I love these colors and composition so much. I have some blank books like this that I plan on using as soon as I can go outside and travel again, and your work just reaffirms that desire. This is the post that got my follow. Keep it up!

Hahaha yuuussssss 😂 🧑‍🍳💋

Well, I already blew my inheritance from my grandma on trying to fix this, and my extended family DGAF about me, so I really am very much alone in this financially. All I can do is keep fighting and see where life takes me.

I can't. The pain is too much. I would need to be stretched out and sedated. I'm barely able to make the 6 minute drive to work

I'm going to end the woe is me rant here for now. I just want to put it out there that this suffering is needless and could have been prevented but we live in healthcare hell. They are acting in bad faith. My joy is gone. I carry on reflexively. I merely exist and nothing more. (10 of 10)

My back would not make it travelling. Especially attempting to seek help outside the states. I'm stuck. I went from occasional cane use in March to always needing one. It can sometimes take a full minute to get one foot up the curb and follow with the other (9 of _ )

I'm screaming into the void, I know. Who am I, right? I'm nobody. If anything, I hope that someone sees this and is inspired or able to make changes in our healthcare system so others don't suffer the way I am right now. I don't have money or options despite my 9 to 5. (8 of _ )

I'm 45. It's entirely possible to live past 80 and to have a full life, but that's being withheld from me. I could adapt to partial paralysis, but I can't do that on top of the stabbing excruciating pain. I can't use half the stuff in my room because I can't access it easily anymore (7 of _ )

This could be fixed right now. The insurance merely has to say yes. They don't think it is necessary. I use all my mental resources fighting this and I'm losing. I would not last one night on the streets in this condition. If a spasm and fall doesn't end me, my hopelessness possibly will. (6 of _ )

Trying to save FMLA for actual recovery. I want to live. I want a reduction in pain. My life is bed because I spend all my strength working then come home and try to rest. Everything feels pointless. This isn't living. It's my body as a prison of pain (5 of _ )

The pain and back spasms/pinching are there regardless of position now. WFH would not help. I haven't applied for disability because it takes time and this should have been fixed with surgery. If I even get approved it will cost more because they pushed it to the next year. (4 of _ )

Work has given me use of a power chair while in the office. My only saving grace that allows me to make my full wage, but I'm not doing the things I was hired to do. Now it's more admin stuff. This was supposed to be temporary until I got a procedure. It can't go forever (3 of _ )

Weight loss has not made it better. Going down stairs takes 15 minutes. My spine is bone on bone. The pain is excruciating. My social life is gone. My will to do anything is mostly gone as well. Art is hard because I am overwhelmed with anxiety about the future. The pain is never below an 8 (2 of _)

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Try this instead. Sorry

Giffing

It's not gifting?