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devilmaya crylady
@membrane.hellstar.plus
hi i’m maya. she/it. plural fat dyke who makes music

🐛 - bug - she/her
👽 - petra - she/it
🫀 - flower - it/she

girlfriends! 💕
@grease.gay
@bethany332.bsky.social

https://hellstar.plus
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MY DIVINE PERVERSIONS / linear & gestalt
MY DIVINE PERVERSIONS / linear & gestalt, by hellstar.plus
2 track album
hellstarplus.bandcamp.com
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its so cool that our two trans holidays are "please remember we exist" and "please stop killing us"
November 20, 2025 at 3:51 PM
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remember, you have something to live for (2/2)
September 30, 2025 at 3:32 AM
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cw: transphobia, suicide

my best friend is dead — reupload, 2023 (1/2)
September 30, 2025 at 3:32 AM
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cashapp is $leazeBurger
paypal is alanismcfly

if any cis folks wanna' treat two trans women to a pizza or burgers or something
if you're cis, today is a really good day to give trans people money
November 20, 2025 at 11:05 PM
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For the first year fees of £1800 ($2353 USD) for F1NN5TER'S HRT service, you could buy about a 30-year supply of DIY estradiol enanthate.

The £200 ($261 USD) "startup fee" could buy around you around 2.5 to 3 years of DIY estradiol enanthate.

Please do not use that service.
November 20, 2025 at 7:16 PM
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with alt text, because everyone deserves a good cry.

come over.
July 15, 2025 at 11:21 PM
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If you're a cis person looking for ways to connect with the Trans Day of Remembrance, here's a list of suggestions:

1) Money. Give money to trans people. Especially to black trans people. Save the speeches and the somber memes. Give. Money. Not to the Trevor Project, to trans people.

End of list.
November 20, 2023 at 5:56 PM
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This popped into my mind again today.
November 20, 2025 at 7:58 PM
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Cannot be stressed enough that Black trans women were immediately sidelined in the early 2020s. Just pushed out of the convo immediately, even though transmisogynoir has always been an emergency and Black trans women are disproportionately targeted
Read this piece I contributed to in 2017. This piece, talking with the friends and families of murdered Black trans women, still haunts me to this day.

Pieces like this are just not printed anymore.

www.thefader.com/2017/10/15/t...
Rest in power
So far in 2017, 21 trans people have been reported as murdered. These are their life stories.
www.thefader.com
November 20, 2025 at 7:56 PM
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This lil drawing I made for the first TDOR I was out for. So many complicated feelings with today. Hoping you are alive and well today.
November 20, 2025 at 8:22 PM
today’s lunch break music is Cosmic Ritual Supertrip by Black Rainbows
November 20, 2025 at 8:12 PM
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his little happy nod at the end makes me laugh every fucking time
November 19, 2025 at 5:31 PM
the summation of my thoughts for this TDOR is that everyone we lost deserved better than they got. all of us do.
November 20, 2025 at 7:42 PM
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my facial hair is the biggest source of dysphoria for me, i shave every day (often painfully) bc if i can see or feel any stubble i start spiraling ;ω;

if you want to support a trans woman on this tdor, it would mean the world to me to be closer to getting laser hair removal <3
ko-fi.com/raynpuddle
November 20, 2025 at 7:37 PM
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another good person is my friend mel, whose state banned her insurance from covering her bottom surgery less than 200 days away from her surgery date, after over 1200 days stuck on the waitlist. it will absolutely destroy her savings and she needs any help she can get

gofund.me/13d0714fe
Donate to Help Mel cover upcoming surgery expenses in New York., organized by Mel B
North Carolina banned my insurance from covering my surgery. I now have to… Mel B needs your support for Help Mel cover upcoming surgery expenses in New York.
gofund.me
November 20, 2025 at 6:50 PM
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some really good trans people who need it include my partner mara, who needs financial help to afford taking off a month of work to deal with their trauma from the sexual violence they've dealt with
with everything Going On Lately in my direction it’s been hard to deal with anything relating to my doctors request that I take a month off unpaid for sexual violence leave

buppy asked for help a week ago and every penny means the world

please help a 2S Native heal

ko-fi.com/marallmighty
Support MARAllMighty
Support MARAllMighty
ko-fi.com
November 20, 2025 at 6:50 PM
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if you're cis, today is a really good day to give trans people money
November 20, 2025 at 6:50 PM
the demons are saying i should get either subway or jimmy john for lunch. they demand it
November 20, 2025 at 7:36 PM
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Not much to say about Trans Day of Remembrance anymore besides “try loving and celebrating us while we are alive”
November 20, 2025 at 2:10 PM
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i linked people i really care about in the thread, but also like if you gave them a bunch of money already, and like, only if you *really* can afford it, i would appreciate it if you sent a little bit my way 👉👈

(also if youre canadian DM me for etransfer email)
November 20, 2025 at 7:01 PM
it’s fixed and apparently the issue was literally an engineer pushed something to prod without properly testing it lollllll
lol all registers down company-wide
November 20, 2025 at 7:04 PM
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"hey katie how could i learn more about hrt and how to affordably acquire it?"

great question!

pghrt.diy
A Practical Guide To Feminizing HRT
The futile attempt at answering every possible question for someone looking to trans their sex.
pghrt.diy
November 20, 2025 at 6:43 PM
this is straight up evil, please just DIY
please for then love of Christ do not give some fucking British sissy £1800 a year in return for an unpaid prescription of 2mg oral
November 20, 2025 at 6:39 PM
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please for then love of Christ do not give some fucking British sissy £1800 a year in return for an unpaid prescription of 2mg oral
November 20, 2025 at 6:05 PM
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it's weird to live in a world where a new 'worst thing you've ever imagined' happens at least a few times a month and it's easy to let it all run together and just sort of wash over you and go totally numb to all of it so you don't freak out because you still have to do laundry and go to work.
November 20, 2025 at 6:34 PM