nearly at the finish line. I knew today would be hard. it's ok. less than 12 hours and the hard stuff will be done. and I can go back if I need to to get anything I left behind.
November 26, 2025 at 6:22 AM
nearly at the finish line. I knew today would be hard. it's ok. less than 12 hours and the hard stuff will be done. and I can go back if I need to to get anything I left behind.
so a is doing half the job for b. like... how can they not feel guilty. it's unfair. but I'm not going to argue with it. if a wants to be a martyr then so be it. I have learnt that lesson from my mother. I've eaten dinner (lunch) so now I just need to lock in and finish packing. it doesn't have to
November 25, 2025 at 8:13 PM
so a is doing half the job for b. like... how can they not feel guilty. it's unfair. but I'm not going to argue with it. if a wants to be a martyr then so be it. I have learnt that lesson from my mother. I've eaten dinner (lunch) so now I just need to lock in and finish packing. it doesn't have to
I am concerned b is not pulling their weight for cleaning end of year tenancy. they supposedly finished the bathroom but the shower doors aren't done, most tiles are still dirty and the base of the loo isn't clean. I'm pretty sure they used a normal cloth on the toilet and put it to wash... like
November 25, 2025 at 5:52 AM
I am concerned b is not pulling their weight for cleaning end of year tenancy. they supposedly finished the bathroom but the shower doors aren't done, most tiles are still dirty and the base of the loo isn't clean. I'm pretty sure they used a normal cloth on the toilet and put it to wash... like
I almost cried earlier thinking he was rejecting me and now today he is messaging me a hug emote lol I am pathetic! but also very mentally ill. but I won't beat myself up too bad cos im so stressed at the moment. but also this tiktok tarot account is feeding me hopecore and idk how to feel shout it
November 25, 2025 at 4:33 AM
I almost cried earlier thinking he was rejecting me and now today he is messaging me a hug emote lol I am pathetic! but also very mentally ill. but I won't beat myself up too bad cos im so stressed at the moment. but also this tiktok tarot account is feeding me hopecore and idk how to feel shout it
crazy what I will cry over
November 24, 2025 at 8:46 PM
crazy what I will cry over
I am making myself miserable thinking about him. there's not even anything to think about. he's not that interesting. he's often shit at replying, just saying one word. am I really this miserable to be making a thing out of it? it feels so pathetic. I don't want to be this version of myself.
November 24, 2025 at 5:50 PM
I am making myself miserable thinking about him. there's not even anything to think about. he's not that interesting. he's often shit at replying, just saying one word. am I really this miserable to be making a thing out of it? it feels so pathetic. I don't want to be this version of myself.
all I can think about is him lol shoot me in the head
November 24, 2025 at 2:54 PM
all I can think about is him lol shoot me in the head
I'm ngl I keep replaying how a flat out refused to "touch wood" for me when talking about d*ing cos I get so freaked out about it. like yes I know it's illogical, but you have empathy and it doesn't take a second so just be kind and reasonable. and then I feel crazy for thinking that. like you know
November 24, 2025 at 6:56 AM
I'm ngl I keep replaying how a flat out refused to "touch wood" for me when talking about d*ing cos I get so freaked out about it. like yes I know it's illogical, but you have empathy and it doesn't take a second so just be kind and reasonable. and then I feel crazy for thinking that. like you know
I fell asleep earlier at like 7am last night. I woke at 12 which was good. we managed to move the furniture fairly easily. after that we were knackered and watched some TV with b. I ordered burger king and got a a drink. they have their own softserve now which was nice. and these weird cheesecake
November 23, 2025 at 10:48 PM
I fell asleep earlier at like 7am last night. I woke at 12 which was good. we managed to move the furniture fairly easily. after that we were knackered and watched some TV with b. I ordered burger king and got a a drink. they have their own softserve now which was nice. and these weird cheesecake
I packed three boxes today and did some reshuffling of the weird corner in my room. pretty unproductive but I'm slightly proud. someone set off fireworks at almost 6am. this neighbourhood is so weird. it's chucking it down and I wonder if it will be as bad when we visit tomorrow. I don't want to go.
November 23, 2025 at 6:02 AM
I packed three boxes today and did some reshuffling of the weird corner in my room. pretty unproductive but I'm slightly proud. someone set off fireworks at almost 6am. this neighbourhood is so weird. it's chucking it down and I wonder if it will be as bad when we visit tomorrow. I don't want to go.
sometimes you just have to sit back and think about the fact that nat was literally my age talking to an 18 year old. what the fuck. I hate how confused it makes me still. nonce.
November 23, 2025 at 5:55 AM
sometimes you just have to sit back and think about the fact that nat was literally my age talking to an 18 year old. what the fuck. I hate how confused it makes me still. nonce.
I haven't been sleeping properly for a couple weeks now. two days in a row I fell asleep on my bed with the lights on in the middle of the "day." I am nocturnal and my head is a mess. like it hurts and I don't want to do anything not even sleep. I need help. b did end up ditching me without saying
November 21, 2025 at 11:43 PM
I haven't been sleeping properly for a couple weeks now. two days in a row I fell asleep on my bed with the lights on in the middle of the "day." I am nocturnal and my head is a mess. like it hurts and I don't want to do anything not even sleep. I need help. b did end up ditching me without saying
sometimes I wish physically banging my head could remove a thought
November 20, 2025 at 11:49 PM
sometimes I wish physically banging my head could remove a thought
and suddenly I have made a burrow underneath his tree, and I will rest here until his roots push me out. somewhere safe with the warmth of company, no matter how different we are. I feel unsatidfied, but it's better than nothing.
November 20, 2025 at 7:14 AM
and suddenly I have made a burrow underneath his tree, and I will rest here until his roots push me out. somewhere safe with the warmth of company, no matter how different we are. I feel unsatidfied, but it's better than nothing.
need a hug and to be cherished cos wtf.
November 19, 2025 at 6:11 AM
need a hug and to be cherished cos wtf.
this cunt is like trying to say it's fine just because he feels fine. ugh why do I bother? why do I bother caring? boring. why are the people that are most fun to play video games with so emotionally immature. it's so boring. I just wanna hang out, leave me alone with your misinterpretations
November 16, 2025 at 6:09 PM
this cunt is like trying to say it's fine just because he feels fine. ugh why do I bother? why do I bother caring? boring. why are the people that are most fun to play video games with so emotionally immature. it's so boring. I just wanna hang out, leave me alone with your misinterpretations
I didn't let missing out on the hang out ruin my entire day, I still hung out in person and online which is good of me. I didn't just submit to feeling sorry for myself. and I packed my first moving box today. good job ayme lol I guess I'll spell it like that now
November 16, 2025 at 7:28 AM
I didn't let missing out on the hang out ruin my entire day, I still hung out in person and online which is good of me. I didn't just submit to feeling sorry for myself. and I packed my first moving box today. good job ayme lol I guess I'll spell it like that now
love you *my hope you get good sleep and feel rested. you have had a really rough time this week and it's okay to relax now and let your body recover. take some deep breaths and try rest. you are safe and warm in bed now. sweet dreams.
November 15, 2025 at 9:11 AM
love you *my hope you get good sleep and feel rested. you have had a really rough time this week and it's okay to relax now and let your body recover. take some deep breaths and try rest. you are safe and warm in bed now. sweet dreams.
crying again lol. I've just been on social media and trying to research how to move this stupid wardrobe. it feels awful trying to ask favours. like they're my friends, why am I so scared? but I am. I'm terrified and don't want to piss them off.
November 15, 2025 at 4:29 AM
crying again lol. I've just been on social media and trying to research how to move this stupid wardrobe. it feels awful trying to ask favours. like they're my friends, why am I so scared? but I am. I'm terrified and don't want to piss them off.
I just want to feel safe and wrapped up in someone's arms. It feels so sad knowing I won't have that anytime soon. I wish I was living. My head has hurt almost all day. I hope tomorrow is a nice break. I hope I enjoy it.
November 15, 2025 at 2:57 AM
I just want to feel safe and wrapped up in someone's arms. It feels so sad knowing I won't have that anytime soon. I wish I was living. My head has hurt almost all day. I hope tomorrow is a nice break. I hope I enjoy it.
I just need a long hug and someone to cry to. I don't feel like I can vent to anyone properly and actually feel heard. I could maybe do it with Andreas but I have yet to reply to him and whatever he was venting to me about. I still feel like most of the burden is on me. I'm ngl, I know no one has
November 15, 2025 at 1:19 AM
I just need a long hug and someone to cry to. I don't feel like I can vent to anyone properly and actually feel heard. I could maybe do it with Andreas but I have yet to reply to him and whatever he was venting to me about. I still feel like most of the burden is on me. I'm ngl, I know no one has
I am having such a hard time right now with stress and worry about this house and how it will be with just a around and like today I asked if she wanted to order food and she was like nty and I'm gonna hang out alone and it's like... ok I was just asking if you want food. and she does that to me a
November 12, 2025 at 7:25 AM
I am having such a hard time right now with stress and worry about this house and how it will be with just a around and like today I asked if she wanted to order food and she was like nty and I'm gonna hang out alone and it's like... ok I was just asking if you want food. and she does that to me a
today was stupid but I finally repotted my plants and cleaned up after that, washed bedding, socialised in the lounge twice, cycled twice, socialised online 3 times, took two bins out and bought myself a piece of furniture I've always wanted so it was a productive day. unfortunately it's almost
November 9, 2025 at 8:36 AM
today was stupid but I finally repotted my plants and cleaned up after that, washed bedding, socialised in the lounge twice, cycled twice, socialised online 3 times, took two bins out and bought myself a piece of furniture I've always wanted so it was a productive day. unfortunately it's almost
why is it normal for people to not check in with you when you cancel on them and say you're feeling miserable. I cry about this every month.
November 6, 2025 at 11:16 PM
why is it normal for people to not check in with you when you cancel on them and say you're feeling miserable. I cry about this every month.
I think it's like every pms I get like this and every time I feel disappointed by my friends but I have no leg to stand on to do anything about it. Something tells me this sadness will always bother me at some level. It's not nice. k always wonder what the right buttons to press would be in
November 6, 2025 at 8:55 PM
I think it's like every pms I get like this and every time I feel disappointed by my friends but I have no leg to stand on to do anything about it. Something tells me this sadness will always bother me at some level. It's not nice. k always wonder what the right buttons to press would be in