Gosh you can really see my fucked pupil that doesn’t retract anymore.

Another gift from 2025 💃

One example of my wildly irresponsible spending 🤖

I was volunteered to do another Christmas quiz today so rehashed the 2022 version because I Still Can’t Be Fucked.

Oh yeah but I’d rather wait until I feel a bit less all consumed by it to make decisions on changing dosage, if that makes sense? Make sure it’s just depressed Sarah making the decision, not blinded-by-grief and depressed Sarah, because I don’t trust her (she changes her mind way too often) x

Thanks love. Yeah, that’s why I’m reluctant to discuss changing the dose until it’s a bit less raw as I can’t trust my mind/body through this. It has to be better. x

Unplanned heartbreak definitely wasn’t part of the plan so it’s maybe skewing the effects 🫠 If I were a praying sort I’d be tempted to give that a go but (un)fortunately I remain skeptical

Storm Bram had me hoping my pal would be taking shelter in my porch, but no sign of him. I hope he’s safe and getting lovely scritches

Yeah, I think the antidepressants are maybe helping with the endless weeping. Think I’ll need to wait another month to review the dosage with the doctor given Everything 😬 I hear ya, big time. It’s been one thing after another this year. Here’s hoping 2026 is less of a prick x

Ha! Thanks. I’ve had a shower so I smell better. I don’t feel super great. I’m constantly anxious which is exhausting. Crying less, which is maybe good? How are you doing? x

Thanks pal. Thankfully the smell was localised to my top which was easy enough to resolve. x

He was there when I checked this evening. I cried while giving him a cuddle. I’m finding life quite hard. And now I smell because he is a stink monster.

Done groceries, got batteries in my watches that have been dead for YEARS and next I’ll go visit my parents. So productive.

I did donate though. I’m not a monster.