Andi 🏳⚧ (on 🐦🧵🦣ⓣ)
@propertyofmycat.bsky.social
Same username everywhere (🐦🧵🦣ⓣ).
⚧♀️ (they/she)
Asexual ♣️⚢
https://linktr.ee/propertyofmycat
I follow a lot of accounts here 'cos many belong to people I follow on Twitter but are inactive (waiting for Twitter to die?) and don't post here yet!
⚧♀️ (they/she)
Asexual ♣️⚢
https://linktr.ee/propertyofmycat
I follow a lot of accounts here 'cos many belong to people I follow on Twitter but are inactive (waiting for Twitter to die?) and don't post here yet!
My expectations for what HRT could achieve for me were always very low. I knew that I'd likely need surgeries to do the heavy lifting. Even so, I'd secretly hoped that I'd get results comparable to those I saw on social media. My disappointment has been crushing. 😞
September 27, 2024 at 3:30 PM
My expectations for what HRT could achieve for me were always very low. I knew that I'd likely need surgeries to do the heavy lifting. Even so, I'd secretly hoped that I'd get results comparable to those I saw on social media. My disappointment has been crushing. 😞
These are my feet. I was born with a club foot. I can walk (with a limp) but the many surgeries to correct my deformity stunted the growth of my right foot and leg. I can't find nice shoes in a EU48/UK12/US15 and my tendons are too short to wear heels. No stilettos for me ☹️
September 27, 2024 at 3:23 PM
These are my feet. I was born with a club foot. I can walk (with a limp) but the many surgeries to correct my deformity stunted the growth of my right foot and leg. I can't find nice shoes in a EU48/UK12/US15 and my tendons are too short to wear heels. No stilettos for me ☹️
This is my body after more than 2 years on HRT. I can't stand straight 'cos my right leg is 3.5cm (1⅓ inch) shorter than my left. I have no waist and no hips, and I have a hunched back from bad posture and sitting in front of a computer screen for years.
September 27, 2024 at 3:11 PM
This is my body after more than 2 years on HRT. I can't stand straight 'cos my right leg is 3.5cm (1⅓ inch) shorter than my left. I have no waist and no hips, and I have a hunched back from bad posture and sitting in front of a computer screen for years.
Face reveal. This is my face now, after 2 years, 2 months and 25 days of HRT. No makeup or filters. Neutral facial expression. No spectacles. I see an old, ugly, worn-out, broken man, kinda scary-looking. 😞
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September 27, 2024 at 3:02 PM
Face reveal. This is my face now, after 2 years, 2 months and 25 days of HRT. No makeup or filters. Neutral facial expression. No spectacles. I see an old, ugly, worn-out, broken man, kinda scary-looking. 😞
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Last time I posted selfies, they were 2 and a half years old, and taken before I started HRT. Some people said I'm pretty. But I feel ugly and mannish.
I'm considering posting no-makeup selfies so you can see what I see, but I fear you will be disappointed and unfollow me then.
I'm considering posting no-makeup selfies so you can see what I see, but I fear you will be disappointed and unfollow me then.
September 27, 2024 at 2:32 PM
Last time I posted selfies, they were 2 and a half years old, and taken before I started HRT. Some people said I'm pretty. But I feel ugly and mannish.
I'm considering posting no-makeup selfies so you can see what I see, but I fear you will be disappointed and unfollow me then.
I'm considering posting no-makeup selfies so you can see what I see, but I fear you will be disappointed and unfollow me then.
Some people suggested that my doctor might be underdosing me. Here's a complete history of my levels since I started HRT. I do DIY in addition to what my doctor prescribes me, so I'm not constrained by my prescription.
Complete list of what I'm taking in next post ⤵️
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Complete list of what I'm taking in next post ⤵️
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September 27, 2024 at 2:01 PM
Some people suggested that my doctor might be underdosing me. Here's a complete history of my levels since I started HRT. I do DIY in addition to what my doctor prescribes me, so I'm not constrained by my prescription.
Complete list of what I'm taking in next post ⤵️
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Complete list of what I'm taking in next post ⤵️
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Maybe I'm just annoying and unlikeable? Maybe most of my followers have me muted?
September 27, 2024 at 1:00 PM
Maybe I'm just annoying and unlikeable? Maybe most of my followers have me muted?
I feel so alone. Transitioning is the hardest thing I've ever attempted, and I have no support IRL.
I've been in therapy for over a decade. My current therapist is well-meaning, but doesn't understand that positive affirmations spoken into a mirror can't cure dysphoria.
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I've been in therapy for over a decade. My current therapist is well-meaning, but doesn't understand that positive affirmations spoken into a mirror can't cure dysphoria.
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September 27, 2024 at 12:00 PM
I feel so alone. Transitioning is the hardest thing I've ever attempted, and I have no support IRL.
I've been in therapy for over a decade. My current therapist is well-meaning, but doesn't understand that positive affirmations spoken into a mirror can't cure dysphoria.
1/2
I've been in therapy for over a decade. My current therapist is well-meaning, but doesn't understand that positive affirmations spoken into a mirror can't cure dysphoria.
1/2
Bridge. At the far end there's usually concrete at the bottom, not water. I spent a lot of time ruminating about this place last week. However, the Danube flooded and the police closed off the bridge. Also, there would have been too many people around doing disaster tourism.
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September 27, 2024 at 10:56 AM
Bridge. At the far end there's usually concrete at the bottom, not water. I spent a lot of time ruminating about this place last week. However, the Danube flooded and the police closed off the bridge. Also, there would have been too many people around doing disaster tourism.
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Is it weird that I want to buy makeup but I haven't actually worn any for the last 2 years and I have a inexplicable psychological block about wearing makeup?
I saw this metallic hot Barbie pink lipstick today and I just had to have it! 🥺🫦
Why am I like this?!
I saw this metallic hot Barbie pink lipstick today and I just had to have it! 🥺🫦
Why am I like this?!
September 16, 2024 at 9:43 PM
Is it weird that I want to buy makeup but I haven't actually worn any for the last 2 years and I have a inexplicable psychological block about wearing makeup?
I saw this metallic hot Barbie pink lipstick today and I just had to have it! 🥺🫦
Why am I like this?!
I saw this metallic hot Barbie pink lipstick today and I just had to have it! 🥺🫦
Why am I like this?!
𖤐 𝕳𝖊𝖑𝖑𝖔 𝕰𝖀 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖀𝕶 𝖌𝖔𝖙𝖍𝖘! 𖤐
Where the heck can I get a good-quality BLACK lipstick? 💄🖤
I was recommended NYX Lip Lingerie XXL Matte Liquid Lipstick - Naughty Noir but I can't find it in the EU or UK. 😟
Can anyone recommend a good alternative?
Where the heck can I get a good-quality BLACK lipstick? 💄🖤
I was recommended NYX Lip Lingerie XXL Matte Liquid Lipstick - Naughty Noir but I can't find it in the EU or UK. 😟
Can anyone recommend a good alternative?
September 16, 2024 at 5:40 PM
𖤐 𝕳𝖊𝖑𝖑𝖔 𝕰𝖀 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖀𝕶 𝖌𝖔𝖙𝖍𝖘! 𖤐
Where the heck can I get a good-quality BLACK lipstick? 💄🖤
I was recommended NYX Lip Lingerie XXL Matte Liquid Lipstick - Naughty Noir but I can't find it in the EU or UK. 😟
Can anyone recommend a good alternative?
Where the heck can I get a good-quality BLACK lipstick? 💄🖤
I was recommended NYX Lip Lingerie XXL Matte Liquid Lipstick - Naughty Noir but I can't find it in the EU or UK. 😟
Can anyone recommend a good alternative?
Promoting the trans agenda at IKEA! 🏳⚧
I left messages in the hope that a sibling, perhaps shopping for a blåhaj, will see them. I forgot to take a photo of the first one, went back, and someone had added a remark in the 20 seconds I was away! I hope I had the last word.
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I left messages in the hope that a sibling, perhaps shopping for a blåhaj, will see them. I forgot to take a photo of the first one, went back, and someone had added a remark in the 20 seconds I was away! I hope I had the last word.
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September 15, 2024 at 8:56 PM
Promoting the trans agenda at IKEA! 🏳⚧
I left messages in the hope that a sibling, perhaps shopping for a blåhaj, will see them. I forgot to take a photo of the first one, went back, and someone had added a remark in the 20 seconds I was away! I hope I had the last word.
1/2
I left messages in the hope that a sibling, perhaps shopping for a blåhaj, will see them. I forgot to take a photo of the first one, went back, and someone had added a remark in the 20 seconds I was away! I hope I had the last word.
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I've built walls within my mind beyond which I hide all the uncomfortable feelings and thoughts that I'm afraid to confront. But these walls don't keep me safe; they keep me trapped. I want to be free! I want to unashamedly be me!
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September 12, 2024 at 1:55 PM
I've built walls within my mind beyond which I hide all the uncomfortable feelings and thoughts that I'm afraid to confront. But these walls don't keep me safe; they keep me trapped. I want to be free! I want to unashamedly be me!
10/10
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• How do I kill my brain worms?
• How do I unlearn that crossdressing, gender nonconformity and kinks are shameful and disgusting?
• How do I unlearn that sexuality is shameful?
• How do I deal with shame, abandonment trauma and rejection sensitivity dysphoria?
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• How do I unlearn that crossdressing, gender nonconformity and kinks are shameful and disgusting?
• How do I unlearn that sexuality is shameful?
• How do I deal with shame, abandonment trauma and rejection sensitivity dysphoria?
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September 12, 2024 at 1:55 PM
• How do I kill my brain worms?
• How do I unlearn that crossdressing, gender nonconformity and kinks are shameful and disgusting?
• How do I unlearn that sexuality is shameful?
• How do I deal with shame, abandonment trauma and rejection sensitivity dysphoria?
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• How do I unlearn that crossdressing, gender nonconformity and kinks are shameful and disgusting?
• How do I unlearn that sexuality is shameful?
• How do I deal with shame, abandonment trauma and rejection sensitivity dysphoria?
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During my early teens, I thought my transness was just a fetish. And there's nothing wrong with having a kink. But later I read that "transvestic fetishism" is a paraphilia; a mental disorder. That made me feel like a disgusting deviant; a pervert. This was the ur-wound.
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September 12, 2024 at 1:55 PM
During my early teens, I thought my transness was just a fetish. And there's nothing wrong with having a kink. But later I read that "transvestic fetishism" is a paraphilia; a mental disorder. That made me feel like a disgusting deviant; a pervert. This was the ur-wound.
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I attribute my fears and self-judgements to internalised transphobia, but I'm not transphobic towards others. I'm not afraid of being trans: I'm afraid of being not trans enough! I'm afraid that I don't have the right to do anything to alleviate my dysphoria.
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September 12, 2024 at 1:55 PM
I attribute my fears and self-judgements to internalised transphobia, but I'm not transphobic towards others. I'm not afraid of being trans: I'm afraid of being not trans enough! I'm afraid that I don't have the right to do anything to alleviate my dysphoria.
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Yes, I'm trans, but somehow I feel I'm maybe not "trans enough" to socially transition or even to experiment with female presentation at home. I'm terrified of feeling like I'm indulging in a fetish under the guise of being trans, if I'm not trans enough to transition.
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September 12, 2024 at 1:55 PM
Yes, I'm trans, but somehow I feel I'm maybe not "trans enough" to socially transition or even to experiment with female presentation at home. I'm terrified of feeling like I'm indulging in a fetish under the guise of being trans, if I'm not trans enough to transition.
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ICYMI:
A bunch of things crystalised in therapy yesterday: my fears about social transition and experimenting with feminine presentation are mostly fears of feeling shame and disgust, which are manifestations of internalised transphobia. How do I kill the brain worms?
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A bunch of things crystalised in therapy yesterday: my fears about social transition and experimenting with feminine presentation are mostly fears of feeling shame and disgust, which are manifestations of internalised transphobia. How do I kill the brain worms?
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September 12, 2024 at 1:54 PM
ICYMI:
A bunch of things crystalised in therapy yesterday: my fears about social transition and experimenting with feminine presentation are mostly fears of feeling shame and disgust, which are manifestations of internalised transphobia. How do I kill the brain worms?
1/10
A bunch of things crystalised in therapy yesterday: my fears about social transition and experimenting with feminine presentation are mostly fears of feeling shame and disgust, which are manifestations of internalised transphobia. How do I kill the brain worms?
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CW: 9/11
I don't like memes and jokes about 9/11. I feel they're in extremely bad taste. I'm talking about the attacks themselves, not the response.
My dad's cousins didn't get out in time. I didn't know them well, but they were good people.
I don't like memes and jokes about 9/11. I feel they're in extremely bad taste. I'm talking about the attacks themselves, not the response.
My dad's cousins didn't get out in time. I didn't know them well, but they were good people.
September 10, 2024 at 12:46 PM
CW: 9/11
I don't like memes and jokes about 9/11. I feel they're in extremely bad taste. I'm talking about the attacks themselves, not the response.
My dad's cousins didn't get out in time. I didn't know them well, but they were good people.
I don't like memes and jokes about 9/11. I feel they're in extremely bad taste. I'm talking about the attacks themselves, not the response.
My dad's cousins didn't get out in time. I didn't know them well, but they were good people.
Pomi sleeping.
September 6, 2024 at 6:03 PM
Pomi sleeping.
This is Pomi, the cat in my pfp, right now. She's asleep on my bed next to me right now
September 6, 2024 at 5:59 PM
This is Pomi, the cat in my pfp, right now. She's asleep on my bed next to me right now
TIL that I haven't taken a selfie since January 2022, 6 months before I started HRT, so almost nobody knows what I look like after more than 2 years on hormones. This was me 2 years and 8 months ago, pre-HRT.
September 6, 2024 at 1:57 PM
TIL that I haven't taken a selfie since January 2022, 6 months before I started HRT, so almost nobody knows what I look like after more than 2 years on hormones. This was me 2 years and 8 months ago, pre-HRT.
I broke down and cried in therapy today 'cos I don't know how to move past my own fears, shame, and internalised transphobia, and start living my life. Boymode is killing me. Why am I like this? 😭
September 3, 2024 at 10:04 PM
I broke down and cried in therapy today 'cos I don't know how to move past my own fears, shame, and internalised transphobia, and start living my life. Boymode is killing me. Why am I like this? 😭
He says he's a free speech absolutist.
August 29, 2024 at 2:36 PM
He says he's a free speech absolutist.