Lurk 🔥
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Escaping life for a minute, don't worry about me.
This is just for me to vent and shit. Will not respond to DMs. Don't follow expecting much from me.
30 | he/they | MDNI 🔞
This is just for me to vent and shit. Will not respond to DMs. Don't follow expecting much from me.
30 | he/they | MDNI 🔞
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There's 50 other people who love me for me but I'm letting you control my life. 😮💨
January 3, 2026 at 9:25 AM
There's 50 other people who love me for me but I'm letting you control my life. 😮💨
You know the worst part is at the end of it all, I'm scared too. I don't want to be alone again and navigate the world without that support, but I also don't want to sit here and be depressed all the fucking time.
Lesser of two evils I guess.
Lesser of two evils I guess.
January 3, 2026 at 7:12 AM
You know the worst part is at the end of it all, I'm scared too. I don't want to be alone again and navigate the world without that support, but I also don't want to sit here and be depressed all the fucking time.
Lesser of two evils I guess.
Lesser of two evils I guess.
Day 1 of 2026 and I had a panic attack. Yay 😀
January 2, 2026 at 12:33 PM
Day 1 of 2026 and I had a panic attack. Yay 😀
What the fuck ever dude. If you have a problem with me, say something. I'm so sick of your passive aggression.
January 1, 2026 at 3:35 PM
What the fuck ever dude. If you have a problem with me, say something. I'm so sick of your passive aggression.
Literally having a whole ass conversation with you about how "I don't respond back enough" at the exact same time all my friends are telling me to always take my time and get back to them when I can.
If that's not irony, I don't know what is.
If that's not irony, I don't know what is.
December 31, 2025 at 3:12 PM
Literally having a whole ass conversation with you about how "I don't respond back enough" at the exact same time all my friends are telling me to always take my time and get back to them when I can.
If that's not irony, I don't know what is.
If that's not irony, I don't know what is.
I just want to be in control of my life again, it shouldn't be this hard.
December 31, 2025 at 4:52 AM
I just want to be in control of my life again, it shouldn't be this hard.
I still think about you. Sometimes I wonder if you still think about me too.
But fuck it, honestly.
I do still miss you. You were a kind, understanding human. You also made me nervous as hell because you were crazy extroverted. Lol.
But anyways, I hope he treats you well this time. You wanted to leave for a reason, don't forget that.
I do still miss you. You were a kind, understanding human. You also made me nervous as hell because you were crazy extroverted. Lol.
But anyways, I hope he treats you well this time. You wanted to leave for a reason, don't forget that.
Hey that's funny.
You blocked me because I wanted space to think about shit.
But now you're running back to your ex like you said you'd never do. Which means you probably would've broken things off with me anyway.
That's fucking irony right there.
You blocked me because I wanted space to think about shit.
But now you're running back to your ex like you said you'd never do. Which means you probably would've broken things off with me anyway.
That's fucking irony right there.
December 31, 2025 at 4:45 AM
I still think about you. Sometimes I wonder if you still think about me too.
A list of all the things I think you actually love about me:
December 31, 2025 at 3:23 AM
A list of all the things I think you actually love about me:
As the year comes to a close I just want to remind you that you're doing it. Progress takes time, but you're fucking doing it. 🫂
Remember how hard life was 6 months ago? It HAS gotten easier. But it's also gotten hard in other ways, I understand. One step at a time. 🫂
Remember how hard life was 6 months ago? It HAS gotten easier. But it's also gotten hard in other ways, I understand. One step at a time. 🫂
And you've come even longer since this one.
I'm so fucking proud of you, dude. I love you so much. You're going to be okay.
I'm so fucking proud of you, dude. I love you so much. You're going to be okay.
You've come a long way since sending this. I'm proud of you. 🫂
December 31, 2025 at 3:23 AM
As the year comes to a close I just want to remind you that you're doing it. Progress takes time, but you're fucking doing it. 🫂
Remember how hard life was 6 months ago? It HAS gotten easier. But it's also gotten hard in other ways, I understand. One step at a time. 🫂
Remember how hard life was 6 months ago? It HAS gotten easier. But it's also gotten hard in other ways, I understand. One step at a time. 🫂
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I think if I didn't have so many friends in my life I would legitimately think about ending my life.
December 30, 2025 at 10:18 AM
I think if I didn't have so many friends in my life I would legitimately think about ending my life.
There is a sadness behind these eyes that so many people will never see.
December 30, 2025 at 8:20 AM
There is a sadness behind these eyes that so many people will never see.
I don't think you're prepared for just how honest I can be.
December 30, 2025 at 8:18 AM
I don't think you're prepared for just how honest I can be.
I think in order to feel happy again and actually take control of my life I'm going to have to be the bad guy and I'm not sure how that makes me feel.
December 30, 2025 at 6:53 AM
I think in order to feel happy again and actually take control of my life I'm going to have to be the bad guy and I'm not sure how that makes me feel.
I just don't get it because you can't change my mind. You can't force me to want this.
Hell, I'll even let you stay in the house until you find someone else to move in, I don't fucking care.
But please, for the love of god, LET ME GO.
Hell, I'll even let you stay in the house until you find someone else to move in, I don't fucking care.
But please, for the love of god, LET ME GO.
December 30, 2025 at 4:31 AM
I just don't get it because you can't change my mind. You can't force me to want this.
Hell, I'll even let you stay in the house until you find someone else to move in, I don't fucking care.
But please, for the love of god, LET ME GO.
Hell, I'll even let you stay in the house until you find someone else to move in, I don't fucking care.
But please, for the love of god, LET ME GO.
I have never seen someone hold onto something they don't own as tightly as you are. Just let it go.
December 30, 2025 at 4:17 AM
I have never seen someone hold onto something they don't own as tightly as you are. Just let it go.
Crying myself to sleep because I feel so fucking alone in my own home.
I hate this.
I hate this.
December 25, 2025 at 3:34 PM
Crying myself to sleep because I feel so fucking alone in my own home.
I hate this.
I hate this.
Oh so you CAN talk
December 8, 2025 at 11:21 AM
Oh so you CAN talk
If you don't watch me at my Charlie Brown, no shirt, no panties, you don't deserve me at my figuring out Zood is a tube.
December 6, 2025 at 11:09 AM
If you don't watch me at my Charlie Brown, no shirt, no panties, you don't deserve me at my figuring out Zood is a tube.
So fucking grateful to have such cool and amazing people in my life that care about me. 🖤
December 6, 2025 at 5:04 AM
So fucking grateful to have such cool and amazing people in my life that care about me. 🖤
In my go absolutely fuck yourself era.
There's a reason my intuition is right most of the time.
There's a reason my intuition is right most of the time.
December 6, 2025 at 2:18 AM
In my go absolutely fuck yourself era.
There's a reason my intuition is right most of the time.
There's a reason my intuition is right most of the time.
Just me and the fucking stars tonight. ✨
December 6, 2025 at 2:11 AM
Just me and the fucking stars tonight. ✨
God I fucking hate you. Only interested in talking to people you like. I've tried to interact with you on so many occasions and you give me nothing in return.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
December 2, 2025 at 5:33 PM
God I fucking hate you. Only interested in talking to people you like. I've tried to interact with you on so many occasions and you give me nothing in return.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
Sometimes my life feels like a shot from a movie where the main character has been kicked down and pushes themselves up against all odds.
December 1, 2025 at 1:12 AM
Sometimes my life feels like a shot from a movie where the main character has been kicked down and pushes themselves up against all odds.