Over the last 10 months, I have been dating very intentionally to find a life partner. I can't control if/when this will happen, but I can control my own actions. I made a goal about how many dates to aim for in my bullet journal many months ago, but I've got out of the habit of noting down how many dates and how many people I've been talking to on the apps.

Great news - I HAVE A PA! I've had her for over a month. After all my years of struggle with finding someone, I was feeling low on confidence that she'd stick around, but now it feels that enough time has passed for it to feel like it's not going to jinx it if I say something. She's very communicative and gets on with all the tasks I throw at her.

Though I'm feeling frustrated a lot generally with my health, I do feel like I am engaged in the process of finding a PA. It is helping to be process-focused instead of results-focused. Even though of course ultimately I would just like to have a PA and for this process to be over and done with, being process-focused is helping me stay engaged and not get too discouraged.

Thanks to my last blog post, someone reached out to offer themselves for the position. We had a good interview, I gave her the role, and we were due to start this week. Unfortunately, she backed out a few days ago. Nearly every time I've given someone the PA job, they have backed out. Here are the reasons I can remember people giving:

So, three things I hope to achieve with this blog: Share my story to help normalise disability narratives in our culture. Be more open about my disability to help myself work through my toxic shame in my limitations. Document the things I have learnt or am learning, to help myself value the work I have done to adjust to this radical lifestyle.