Obinya
@obinyachizoret.bsky.social
A man living in this fantasy of life, death & dreams. The heart and mind of this shadowy man at all occasions is to me most familiar yet is neither I nor other.
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Obinya
@obinyachizoret.bsky.social
· Aug 1
I’ve been so lucky this past year
In terms of walking away from totaled vehicles and not losing parents to medical emergencies
But my subsequent happiness has been capped
Because I lost a connection…
How selfish am I?
These are the thoughts I’ve had lately, it was real, then was real while not.
In terms of walking away from totaled vehicles and not losing parents to medical emergencies
But my subsequent happiness has been capped
Because I lost a connection…
How selfish am I?
These are the thoughts I’ve had lately, it was real, then was real while not.
Reposted by Obinya
Imagine just letting go
and feeling safe
not because of a comfort
but because there’s no threat
My organ pumps and pumps
veins and arteries
a source and an end blend
All in all again
Did I…?
Of course I felt this before
That’s what’s natural
awkward
it’s fine again
music.apple.com/us/album/jom...
and feeling safe
not because of a comfort
but because there’s no threat
My organ pumps and pumps
veins and arteries
a source and an end blend
All in all again
Did I…?
Of course I felt this before
That’s what’s natural
awkward
it’s fine again
music.apple.com/us/album/jom...
Jomyaku by Plastic tree on Apple Music
Song · 2012 · Duration 5:10
music.apple.com
January 27, 2026 at 2:15 PM
Imagine just letting go
and feeling safe
not because of a comfort
but because there’s no threat
My organ pumps and pumps
veins and arteries
a source and an end blend
All in all again
Did I…?
Of course I felt this before
That’s what’s natural
awkward
it’s fine again
music.apple.com/us/album/jom...
and feeling safe
not because of a comfort
but because there’s no threat
My organ pumps and pumps
veins and arteries
a source and an end blend
All in all again
Did I…?
Of course I felt this before
That’s what’s natural
awkward
it’s fine again
music.apple.com/us/album/jom...
Reposted by Obinya
Aversione
Reversusque
DREAMS
reality
Reversusque
DREAMS
reality
January 27, 2026 at 5:31 AM
Aversione
Reversusque
DREAMS
reality
Reversusque
DREAMS
reality
Walk tall… my friends.
Walk tall and Live.
Walk tall and Live.
January 26, 2026 at 9:30 PM
Walk tall… my friends.
Walk tall and Live.
Walk tall and Live.
Are we people? The People?
As helpless as I let myself feel
As frustrated
As much as I know possibility to be
What do I do?
My only resolution is to move on and act where it is Just to do so.
I know what it is: body, mind, and soul…
Rubber and Road
I need to show up for others
with Discipline.
🌌🌱
As helpless as I let myself feel
As frustrated
As much as I know possibility to be
What do I do?
My only resolution is to move on and act where it is Just to do so.
I know what it is: body, mind, and soul…
Rubber and Road
I need to show up for others
with Discipline.
🌌🌱
January 26, 2026 at 6:42 PM
Are we people? The People?
As helpless as I let myself feel
As frustrated
As much as I know possibility to be
What do I do?
My only resolution is to move on and act where it is Just to do so.
I know what it is: body, mind, and soul…
Rubber and Road
I need to show up for others
with Discipline.
🌌🌱
As helpless as I let myself feel
As frustrated
As much as I know possibility to be
What do I do?
My only resolution is to move on and act where it is Just to do so.
I know what it is: body, mind, and soul…
Rubber and Road
I need to show up for others
with Discipline.
🌌🌱
Reposted by Obinya
Reposted by Obinya
I dreamt today…
I need to get back to sleep.
Sweet Tight
Sleep Dreams
I remember…
Like the secret name of a demon whispered in my ear…
Have I been here before?
I’ve been forgotten.
When was the first time?
These justifications!
The roots of this tree of knowledge
A Promise of honesty
I’m tired.
I need to get back to sleep.
Sweet Tight
Sleep Dreams
I remember…
Like the secret name of a demon whispered in my ear…
Have I been here before?
I’ve been forgotten.
When was the first time?
These justifications!
The roots of this tree of knowledge
A Promise of honesty
I’m tired.
January 26, 2026 at 7:20 AM
I dreamt today…
I need to get back to sleep.
Sweet Tight
Sleep Dreams
I remember…
Like the secret name of a demon whispered in my ear…
Have I been here before?
I’ve been forgotten.
When was the first time?
These justifications!
The roots of this tree of knowledge
A Promise of honesty
I’m tired.
I need to get back to sleep.
Sweet Tight
Sleep Dreams
I remember…
Like the secret name of a demon whispered in my ear…
Have I been here before?
I’ve been forgotten.
When was the first time?
These justifications!
The roots of this tree of knowledge
A Promise of honesty
I’m tired.
I’m tired.
Turns out… this isn’t how I wanted to be used after all.
I wouldn’t do unto them, hell, I said as much, what has been done unto me.
Is “Sorry” honest?
Like who’s still conflicted? Why not fight for me too? Please…
Turns out… this isn’t how I wanted to be used after all.
I wouldn’t do unto them, hell, I said as much, what has been done unto me.
Is “Sorry” honest?
Like who’s still conflicted? Why not fight for me too? Please…
January 26, 2026 at 7:09 AM
I’m tired.
Turns out… this isn’t how I wanted to be used after all.
I wouldn’t do unto them, hell, I said as much, what has been done unto me.
Is “Sorry” honest?
Like who’s still conflicted? Why not fight for me too? Please…
Turns out… this isn’t how I wanted to be used after all.
I wouldn’t do unto them, hell, I said as much, what has been done unto me.
Is “Sorry” honest?
Like who’s still conflicted? Why not fight for me too? Please…
What does it mean to be a liar?
Who do you respect when you lie?
If the deception prevents or stems some sort of exploitation of people… I guess I don’t really care to know the answers.
But, interpersonally and those aren’t the stakes… and the lies kinda support abusive behavior.
Who, Nobody…?
Who do you respect when you lie?
If the deception prevents or stems some sort of exploitation of people… I guess I don’t really care to know the answers.
But, interpersonally and those aren’t the stakes… and the lies kinda support abusive behavior.
Who, Nobody…?
January 25, 2026 at 7:28 PM
What does it mean to be a liar?
Who do you respect when you lie?
If the deception prevents or stems some sort of exploitation of people… I guess I don’t really care to know the answers.
But, interpersonally and those aren’t the stakes… and the lies kinda support abusive behavior.
Who, Nobody…?
Who do you respect when you lie?
If the deception prevents or stems some sort of exploitation of people… I guess I don’t really care to know the answers.
But, interpersonally and those aren’t the stakes… and the lies kinda support abusive behavior.
Who, Nobody…?
When you mock me for my loss of connections, you are blaming me.
But if you blame me, why blame me for trying to maintain the connection I don’t want to lose? What am I doing wrong?
But if you say I’m not doing anything wrong, why mock me? Why hurt or punish me?
Where are you? That would be true
But if you blame me, why blame me for trying to maintain the connection I don’t want to lose? What am I doing wrong?
But if you say I’m not doing anything wrong, why mock me? Why hurt or punish me?
Where are you? That would be true
January 24, 2026 at 4:38 PM
When you mock me for my loss of connections, you are blaming me.
But if you blame me, why blame me for trying to maintain the connection I don’t want to lose? What am I doing wrong?
But if you say I’m not doing anything wrong, why mock me? Why hurt or punish me?
Where are you? That would be true
But if you blame me, why blame me for trying to maintain the connection I don’t want to lose? What am I doing wrong?
But if you say I’m not doing anything wrong, why mock me? Why hurt or punish me?
Where are you? That would be true
Reposted by Obinya
Sometimes I feel guided. I hate fatalism, but I feel in moments that “supposed to” would be nice to make sense
Like I learned of a small random coincidence tonight that may provide an answer to the pain and weight I’ve carried for a year+
I was the other person…
That was the unseen conflict
Not me
Like I learned of a small random coincidence tonight that may provide an answer to the pain and weight I’ve carried for a year+
I was the other person…
That was the unseen conflict
Not me
January 23, 2026 at 8:56 AM
Sometimes I feel guided. I hate fatalism, but I feel in moments that “supposed to” would be nice to make sense
Like I learned of a small random coincidence tonight that may provide an answer to the pain and weight I’ve carried for a year+
I was the other person…
That was the unseen conflict
Not me
Like I learned of a small random coincidence tonight that may provide an answer to the pain and weight I’ve carried for a year+
I was the other person…
That was the unseen conflict
Not me
Reposted by Obinya
Reposted by Obinya
the World so wondrous, always changing
I’m pulled in even as I shatter and scatter…
a discontinuous continuity
the World that ends with us
among our constellations
above the heavens
the revelry quiets
blooming and entwined
before the dawn
the letter XIII unites with words
youtu.be/1497FI2Qf1c?...
I’m pulled in even as I shatter and scatter…
a discontinuous continuity
the World that ends with us
among our constellations
above the heavens
the revelry quiets
blooming and entwined
before the dawn
the letter XIII unites with words
youtu.be/1497FI2Qf1c?...
CREATURE CREATURE / Death Is A Flower [MV]
YouTube video by Cherry
youtu.be
January 23, 2026 at 8:02 AM
the World so wondrous, always changing
I’m pulled in even as I shatter and scatter…
a discontinuous continuity
the World that ends with us
among our constellations
above the heavens
the revelry quiets
blooming and entwined
before the dawn
the letter XIII unites with words
youtu.be/1497FI2Qf1c?...
I’m pulled in even as I shatter and scatter…
a discontinuous continuity
the World that ends with us
among our constellations
above the heavens
the revelry quiets
blooming and entwined
before the dawn
the letter XIII unites with words
youtu.be/1497FI2Qf1c?...
Goth Swing under the moonlight
An angel
A pixie
Awesome with horror
Ivy
A rose
The desert winds bite
Something changes within and without
Marks of an impending victory
Revel, for who can challenge?
Who is likened to us. We are.
Be with me.
Volcanic ash
waste and crumble
youtu.be/C8u8xLkAu0k?...
An angel
A pixie
Awesome with horror
Ivy
A rose
The desert winds bite
Something changes within and without
Marks of an impending victory
Revel, for who can challenge?
Who is likened to us. We are.
Be with me.
Volcanic ash
waste and crumble
youtu.be/C8u8xLkAu0k?...
[Live] L'Arc~en~Ciel (라르크앙시엘) - DUNE
YouTube video by L'Arc~en~Ciel KOR
youtu.be
January 23, 2026 at 7:44 AM
Goth Swing under the moonlight
An angel
A pixie
Awesome with horror
Ivy
A rose
The desert winds bite
Something changes within and without
Marks of an impending victory
Revel, for who can challenge?
Who is likened to us. We are.
Be with me.
Volcanic ash
waste and crumble
youtu.be/C8u8xLkAu0k?...
An angel
A pixie
Awesome with horror
Ivy
A rose
The desert winds bite
Something changes within and without
Marks of an impending victory
Revel, for who can challenge?
Who is likened to us. We are.
Be with me.
Volcanic ash
waste and crumble
youtu.be/C8u8xLkAu0k?...
At times I can’t imagine a future without this weight. Then I don’t think I should even need to, if the most radical truth were revealed
Shatter the glass
Was it a mirror
Reflections of broken memories
What makes up our sharp edges?
To subdue this pain
Curaja
Action
Spell
youtu.be/ss1m4KaBksw?...
Shatter the glass
Was it a mirror
Reflections of broken memories
What makes up our sharp edges?
To subdue this pain
Curaja
Action
Spell
youtu.be/ss1m4KaBksw?...
[Live] L'Arc~en~Ciel (라르크앙시엘) - Cureless
YouTube video by L'Arc~en~Ciel KOR
youtu.be
January 23, 2026 at 7:30 AM
At times I can’t imagine a future without this weight. Then I don’t think I should even need to, if the most radical truth were revealed
Shatter the glass
Was it a mirror
Reflections of broken memories
What makes up our sharp edges?
To subdue this pain
Curaja
Action
Spell
youtu.be/ss1m4KaBksw?...
Shatter the glass
Was it a mirror
Reflections of broken memories
What makes up our sharp edges?
To subdue this pain
Curaja
Action
Spell
youtu.be/ss1m4KaBksw?...
Déjà vu? reve?
we’re well past the beginning
Satisfied?
Except when my mind wanders
Among the stars
Among our constellations
One
we drew a dream and you teared up
A collage in my heart
One
the seed never bloomed from Underground
I want to break ground with you again
Fly!
youtu.be/xC2vIS1BVms?...
we’re well past the beginning
Satisfied?
Except when my mind wanders
Among the stars
Among our constellations
One
we drew a dream and you teared up
A collage in my heart
One
the seed never bloomed from Underground
I want to break ground with you again
Fly!
youtu.be/xC2vIS1BVms?...
[Mix] L'Arc~en~Ciel (라르크앙시엘) - ミライ(Mirai / 미래) Osaka Namba ROCKETS에서 시작된 그들의 미래 + Sub. English [CC]
YouTube video by L'Arc~en~Ciel KOR
youtu.be
January 23, 2026 at 7:10 AM
Déjà vu? reve?
we’re well past the beginning
Satisfied?
Except when my mind wanders
Among the stars
Among our constellations
One
we drew a dream and you teared up
A collage in my heart
One
the seed never bloomed from Underground
I want to break ground with you again
Fly!
youtu.be/xC2vIS1BVms?...
we’re well past the beginning
Satisfied?
Except when my mind wanders
Among the stars
Among our constellations
One
we drew a dream and you teared up
A collage in my heart
One
the seed never bloomed from Underground
I want to break ground with you again
Fly!
youtu.be/xC2vIS1BVms?...
They say I’m not owed any closure.
But, why not?
Like seriously, for someone they “loved”, they can’t name what I did to deserve less than…? They can’t name what I did to hurt them?
I acted as someone who loved them and remained transparent. They hid the ball and blamed me.
Overwhelmed, why?
But, why not?
Like seriously, for someone they “loved”, they can’t name what I did to deserve less than…? They can’t name what I did to hurt them?
I acted as someone who loved them and remained transparent. They hid the ball and blamed me.
Overwhelmed, why?
January 23, 2026 at 6:11 AM
They say I’m not owed any closure.
But, why not?
Like seriously, for someone they “loved”, they can’t name what I did to deserve less than…? They can’t name what I did to hurt them?
I acted as someone who loved them and remained transparent. They hid the ball and blamed me.
Overwhelmed, why?
But, why not?
Like seriously, for someone they “loved”, they can’t name what I did to deserve less than…? They can’t name what I did to hurt them?
I acted as someone who loved them and remained transparent. They hid the ball and blamed me.
Overwhelmed, why?
And in a moment I feel relief.
But is it only the absence of pain…?
How do I excel? How do I stay safe?
How do I become strong again…?
But is it only the absence of pain…?
How do I excel? How do I stay safe?
How do I become strong again…?
January 23, 2026 at 1:21 AM
And in a moment I feel relief.
But is it only the absence of pain…?
How do I excel? How do I stay safe?
How do I become strong again…?
But is it only the absence of pain…?
How do I excel? How do I stay safe?
How do I become strong again…?
And yet, some days I don’t know how to get over these losses…
January 23, 2026 at 12:49 AM
And yet, some days I don’t know how to get over these losses…
Jupiter in cancer
pluto opposite Mars
shorthand for I know it doesn’t have to make sense, but there’s a lot “we” can do…
Tyranny and Resistance are actions, don’t get lost in your head…
My Only Chance
pluto opposite Mars
shorthand for I know it doesn’t have to make sense, but there’s a lot “we” can do…
Tyranny and Resistance are actions, don’t get lost in your head…
My Only Chance
January 22, 2026 at 5:31 PM
Jupiter in cancer
pluto opposite Mars
shorthand for I know it doesn’t have to make sense, but there’s a lot “we” can do…
Tyranny and Resistance are actions, don’t get lost in your head…
My Only Chance
pluto opposite Mars
shorthand for I know it doesn’t have to make sense, but there’s a lot “we” can do…
Tyranny and Resistance are actions, don’t get lost in your head…
My Only Chance
And then I ask again
And then I remember again
And then I ask
And then I remember
Then I ask
Then I remember
Then
Where am I now?
Isn’t this how Heavenly ends?!
Or at least my appreciation for Mr. Kitamura tonight
…
Of course I reflected on “that”…
Again…
Then…
youtu.be/dMTK18uPA8U?...
And then I remember again
And then I ask
And then I remember
Then I ask
Then I remember
Then
Where am I now?
Isn’t this how Heavenly ends?!
Or at least my appreciation for Mr. Kitamura tonight
…
Of course I reflected on “that”…
Again…
Then…
youtu.be/dMTK18uPA8U?...
[Live] L'Arc~en~Ciel (라르크앙시엘) - The Rain Leaves a Scar + Sub. English [CC]
YouTube video by L'Arc~en~Ciel KOR
youtu.be
January 22, 2026 at 8:04 AM
And then I ask again
And then I remember again
And then I ask
And then I remember
Then I ask
Then I remember
Then
Where am I now?
Isn’t this how Heavenly ends?!
Or at least my appreciation for Mr. Kitamura tonight
…
Of course I reflected on “that”…
Again…
Then…
youtu.be/dMTK18uPA8U?...
And then I remember again
And then I ask
And then I remember
Then I ask
Then I remember
Then
Where am I now?
Isn’t this how Heavenly ends?!
Or at least my appreciation for Mr. Kitamura tonight
…
Of course I reflected on “that”…
Again…
Then…
youtu.be/dMTK18uPA8U?...