The worst is that I think I have "chaser face". IYKYK. How horrible.
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You should see my Kubrick Stare; I look like Killer BOB or Vigo the Carpathian. 😔
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Of course I'm data sciencing the the sh!t out of my test results. I can't count on my prescribing doctor to check on how I'm doing — they've never even asked to see my test results.

(Incidentally, if anyone wants the Python script I used for the data viz, hit me up.)
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Here's what I'm currently taking:

Weekly:
15mg estradiol enantate (EEn) subQ

Daily:
50mg bicalutamide
200mg progesterone (rectal)
5mg finasteride
30mg citalopram
150μg levothyroxine (for hypothyroidism)
114mg Fe
20mg Zn
100μg Se
10mg folic acid
900μg biotin (B7)
100μg B12
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I came out as trans on Twitter a little over 3 years ago. I have rarely posted selfies anywhere. When I have, they have always been carefully curated, I'm wearing a full face of makeup, and the lighting is good. None of you knows what I really look like. I hate what I see.
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I know I shouldn't compare myself to others, but I see other girls who started transitioning around the same time as me, and they're so pretty. I see myself, and I ask, "why not me too?" It feels so unfair. I feel cursed. I cry myself to sleep every night. It hurts so much.
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When I came out to my previous psychiatrist, she asked me if I was going to get ThE SuRgErY, then refused to see me again.

There's no IRL trans community here in Hungary; everyone has either left, or is leaving soon, and those staying are mostly transmeds and pick-me's.
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I don't think I can bear another few decades living like this, passively waiting for the end. Either my transition is successful — and the signs have not been promising so far — or I check out early. I'd prefer the former, but I need something to happen — soon.
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