My introduction to Peak wasn't exactly enjoyable. I got it in an attempt to "keep up" with people and not make it too easy to get left behind, even though group games stress me out for a lot of reasons. The fact I wasn't good at it, it felt like the futile climbing was a metaphor for my life.

You spend a lot of time trying to hide your worst issues from just about anybody, but then you have to be honest about them to get benefits and suddenly you feel imposter syndrome

"I'm still in here", which is the feeling of being in the body of a person who seems to have given up and is settling into death, but still having this panicked spark of hope that's trapped inside and invisible to most

TW CW Suicidal ideation suicide
I have a lot of messy thoughts that aren't helpful but still there
you can't tell me there wouldn't be a sigh of relief, even if felt in shame

Do you have a person in your life who acts like they’ve been shut out of being involved in your life as if there was some huge conspiracy to limit them, and then when they do get involved, they leave you way worse than when they weren’t there?

Old vent post about how people handle mental health issues, especially how they think they do versus actually do.