self-perpetuating loneliness
August 3, 2025 at 5:46 AM
self-perpetuating loneliness
im going to die under the weight of my own loneliness and its all my fault
August 3, 2025 at 2:19 AM
im going to die under the weight of my own loneliness and its all my fault
i kinda forced the decision to delete my main on myself during a depressive episode and i still dont know how to feel about it. i hate that i do shit like this to myself bc i know the finality will hurt me. but idk. i kinda needed an out anyway. im probably gonna delete this one eventually as well
August 2, 2025 at 3:13 AM
i kinda forced the decision to delete my main on myself during a depressive episode and i still dont know how to feel about it. i hate that i do shit like this to myself bc i know the finality will hurt me. but idk. i kinda needed an out anyway. im probably gonna delete this one eventually as well
i think i should be allowed to want to die
August 1, 2025 at 2:36 AM
i think i should be allowed to want to die
i have $2, a quarter tank of gas, and zero delivery offers after 3 hours lol. fuck everything
August 1, 2025 at 2:15 AM
i have $2, a quarter tank of gas, and zero delivery offers after 3 hours lol. fuck everything
never let a useless person believe they're worth something, it just hurts in the long run
July 28, 2025 at 8:17 PM
never let a useless person believe they're worth something, it just hurts in the long run
point and laugh at me please! yes like you've all been doing already keep doing it it's all i'm good for
July 28, 2025 at 8:13 PM
point and laugh at me please! yes like you've all been doing already keep doing it it's all i'm good for
its fun to destroy yourself
July 28, 2025 at 7:46 PM
its fun to destroy yourself
Reposted by stripes
July 14, 2025 at 10:39 AM
yeah mom yelling at me whenever i forget to do things is really helpful, i know i told you my memory is getting progressively and substantially worse but obviously im making it up just like every other time ive told you something about me is different from what you want me to be
July 14, 2025 at 10:34 PM
yeah mom yelling at me whenever i forget to do things is really helpful, i know i told you my memory is getting progressively and substantially worse but obviously im making it up just like every other time ive told you something about me is different from what you want me to be
feeling a bit better but man the lowest points of hopelessness feel a bit too real for my liking
July 14, 2025 at 9:38 AM
feeling a bit better but man the lowest points of hopelessness feel a bit too real for my liking
i feel so hopeless and foggy now. i dont have the motivation to do anything 90% of the time, and for the 10% where i try to do things, they keep going wrong. i feel antisocial, like i can't trust my perceptions, like my mind is slowly dying. i'm lonely and scared. my body is broken
July 14, 2025 at 7:20 AM
i feel so hopeless and foggy now. i dont have the motivation to do anything 90% of the time, and for the 10% where i try to do things, they keep going wrong. i feel antisocial, like i can't trust my perceptions, like my mind is slowly dying. i'm lonely and scared. my body is broken
my mental decline feels inevitable atp. working memory just keeps getting worse and worse. guess thats what happens when u use blunt trauma to the forehead to self-harm a few times in a row
July 14, 2025 at 7:08 AM
my mental decline feels inevitable atp. working memory just keeps getting worse and worse. guess thats what happens when u use blunt trauma to the forehead to self-harm a few times in a row
im so sick of myself i could puke
July 14, 2025 at 7:00 AM
im so sick of myself i could puke
as someone who struggles with both depression and anger issues, i wonder how healthy it actually is to be like "at least i wasn't angry at (thing that might make me angry). just sad"
and "sad" results in me withdrawing from everything and hating myself but at least i didn't yell at anyone!
and "sad" results in me withdrawing from everything and hating myself but at least i didn't yell at anyone!
June 28, 2025 at 9:23 PM
as someone who struggles with both depression and anger issues, i wonder how healthy it actually is to be like "at least i wasn't angry at (thing that might make me angry). just sad"
and "sad" results in me withdrawing from everything and hating myself but at least i didn't yell at anyone!
and "sad" results in me withdrawing from everything and hating myself but at least i didn't yell at anyone!
uh so.... ngl i think the controller i've been trying out just has bad gyro and that was fucking me up, just feels really off
June 27, 2025 at 10:26 PM
uh so.... ngl i think the controller i've been trying out just has bad gyro and that was fucking me up, just feels really off
done trying with splatoon. idk how anyone thought i had any potential. idk how i can pick up such a good kit and still eat complete shit. i'm so fucking bad at the game dude
June 26, 2025 at 1:35 AM
done trying with splatoon. idk how anyone thought i had any potential. idk how i can pick up such a good kit and still eat complete shit. i'm so fucking bad at the game dude
ok today is being consistently terrible and i feel like im about to break down again haha
June 23, 2025 at 12:22 AM
ok today is being consistently terrible and i feel like im about to break down again haha
i feel like i speak very poetically when depressed sometimes and have recognized that it's kind of a coping mechanism, much in the same way actually writing a poem can be
conversely i feel my propensity for finding symbolism in everything causes some undue emotional distress for me, too
conversely i feel my propensity for finding symbolism in everything causes some undue emotional distress for me, too
June 22, 2025 at 4:25 PM
i feel like i speak very poetically when depressed sometimes and have recognized that it's kind of a coping mechanism, much in the same way actually writing a poem can be
conversely i feel my propensity for finding symbolism in everything causes some undue emotional distress for me, too
conversely i feel my propensity for finding symbolism in everything causes some undue emotional distress for me, too
i can't say it was all that helpful when i pulled myself out of my emotional breakdown to see the latest abominable thing this regime has done, tho, ngl
call it selfish but i'm already fighting wars inside my head and i truly don't have the mental fortitude to so much as think about all that rn
call it selfish but i'm already fighting wars inside my head and i truly don't have the mental fortitude to so much as think about all that rn
June 22, 2025 at 4:05 AM
i can't say it was all that helpful when i pulled myself out of my emotional breakdown to see the latest abominable thing this regime has done, tho, ngl
call it selfish but i'm already fighting wars inside my head and i truly don't have the mental fortitude to so much as think about all that rn
call it selfish but i'm already fighting wars inside my head and i truly don't have the mental fortitude to so much as think about all that rn
i wish writing original fiction wasn't so alienating. almost no one i vibe with cares about writing, or if they do it's fanfiction or has some visual art element. learning to draw genuinely does interest me, but more than half the reason i'm trying is to make comics, so ppl can "digest" my stories
June 15, 2025 at 10:22 PM
i wish writing original fiction wasn't so alienating. almost no one i vibe with cares about writing, or if they do it's fanfiction or has some visual art element. learning to draw genuinely does interest me, but more than half the reason i'm trying is to make comics, so ppl can "digest" my stories