it’s so ANNOYING. i don’t understand how that hasn’t been fixed yet!

part of my frustration lies in the fact that my new insurance means my meds are cheaper copays they’re only cheaper at certain location. plus i have a limited number of pharmacies that are in network for me to even get my meds. insurance literally doesn’t include all locations of the big chain ones

i will say that younger me deserves a fucking medal for somehow surviving by sheer force of will til 31 w/o a diagnosis and w/o meds. i also want to cry & hug her cuz no wonder felt younger!me felt i wanted to ☠️ back then. i want to cry after not having meds for just under 2 weeks this feeling SUCKS

i hate remembering how this felt. how it feels like my own brain is out of my control and i’m just constantly exhausted from working so hard to hide it from “adults” and working so hard to be functional.

i’m starting to lose interest/energy to even play video games or watch tv. over the weekend i just turned everything off at one point and left my brain and my weekends are just sleeping & resting which is good, because i need that but I. WANT. TO. DO. THINGS. I WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE.

we told you that it was never going to stop with People of Color. never. they will move the goalpost on a whim because they can because when they have the power to do anything they want to do- they will use it. just to remind ppl they can & will destroy lives. they believe it’s their right

at this rate, my anxiety is expecting even more restrictions to media communications, how the internet works & freedom of 🗣️ by the end of the year. the victim can’t call for help if their call won’t connect.

they have been bold about their ambitions for years now before that man ever came to power. they wanted the right to decide who was allowed in and who was allowed out. things get a lot more aggressive & violent regardless but especially when/if there are no witnesses