Obinya
@obinyachizoret.bsky.social
A man living in this fantasy of life, death & dreams. The heart and mind of this shadowy man at all occasions is to me most familiar yet is neither I nor other.
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What is the Ultimate Illusion for me today—
We are still connected.
True or False
where Memories and Hope meet
J… just say hi to m… to Me
We are still connected.
True or False
where Memories and Hope meet
J… just say hi to m… to Me
What is the Ultimate Illusion for me today—
We are still connected.
True or False
where Memories and Hope meet
J… just say hi to m… to Me
We are still connected.
True or False
where Memories and Hope meet
J… just say hi to m… to Me
January 10, 2026 at 12:28 AM
What is the Ultimate Illusion for me today—
We are still connected.
True or False
where Memories and Hope meet
J… just say hi to m… to Me
We are still connected.
True or False
where Memories and Hope meet
J… just say hi to m… to Me
we were F-ing Fine
we said I Love You
i elaborated on my feelings and she did hers
it was established then, it was not the time
i thought to distance myself from a little pain
she thought to comfort
i still felt bad about how she felt about herself
like maybe a day
then
we continued to say Love
we said I Love You
i elaborated on my feelings and she did hers
it was established then, it was not the time
i thought to distance myself from a little pain
she thought to comfort
i still felt bad about how she felt about herself
like maybe a day
then
we continued to say Love
January 10, 2026 at 12:25 AM
we were F-ing Fine
we said I Love You
i elaborated on my feelings and she did hers
it was established then, it was not the time
i thought to distance myself from a little pain
she thought to comfort
i still felt bad about how she felt about herself
like maybe a day
then
we continued to say Love
we said I Love You
i elaborated on my feelings and she did hers
it was established then, it was not the time
i thought to distance myself from a little pain
she thought to comfort
i still felt bad about how she felt about herself
like maybe a day
then
we continued to say Love
Reposted by Obinya
Reposted by Obinya
Longing like this…
I get why I’m doing it, sorta.
But it can’t be all of me anymore, it mustn’t.
I feel like I could “long” and ruminate indefinitely.
I’m missing something!
Hope and its contradictions.
What I want isn’t. Maybe it isn’t yet or just won’t be.
If I’m True, I must do…
with Justice
I get why I’m doing it, sorta.
But it can’t be all of me anymore, it mustn’t.
I feel like I could “long” and ruminate indefinitely.
I’m missing something!
Hope and its contradictions.
What I want isn’t. Maybe it isn’t yet or just won’t be.
If I’m True, I must do…
with Justice
January 8, 2026 at 11:54 PM
Longing like this…
I get why I’m doing it, sorta.
But it can’t be all of me anymore, it mustn’t.
I feel like I could “long” and ruminate indefinitely.
I’m missing something!
Hope and its contradictions.
What I want isn’t. Maybe it isn’t yet or just won’t be.
If I’m True, I must do…
with Justice
I get why I’m doing it, sorta.
But it can’t be all of me anymore, it mustn’t.
I feel like I could “long” and ruminate indefinitely.
I’m missing something!
Hope and its contradictions.
What I want isn’t. Maybe it isn’t yet or just won’t be.
If I’m True, I must do…
with Justice
It’s not my decision.
It’s not my choice.
It’s not my responsibility….?
It’s not my fault?!
…
…
…
Eh, still doesn’t feel like that…
It’s not my choice.
It’s not my responsibility….?
It’s not my fault?!
…
…
…
Eh, still doesn’t feel like that…
January 8, 2026 at 5:40 PM
It’s not my decision.
It’s not my choice.
It’s not my responsibility….?
It’s not my fault?!
…
…
…
Eh, still doesn’t feel like that…
It’s not my choice.
It’s not my responsibility….?
It’s not my fault?!
…
…
…
Eh, still doesn’t feel like that…
I legit Hate that someone hurt someone I care about before I met them.
The thought I could just begin to describe a situation I’m in and the listener asks, “trauma?”
I feel like I’m failing humanity by not being in a role to do something for these people I love!
The thought I could just begin to describe a situation I’m in and the listener asks, “trauma?”
I feel like I’m failing humanity by not being in a role to do something for these people I love!
January 6, 2026 at 5:14 PM
I legit Hate that someone hurt someone I care about before I met them.
The thought I could just begin to describe a situation I’m in and the listener asks, “trauma?”
I feel like I’m failing humanity by not being in a role to do something for these people I love!
The thought I could just begin to describe a situation I’m in and the listener asks, “trauma?”
I feel like I’m failing humanity by not being in a role to do something for these people I love!
Reposted by Obinya
When I wield the flaming sword of justice
I just burn myself.
Forever self-righteous.
I almost don’t even care.
Let me clear away your shadows.
It’s my Fate. My Duty. My Role.
Stay free. I’ll burn.
Don’t feign sympathy.
Damn. This sucks.
Lightning Blade looks more cool…
Blood
Fallen
Down my back
I just burn myself.
Forever self-righteous.
I almost don’t even care.
Let me clear away your shadows.
It’s my Fate. My Duty. My Role.
Stay free. I’ll burn.
Don’t feign sympathy.
Damn. This sucks.
Lightning Blade looks more cool…
Blood
Fallen
Down my back
January 6, 2026 at 1:42 AM
When I wield the flaming sword of justice
I just burn myself.
Forever self-righteous.
I almost don’t even care.
Let me clear away your shadows.
It’s my Fate. My Duty. My Role.
Stay free. I’ll burn.
Don’t feign sympathy.
Damn. This sucks.
Lightning Blade looks more cool…
Blood
Fallen
Down my back
I just burn myself.
Forever self-righteous.
I almost don’t even care.
Let me clear away your shadows.
It’s my Fate. My Duty. My Role.
Stay free. I’ll burn.
Don’t feign sympathy.
Damn. This sucks.
Lightning Blade looks more cool…
Blood
Fallen
Down my back
Can’t go backwards.
Gotta accept myself.
Gotta ask for help.
I love them all.
Gotta accept myself.
Gotta ask for help.
I love them all.
January 4, 2026 at 12:58 PM
Can’t go backwards.
Gotta accept myself.
Gotta ask for help.
I love them all.
Gotta accept myself.
Gotta ask for help.
I love them all.
They’re so angry. So angry with me. They don’t even realize I don’t have the same kind of heat for them.
I’m frustrated too, but it’s not anger at them.
This was never a fight.
But something became a struggle.
When to recognize an ally…
I’m frustrated too, but it’s not anger at them.
This was never a fight.
But something became a struggle.
When to recognize an ally…
January 3, 2026 at 10:53 PM
They’re so angry. So angry with me. They don’t even realize I don’t have the same kind of heat for them.
I’m frustrated too, but it’s not anger at them.
This was never a fight.
But something became a struggle.
When to recognize an ally…
I’m frustrated too, but it’s not anger at them.
This was never a fight.
But something became a struggle.
When to recognize an ally…
I’m willing to give up so much, sacrifice so much of my own future, just to have the vague feeling that some interpersonal relationship is on okay terms…
I don’t wanna change; I’m not going to either.
This is just something to reckon with.
Though, I’ve taught myself to not care in many cases… huh—
I don’t wanna change; I’m not going to either.
This is just something to reckon with.
Though, I’ve taught myself to not care in many cases… huh—
January 3, 2026 at 9:10 PM
I’m willing to give up so much, sacrifice so much of my own future, just to have the vague feeling that some interpersonal relationship is on okay terms…
I don’t wanna change; I’m not going to either.
This is just something to reckon with.
Though, I’ve taught myself to not care in many cases… huh—
I don’t wanna change; I’m not going to either.
This is just something to reckon with.
Though, I’ve taught myself to not care in many cases… huh—
Leaving me behind in the name of self-deprivation.
Am I supposed to believe that?
What am I supposed to believe?
Abandoned all the same.
Tell me all the best you hope for me, all the good I deserve…
But if we’re happy, why’s it gotta change?
Everything changes, sure, but is the root in us, or…?
Am I supposed to believe that?
What am I supposed to believe?
Abandoned all the same.
Tell me all the best you hope for me, all the good I deserve…
But if we’re happy, why’s it gotta change?
Everything changes, sure, but is the root in us, or…?
January 2, 2026 at 12:59 AM
Leaving me behind in the name of self-deprivation.
Am I supposed to believe that?
What am I supposed to believe?
Abandoned all the same.
Tell me all the best you hope for me, all the good I deserve…
But if we’re happy, why’s it gotta change?
Everything changes, sure, but is the root in us, or…?
Am I supposed to believe that?
What am I supposed to believe?
Abandoned all the same.
Tell me all the best you hope for me, all the good I deserve…
But if we’re happy, why’s it gotta change?
Everything changes, sure, but is the root in us, or…?
Reposted by Obinya
MMXXVI First Awakening
January 1, 2026 at 2:17 PM
MMXXVI First Awakening
I’m a ghost. Not a dream, maybe a nightmare.
January 1, 2026 at 4:52 AM
I’m a ghost. Not a dream, maybe a nightmare.
I’ve got a shortcut to an exit to despair and I keep taking it, but I won’t exit. It’s almost like I think I deserve it…
January 1, 2026 at 12:42 AM
I’ve got a shortcut to an exit to despair and I keep taking it, but I won’t exit. It’s almost like I think I deserve it…
2025 is almost over.
So much has been going great since like 2021…
So much has sucked since like my birthday 2024…
I ask how to get over it.
I draw the 6 of Cups and the Fool to clarify.
It’s so difficult to just carry the good and the bad, to just keep stepping… why is it so difficult?
My Self?
So much has been going great since like 2021…
So much has sucked since like my birthday 2024…
I ask how to get over it.
I draw the 6 of Cups and the Fool to clarify.
It’s so difficult to just carry the good and the bad, to just keep stepping… why is it so difficult?
My Self?
December 31, 2025 at 7:28 PM
2025 is almost over.
So much has been going great since like 2021…
So much has sucked since like my birthday 2024…
I ask how to get over it.
I draw the 6 of Cups and the Fool to clarify.
It’s so difficult to just carry the good and the bad, to just keep stepping… why is it so difficult?
My Self?
So much has been going great since like 2021…
So much has sucked since like my birthday 2024…
I ask how to get over it.
I draw the 6 of Cups and the Fool to clarify.
It’s so difficult to just carry the good and the bad, to just keep stepping… why is it so difficult?
My Self?
2006
Didn’t even recognize the lyrics?
Almost 2026
Is this still my anthem?
Ah, those two riffs
1 @ what you said
…where you soar but ride the bass…
2 @ the chorus into/and the break
…the lead guitar melody is too nostalgic
Sole Mediator
Burning Soul
Bright
Alone
Const el
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Didn’t even recognize the lyrics?
Almost 2026
Is this still my anthem?
Ah, those two riffs
1 @ what you said
…where you soar but ride the bass…
2 @ the chorus into/and the break
…the lead guitar melody is too nostalgic
Sole Mediator
Burning Soul
Bright
Alone
Const el
youtu.be/s_VwB91DYeI?...
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December 28, 2025 at 3:54 PM
2006
Didn’t even recognize the lyrics?
Almost 2026
Is this still my anthem?
Ah, those two riffs
1 @ what you said
…where you soar but ride the bass…
2 @ the chorus into/and the break
…the lead guitar melody is too nostalgic
Sole Mediator
Burning Soul
Bright
Alone
Const el
youtu.be/s_VwB91DYeI?...
Didn’t even recognize the lyrics?
Almost 2026
Is this still my anthem?
Ah, those two riffs
1 @ what you said
…where you soar but ride the bass…
2 @ the chorus into/and the break
…the lead guitar melody is too nostalgic
Sole Mediator
Burning Soul
Bright
Alone
Const el
youtu.be/s_VwB91DYeI?...
Random thought
Aren’t therapists supposed to assist you in asking the right questions to help you identify how your behavior works yourself? Maybe a habit you want to break…
How are you assessing my behavior & motivations without a single question?
I’m talking to you but it’s second-hand somehow?
Aren’t therapists supposed to assist you in asking the right questions to help you identify how your behavior works yourself? Maybe a habit you want to break…
How are you assessing my behavior & motivations without a single question?
I’m talking to you but it’s second-hand somehow?
December 28, 2025 at 2:58 PM
Random thought
Aren’t therapists supposed to assist you in asking the right questions to help you identify how your behavior works yourself? Maybe a habit you want to break…
How are you assessing my behavior & motivations without a single question?
I’m talking to you but it’s second-hand somehow?
Aren’t therapists supposed to assist you in asking the right questions to help you identify how your behavior works yourself? Maybe a habit you want to break…
How are you assessing my behavior & motivations without a single question?
I’m talking to you but it’s second-hand somehow?
I feel like I’m on the verge of a worldline…
Is this the point to reconnect the shattered past or melt the parts into a certain future.
I have a totem. A shared item. Do I use this record to focus on the past and bring me and others to a past inflection point?
Would this next visit mean something?
Is this the point to reconnect the shattered past or melt the parts into a certain future.
I have a totem. A shared item. Do I use this record to focus on the past and bring me and others to a past inflection point?
Would this next visit mean something?
December 27, 2025 at 5:32 PM
I feel like I’m on the verge of a worldline…
Is this the point to reconnect the shattered past or melt the parts into a certain future.
I have a totem. A shared item. Do I use this record to focus on the past and bring me and others to a past inflection point?
Would this next visit mean something?
Is this the point to reconnect the shattered past or melt the parts into a certain future.
I have a totem. A shared item. Do I use this record to focus on the past and bring me and others to a past inflection point?
Would this next visit mean something?
F this bs
I feel like the people around me are suffering and I can’t do anything about it, but also it’s my fault somehow. It’s not a good feeling. Like what more should I be doing. I just want to be right. I would do anything.
I feel like the people around me are suffering and I can’t do anything about it, but also it’s my fault somehow. It’s not a good feeling. Like what more should I be doing. I just want to be right. I would do anything.
December 26, 2025 at 6:05 PM
F this bs
I feel like the people around me are suffering and I can’t do anything about it, but also it’s my fault somehow. It’s not a good feeling. Like what more should I be doing. I just want to be right. I would do anything.
I feel like the people around me are suffering and I can’t do anything about it, but also it’s my fault somehow. It’s not a good feeling. Like what more should I be doing. I just want to be right. I would do anything.
I hate meaning so much that I mean nothing.
Not the standpoint of sunyata
Not the standpoint of absolute nothingness
Not ripples, not waves, not snow, not ice…
I mean so much, that I’m abandoned
I can’t mean what I mean
I shouldn’t
I can’t be what I am
I shouldn’t
I have no choice
I’m really sad
Not the standpoint of sunyata
Not the standpoint of absolute nothingness
Not ripples, not waves, not snow, not ice…
I mean so much, that I’m abandoned
I can’t mean what I mean
I shouldn’t
I can’t be what I am
I shouldn’t
I have no choice
I’m really sad
December 26, 2025 at 7:25 AM
I hate meaning so much that I mean nothing.
Not the standpoint of sunyata
Not the standpoint of absolute nothingness
Not ripples, not waves, not snow, not ice…
I mean so much, that I’m abandoned
I can’t mean what I mean
I shouldn’t
I can’t be what I am
I shouldn’t
I have no choice
I’m really sad
Not the standpoint of sunyata
Not the standpoint of absolute nothingness
Not ripples, not waves, not snow, not ice…
I mean so much, that I’m abandoned
I can’t mean what I mean
I shouldn’t
I can’t be what I am
I shouldn’t
I have no choice
I’m really sad
I miss you… so much…
December 26, 2025 at 6:41 AM
I miss you… so much…