Another reason why I hope I have enough karmic points to get reborn as a house cat. Diva.

Oh! I did finish a 992-piece puzzle (there were 8 pieces missing out of the 1000 piece puzzle) in the week of vacation time.

And I have key and responsible party privileges at my home bar because I clean the place and am a trusted employee, so of course when the boss can’t supervise I get called in for an internationally-known band. Wild. My life is wild.

So it’s refreshing to be at my other job and be able to just answer transphobes however the hell I want. Not sure it’s “clap back” level of sniping but I definitely kept them confused and get maybe they won’t ask strangers what’s in their pants ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

This is fresh off hearing second-hand that an owner of a venue that I perform at wants me to keep performing at his venue but only if I stop wearing the mustache.

They were “just curious as to what my sex was.” I laughed and told them that was a great question and to see if they could figure it out by the end of the show.

If I continue with this pace and I have about the same amount of albums in each letter, it’ll take me over two years to finish this listening project. I’ll check back in when I finish the Bs

My favorite new to me album was “All Hands on the Bad One (Remastered)” by Sleater-Kinney.

After 42 days I have listened to all of the albums starting with a number or with an A. There were 3 albums each by Prince, Against Me!, and Ryan Adams; 3 was the largest number of albums by the same artist in the A block. I had listened to 4 albums from this block in their entirety before I started

So yeah. It’s taken a while to get to this mindset. Say no to people without explaining yourself. If they need the explanation they will ask for it. You don’t need to justify your nos for people to accept them.

Thus far, every time I’ve said “I’m not available, sorry :(“ that’s been the end of it. My no is accepted and I move on to other shit. I have a fully clean bed- mattress topper, sheets, blanket, duvet cover, pillows- for the first time in ages because I haven’t had to do only one piece when I’m able

Everyone I work with is a responsible adult. They can take a no. They can take an “I’m not able/I’m not available.” I don’t need to preemptively explain myself. If they want an explanation, they can ask me with their own mouths. If they have a problem with my reasoning, we can talk about it then.

I get so anxious feeling like if I can’t work I’m letting people down so I need to give a good reason for not working.
But if I’m looking out for myself, I need to do that without feeling bad about it. I’m allowed to say no to work just because I don’t feel like it.

Or having to tell my manager I can’t make this food service shift with a good reason or they won’t accept it. I’ve had to call my coworkers to cover a shift when I was too sick to work (and too sick to be responsible for my own replacement tbh)