all I've been told is that I'm being prescribed it. I'm very annoyed.
July 18, 2025 at 2:42 PM
I'm meant to start the new medication today, and this is a list of things they haven't told me:
- How long i might be on it.
- What the starting dose is.
- How they determine the optimal dose.
- What it's actually for.
Basically, all I've been told is that I'm being prescribed it. I'm very annoyed.
- How long i might be on it.
- What the starting dose is.
- How they determine the optimal dose.
- What it's actually for.
Basically, all I've been told is that I'm being prescribed it. I'm very annoyed.
CN: BMI mention
I know BMI isn't great, but I checked anyways and it was a bit surprising to see that the healthy BMI range is smaller for black people than for white people on the NHS website. I am also extremely upset by the result because of that ... I really shouldn't have checked
I know BMI isn't great, but I checked anyways and it was a bit surprising to see that the healthy BMI range is smaller for black people than for white people on the NHS website. I am also extremely upset by the result because of that ... I really shouldn't have checked
July 17, 2025 at 3:59 PM
CN: BMI mention
I know BMI isn't great, but I checked anyways and it was a bit surprising to see that the healthy BMI range is smaller for black people than for white people on the NHS website. I am also extremely upset by the result because of that ... I really shouldn't have checked
I know BMI isn't great, but I checked anyways and it was a bit surprising to see that the healthy BMI range is smaller for black people than for white people on the NHS website. I am also extremely upset by the result because of that ... I really shouldn't have checked
The ward now has two "singers". My head is killing me.
July 17, 2025 at 12:47 PM
The ward now has two "singers". My head is killing me.
CN: eating disorder, weight gain, food
The past few days have very much made me realise that I am mentally not fully recovered from my eating disorder. The hospital is trying to put me on a medication that is linked to weight gain and it has triggered some old behaviours.
The past few days have very much made me realise that I am mentally not fully recovered from my eating disorder. The hospital is trying to put me on a medication that is linked to weight gain and it has triggered some old behaviours.
July 17, 2025 at 11:28 AM
CN: eating disorder, weight gain, food
The past few days have very much made me realise that I am mentally not fully recovered from my eating disorder. The hospital is trying to put me on a medication that is linked to weight gain and it has triggered some old behaviours.
The past few days have very much made me realise that I am mentally not fully recovered from my eating disorder. The hospital is trying to put me on a medication that is linked to weight gain and it has triggered some old behaviours.
As someone who has a tendency to stop their medication, doesn't drink enough water, and tends to ignore physical symptoms until they're really bad, clozapine is like the worst medication you could prescribe me. I've never hated a consultant more, and that says a lot.
July 15, 2025 at 3:56 PM
As someone who has a tendency to stop their medication, doesn't drink enough water, and tends to ignore physical symptoms until they're really bad, clozapine is like the worst medication you could prescribe me. I've never hated a consultant more, and that says a lot.
I'm so, so annoyed that they're going to (try to) start me on the one medication I'm actually terrified of taking. Like I had objections to the other medications, but this one I am actually so scared of taking.
July 15, 2025 at 11:46 AM
I'm so, so annoyed that they're going to (try to) start me on the one medication I'm actually terrified of taking. Like I had objections to the other medications, but this one I am actually so scared of taking.
I've been in hospital 5 weeks and I still have only escorted leave, am on 15 minute observations and am not allowed to keep my own clothes in my room. They're being incredibly cautious with me and while I get it to an extent, it's very frustrating.
July 14, 2025 at 8:41 PM
I've been in hospital 5 weeks and I still have only escorted leave, am on 15 minute observations and am not allowed to keep my own clothes in my room. They're being incredibly cautious with me and while I get it to an extent, it's very frustrating.
Over the last few weeks on the ward, I have heard so much racist and homophobic language. It's really starting to get to me.
July 14, 2025 at 7:32 AM
Over the last few weeks on the ward, I have heard so much racist and homophobic language. It's really starting to get to me.
They want to start me on new medication, and one of the options sounds so intense. Like the list of side effects is so long with several serious ones. I'd also have to go for (at least) weekly blood tests. The other options aren't great, but anything is better than that.
July 9, 2025 at 2:16 PM
They want to start me on new medication, and one of the options sounds so intense. Like the list of side effects is so long with several serious ones. I'd also have to go for (at least) weekly blood tests. The other options aren't great, but anything is better than that.
They brought out the ward speaker today. We've had reggae, aftobeats and now Celine dion accompanied by some very, very interesting singing
July 6, 2025 at 6:18 PM
They brought out the ward speaker today. We've had reggae, aftobeats and now Celine dion accompanied by some very, very interesting singing
There's this one staff member on the ward who never checks on me when she is on observations. Like she'll look through the window in my door and, because of where i'm sitting, she definitely can't see me, but then she just moves on
July 5, 2025 at 8:30 PM
There's this one staff member on the ward who never checks on me when she is on observations. Like she'll look through the window in my door and, because of where i'm sitting, she definitely can't see me, but then she just moves on
I've been in hospital about 4 weeks now and they've done absolutely nothing - like I've barely met with the psychologists and my medication hasn't changed. They say they want to review my diagnosis first, but why has it taken 4 weeks to get to this point. I don't know why I'm here.
July 4, 2025 at 4:30 PM
I've been in hospital about 4 weeks now and they've done absolutely nothing - like I've barely met with the psychologists and my medication hasn't changed. They say they want to review my diagnosis first, but why has it taken 4 weeks to get to this point. I don't know why I'm here.
This is the second time in a row that I've been in hospital and part way through the consultant changed. It's very annoying.
July 1, 2025 at 3:34 PM
This is the second time in a row that I've been in hospital and part way through the consultant changed. It's very annoying.
I'm on 15 min obs and sat in the corner of my room (you can't see me from the door so usually the staff come in to check) but this one staff member just turns on the obs light and doesn't check where I am or what i'm doing. Like I'm ok with it but yeah
June 29, 2025 at 9:06 PM
I'm on 15 min obs and sat in the corner of my room (you can't see me from the door so usually the staff come in to check) but this one staff member just turns on the obs light and doesn't check where I am or what i'm doing. Like I'm ok with it but yeah