Lurk 🔥
@undefinedlurker.bsky.social
Escaping life for a minute, don't worry about me.
This is just for me to vent and shit. Will not respond to DMs. Don't follow expecting much from me.
30 | he/they | MDNI 🔞
This is just for me to vent and shit. Will not respond to DMs. Don't follow expecting much from me.
30 | he/they | MDNI 🔞
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Despite all that shit I'm still fucking proud of myself though. 🫂
January 22, 2026 at 7:01 AM
Despite all that shit I'm still fucking proud of myself though. 🫂
This week's been like:
January 19, 2026 at 6:01 AM
This week's been like:
Love that I have a weird body phobia that makes me hate thinking about the inside of my own body, but somehow art like this is totally okay. 😅 Damn brain is a walking contradiction.
January 19, 2026 at 5:23 AM
Love that I have a weird body phobia that makes me hate thinking about the inside of my own body, but somehow art like this is totally okay. 😅 Damn brain is a walking contradiction.
What did you think was going to happen when you tried to change your life? When you tried to find the one thing to grab ahold of and make a fucking change?
You actually thought it would work this time? You actually thought you could get better? You know better. Life hates you.
You actually thought it would work this time? You actually thought you could get better? You know better. Life hates you.
January 18, 2026 at 6:37 PM
What did you think was going to happen when you tried to change your life? When you tried to find the one thing to grab ahold of and make a fucking change?
You actually thought it would work this time? You actually thought you could get better? You know better. Life hates you.
You actually thought it would work this time? You actually thought you could get better? You know better. Life hates you.
*pointing at myself in the mirror*
Go ahead, bark and roll over like the obedient dog you are. You know that's what you always do you fucking coward
Go ahead, bark and roll over like the obedient dog you are. You know that's what you always do you fucking coward
January 18, 2026 at 6:34 PM
*pointing at myself in the mirror*
Go ahead, bark and roll over like the obedient dog you are. You know that's what you always do you fucking coward
Go ahead, bark and roll over like the obedient dog you are. You know that's what you always do you fucking coward
Idk it's just like...I'm creating situations in my head that quite literally may never happen and I'm just hurting myself with them.
Why am I doing this? I don't deserve that.
Why am I doing this? I don't deserve that.
January 17, 2026 at 12:56 PM
Idk it's just like...I'm creating situations in my head that quite literally may never happen and I'm just hurting myself with them.
Why am I doing this? I don't deserve that.
Why am I doing this? I don't deserve that.
Sometimes I feel like I'm not meant for this shit. For forming connections. For getting into people's lives.
Am I better on my own? I don't know. Because I want someone to live life with...
Am I better on my own? I don't know. Because I want someone to live life with...
January 17, 2026 at 12:55 PM
Sometimes I feel like I'm not meant for this shit. For forming connections. For getting into people's lives.
Am I better on my own? I don't know. Because I want someone to live life with...
Am I better on my own? I don't know. Because I want someone to live life with...
Why don't you just tell me you hate how autistic I am already. Quit hiding behind your thinly veiled ableism.
January 17, 2026 at 6:37 AM
Why don't you just tell me you hate how autistic I am already. Quit hiding behind your thinly veiled ableism.
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I am the rotting pile of bones in the dungeon.
January 14, 2026 at 11:07 PM
I am the rotting pile of bones in the dungeon.
Breaking my skull against the wall to feel something again.
January 14, 2026 at 4:21 PM
Breaking my skull against the wall to feel something again.
Chickening out again.
Like a fucking loser.
Like a fucking loser.
January 14, 2026 at 3:59 PM
Chickening out again.
Like a fucking loser.
Like a fucking loser.
I think I'm going to throw up omg
January 14, 2026 at 3:29 PM
I think I'm going to throw up omg
Flirting with the deactivate button again
kms jfc
kms jfc
January 14, 2026 at 3:27 PM
Flirting with the deactivate button again
kms jfc
kms jfc
Just fucking
I don't even know anymore. God I want to just leave everything behind and start over.
I don't even know anymore. God I want to just leave everything behind and start over.
January 14, 2026 at 3:26 PM
Just fucking
I don't even know anymore. God I want to just leave everything behind and start over.
I don't even know anymore. God I want to just leave everything behind and start over.
I AM SUCH A FUCKING ASSHOLE FUCK
January 14, 2026 at 3:22 PM
I AM SUCH A FUCKING ASSHOLE FUCK
No seriously. Do I enjoy just getting to hurt people? Do I really like it? Do I crave the pain of putting people through torture for my own twisted benefit?
January 14, 2026 at 3:22 PM
No seriously. Do I enjoy just getting to hurt people? Do I really like it? Do I crave the pain of putting people through torture for my own twisted benefit?
Why am I like this.
January 14, 2026 at 3:20 PM
Why am I like this.
I think I love you
January 13, 2026 at 2:27 PM
I think I love you
I know I'm not a burden but still. I can't help but sit here and wonder how much people would hate me if they knew some of the shit that happens in my head.
January 12, 2026 at 1:02 PM
I know I'm not a burden but still. I can't help but sit here and wonder how much people would hate me if they knew some of the shit that happens in my head.
Just leave people alone. Just leave them alone. Just stay away from anyone so they don't have a reason to get hurt. All you do is cause pain.
January 12, 2026 at 12:14 PM
Just leave people alone. Just leave them alone. Just stay away from anyone so they don't have a reason to get hurt. All you do is cause pain.
*long drawn out sigh because I keep starting the same fucking cycles over and over again and I hate myself for it*
January 12, 2026 at 12:14 PM
*long drawn out sigh because I keep starting the same fucking cycles over and over again and I hate myself for it*
I just wanna be a beautiful butterfly but instead I'm sitting in this parking lot at night crying because my life is stagnant. I'm going nowhere and I hurt everyone in my life.
No one who gets close to me is safe.
No one who gets close to me is safe.
January 12, 2026 at 12:13 PM
I just wanna be a beautiful butterfly but instead I'm sitting in this parking lot at night crying because my life is stagnant. I'm going nowhere and I hurt everyone in my life.
No one who gets close to me is safe.
No one who gets close to me is safe.
Every day makes me want to end it even more. What's the point of self improvement if it comes at such a high mental cost?
January 12, 2026 at 12:12 PM
Every day makes me want to end it even more. What's the point of self improvement if it comes at such a high mental cost?
I really am just a piece of shit. 🥲
January 11, 2026 at 12:13 PM
I really am just a piece of shit. 🥲
There's 50 other people who love me for me but I'm letting you control my life. 😮💨
January 3, 2026 at 9:25 AM
There's 50 other people who love me for me but I'm letting you control my life. 😮💨