He/him/they/them
I love cute shit and cosmic horror-- symbolism, human behavior, poetry
Pretentious and pedantic
Scoville scale off the charts
Writer of a sort, used kink salesman
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-Transmasc Experiences
-Kink
-Video Games
-Neurospicy Experiences
-Symbolism in narrative and poetry
-Human behavior
-Cottage Core, Knight Core, Cosmic/Eldritch Horror, Weird Core aesthetics
-Soft Boy feelings.
"You're afraid of being left behind."
Yeah. I am.
And great heights inspire great frights
Rejection tries to get me in a chokehold and question everything I know
Illness makes me queasy and a coward, like germs have some super villain power
"You're afraid of being left behind."
Yeah. I am.
And great heights inspire great frights
Rejection tries to get me in a chokehold and question everything I know
Illness makes me queasy and a coward, like germs have some super villain power
My anxieties are a strange comfort this morning. It's not silent here, the AC unit is loud enough to disrupt your train of thought if you don't block it out. But white noise is a constant and welcomed companion.
Are my cats getting enough food? Why was the stovetop still on Low?
My anxieties are a strange comfort this morning. It's not silent here, the AC unit is loud enough to disrupt your train of thought if you don't block it out. But white noise is a constant and welcomed companion.
Are my cats getting enough food? Why was the stovetop still on Low?
I wonder what the psychology is on that one.
I wonder what the psychology is on that one.
My family home transformed into care for the sick and needy, poorly funded and poorly maintained by my mother and sisters.
When I came back to visit my room was a wreck.
My family home transformed into care for the sick and needy, poorly funded and poorly maintained by my mother and sisters.
When I came back to visit my room was a wreck.
What matters most when you don't have to perform for anyone?
Do you perform at all?
And who are you when the people most important to you are not there to help define you?
A few small dissociative thoughts.
What matters most when you don't have to perform for anyone?
Do you perform at all?
And who are you when the people most important to you are not there to help define you?
A few small dissociative thoughts.
Vulnerability, uncertainty, and transitional phases sure do give rise to a need for guidance, affirmation, and reassurance.
I'm not saying I think it's directly tied to how I seek out affection, but I wouldn't be surprised.
Steady the foal-fresh legs, fumbling fear.
Vulnerability, uncertainty, and transitional phases sure do give rise to a need for guidance, affirmation, and reassurance.
I'm not saying I think it's directly tied to how I seek out affection, but I wouldn't be surprised.
Steady the foal-fresh legs, fumbling fear.
The simple intimacy of being with them: head on a shoulder, easy embraces, holding them while they sleep... These are needs that I'm fulfilling for the first time in a few years.
It's safe to. So says my otherwise avoidant gray matter in not so many words.
The simple intimacy of being with them: head on a shoulder, easy embraces, holding them while they sleep... These are needs that I'm fulfilling for the first time in a few years.
It's safe to. So says my otherwise avoidant gray matter in not so many words.
Just five days.
Just five more.
It's funny to me that I turned out to be this kind of person.
Pining, sappy, lovey. I am that terribly unclever fool, that bastard with a grin all besotted and unsteady on his feet
Love makes me an idiot.
Being with you is like getting fucked senseless.
Just five days.
Just five more.
It's funny to me that I turned out to be this kind of person.
Pining, sappy, lovey. I am that terribly unclever fool, that bastard with a grin all besotted and unsteady on his feet
Love makes me an idiot.
Being with you is like getting fucked senseless.
Mine's currently in outer space.
Mine's currently in outer space.
So what does the sundowning say tonight?
Seeker of solitude's just a silly fallacy
Incidental isolation imitates rejection
And I'm sensitive
Attention seeker, could you reach across distances with
Elegance and clarity
Instead of muddled, witless word
So what does the sundowning say tonight?
Seeker of solitude's just a silly fallacy
Incidental isolation imitates rejection
And I'm sensitive
Attention seeker, could you reach across distances with
Elegance and clarity
Instead of muddled, witless word
Ugh.
Sticking around like a bad funk.
Ugh.
Sticking around like a bad funk.
Fingers loose but never pried
A fist made to rest
A mind invited to quiet
You, maestro, puppet master, spider in their web assured
move and
Every movement lifted his
limbs, voice, eyes
Understanding
My hands loosen at my sides
My heart rabbits without fear
Finally
Fingers loose but never pried
A fist made to rest
A mind invited to quiet
You, maestro, puppet master, spider in their web assured
move and
Every movement lifted his
limbs, voice, eyes
Understanding
My hands loosen at my sides
My heart rabbits without fear
Finally
I have a fair amount of practice at it.
I have a fair amount of practice at it.
Loops are a godsend.
Loops are a godsend.
We need all kinds in this world, and I have no ill feelings towards those who have lost their softness, or otherwise hide it.
We need all kinds in this world, and I have no ill feelings towards those who have lost their softness, or otherwise hide it.
When I say I do more writing than I do reading, this is what I mean.
When I say I do more writing than I do reading, this is what I mean.
8-3-25
Been looked at weird for most of my life
Had boys, girls, parents
Worried, disgusted, afraid of me
Because I was quiet but out and
Not intimidated out of being
Myself
Social hierarchy? Get fucked.
I tore out my own teeth to show them
I meant no harm
8-3-25
Been looked at weird for most of my life
Had boys, girls, parents
Worried, disgusted, afraid of me
Because I was quiet but out and
Not intimidated out of being
Myself
Social hierarchy? Get fucked.
I tore out my own teeth to show them
I meant no harm
Soft-hearted murmurings in late evenings and tired mornings
Breathing into the space between my ribs
Dumb-but-lucky hands
Months on months on months of chest full and palms empty
Soft-hearted murmurings in late evenings and tired mornings
Breathing into the space between my ribs
Dumb-but-lucky hands
Months on months on months of chest full and palms empty
Sometimes it distracts, hinders, hampers, my ability to act. Thinking too hard.
Do something wrong, or do something right.
But do not do nothing?
An uneasy feeling, that one.
Sometimes it distracts, hinders, hampers, my ability to act. Thinking too hard.
Do something wrong, or do something right.
But do not do nothing?
An uneasy feeling, that one.