AND!!! every time he feels that faith slipping away he sees people like his past lover, like alucard, and like mizrak who are so resolute and believe in change so much so he latches onto them because they remind him of what he lost and thats why he goes to drastic measures in order to keep them safe

Very good nose. Teddy bear nose

I’m so sorry for your loss, sending love your way and take all the time you need 💞