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If anyone figures out how to go to sleep without dreading it and needing to keep a stick on hand to fight the voices in your head, let me know.
January 2, 2026 at 12:37 AM
If anyone figures out how to go to sleep without dreading it and needing to keep a stick on hand to fight the voices in your head, let me know.
Today has been an incredibly nothing day. Just been kind of scrolling my feeds, doing nothing in particular. I really need to stop doing that.
December 29, 2025 at 5:53 PM
Today has been an incredibly nothing day. Just been kind of scrolling my feeds, doing nothing in particular. I really need to stop doing that.
There's a bit of melancholy on the midnights on my birthday, cuz for years I used to have my flatmates/briefly partners barge into my room at midnight with gifts and affections.
But other than that I've got a lot of friend and family stuff planned over there holidays, so it's really nbd
But other than that I've got a lot of friend and family stuff planned over there holidays, so it's really nbd
December 23, 2025 at 5:49 PM
There's a bit of melancholy on the midnights on my birthday, cuz for years I used to have my flatmates/briefly partners barge into my room at midnight with gifts and affections.
But other than that I've got a lot of friend and family stuff planned over there holidays, so it's really nbd
But other than that I've got a lot of friend and family stuff planned over there holidays, so it's really nbd
I hope I can afford to keep doing therapy through out all this, at least for a bit, cuz man. It's mentally gonna be a struggle to see myself as an, uhh, "useful member of society".
Being in university helps a ton tho. Even just sitting down this evening to do school work was of great help mentally.
Being in university helps a ton tho. Even just sitting down this evening to do school work was of great help mentally.
December 18, 2025 at 9:25 PM
I hope I can afford to keep doing therapy through out all this, at least for a bit, cuz man. It's mentally gonna be a struggle to see myself as an, uhh, "useful member of society".
Being in university helps a ton tho. Even just sitting down this evening to do school work was of great help mentally.
Being in university helps a ton tho. Even just sitting down this evening to do school work was of great help mentally.
Well, I'm out of a job lol. They were exceedingly kind about it tho.
December 18, 2025 at 8:06 AM
Well, I'm out of a job lol. They were exceedingly kind about it tho.
Anyway, what I really came here to say, please clap, I haven't been making jokes about killing myself at all.
The impulse is there, kind of in a rough spot mentally and physically, but I'm keeping my little line in the sand.
The impulse is there, kind of in a rough spot mentally and physically, but I'm keeping my little line in the sand.
December 17, 2025 at 6:26 PM
Anyway, what I really came here to say, please clap, I haven't been making jokes about killing myself at all.
The impulse is there, kind of in a rough spot mentally and physically, but I'm keeping my little line in the sand.
The impulse is there, kind of in a rough spot mentally and physically, but I'm keeping my little line in the sand.
Therapist: you've been dealing with so much, between work, studies, mental health, various issues, and doing good, considering! I think that's really commendable.
Me: if it was anyone else, you'd be right. not me tho. I could've been more capable, I could've done more--
Me: if it was anyone else, you'd be right. not me tho. I could've been more capable, I could've done more--
December 17, 2025 at 6:20 PM
Therapist: you've been dealing with so much, between work, studies, mental health, various issues, and doing good, considering! I think that's really commendable.
Me: if it was anyone else, you'd be right. not me tho. I could've been more capable, I could've done more--
Me: if it was anyone else, you'd be right. not me tho. I could've been more capable, I could've done more--
I'm so glad therapy is tomorrow. I'm trying so, so hard not to be like, "I need Thursday to pass, so I know if I'm fired or not," even tho I thiiink they don't do that here without several warnings first. Idk
I seem to be managing schoolwork ok, even tho that's stressful too.
I seem to be managing schoolwork ok, even tho that's stressful too.
December 16, 2025 at 9:50 PM
I'm so glad therapy is tomorrow. I'm trying so, so hard not to be like, "I need Thursday to pass, so I know if I'm fired or not," even tho I thiiink they don't do that here without several warnings first. Idk
I seem to be managing schoolwork ok, even tho that's stressful too.
I seem to be managing schoolwork ok, even tho that's stressful too.
Noticing that I have a 1 on 1 meeting with my boss scheduled this Thursday. Time for my official warning ig. 🥴
December 16, 2025 at 12:13 PM
Noticing that I have a 1 on 1 meeting with my boss scheduled this Thursday. Time for my official warning ig. 🥴
School e-mailed me back and the offer I was given for changing up my studies was better than I expected.
December 10, 2025 at 2:08 PM
School e-mailed me back and the offer I was given for changing up my studies was better than I expected.
I always use sleep meds as a kind of last resort, cuz I hate how groggy they make me feel the next morning. But I already feel my jaw unclenching a bit, so perhaps worth it this time.
December 9, 2025 at 7:37 PM
I always use sleep meds as a kind of last resort, cuz I hate how groggy they make me feel the next morning. But I already feel my jaw unclenching a bit, so perhaps worth it this time.
Hope therapy tomorrow gives me something to hold on to.
Therapist was absent last week for training, and things are dire.
Really my biggest problem is that I just. Back myself into these burnout anxiety corners.
Therapist was absent last week for training, and things are dire.
Really my biggest problem is that I just. Back myself into these burnout anxiety corners.
December 9, 2025 at 6:06 PM
Hope therapy tomorrow gives me something to hold on to.
Therapist was absent last week for training, and things are dire.
Really my biggest problem is that I just. Back myself into these burnout anxiety corners.
Therapist was absent last week for training, and things are dire.
Really my biggest problem is that I just. Back myself into these burnout anxiety corners.
Realized there was a lecture I missed on Satuday evening, cuz I didn't notice it in my schedule and also cuz I passed the fuck out for 12+ hours after the exam that way.
How everyone else's week going.
How everyone else's week going.
December 9, 2025 at 5:49 PM
Realized there was a lecture I missed on Satuday evening, cuz I didn't notice it in my schedule and also cuz I passed the fuck out for 12+ hours after the exam that way.
How everyone else's week going.
How everyone else's week going.
I cannot properly convey just how much I'm barely holding on.
I'm like ok, but also Not Ok.
I'm like ok, but also Not Ok.
December 8, 2025 at 4:13 PM
I cannot properly convey just how much I'm barely holding on.
I'm like ok, but also Not Ok.
I'm like ok, but also Not Ok.
It's like difficult to mentally accept the care and affection when I'm like this.
But I'm eternally grateful to my friends to indulging me, talking to me, caring for me.
But I'm eternally grateful to my friends to indulging me, talking to me, caring for me.
December 8, 2025 at 2:11 PM
It's like difficult to mentally accept the care and affection when I'm like this.
But I'm eternally grateful to my friends to indulging me, talking to me, caring for me.
But I'm eternally grateful to my friends to indulging me, talking to me, caring for me.
Almost crashed out, ended up e-mailing my uni to ask if I can swap out this one course for a different one next semester.
December 8, 2025 at 1:29 PM
Almost crashed out, ended up e-mailing my uni to ask if I can swap out this one course for a different one next semester.
Exam went well yesterday. Prof was happy with my essay as well. Passed out afterwards for like 12+ hours. Still feel exhausted af. The Christmas holidays can't come soon enough. I hope I can rest up some.
The next two weeks are gonna be awful tho.... I still have so much left to do for uni. 😵💫
The next two weeks are gonna be awful tho.... I still have so much left to do for uni. 😵💫
December 7, 2025 at 2:55 PM
Exam went well yesterday. Prof was happy with my essay as well. Passed out afterwards for like 12+ hours. Still feel exhausted af. The Christmas holidays can't come soon enough. I hope I can rest up some.
The next two weeks are gonna be awful tho.... I still have so much left to do for uni. 😵💫
The next two weeks are gonna be awful tho.... I still have so much left to do for uni. 😵💫
I'm actually so upset I can't make it to the work event tomorrow. They're going to my fav billiards place, and my most tolerable co-worker even personally texted me asking if I'm going. :(
December 4, 2025 at 11:29 PM
I'm actually so upset I can't make it to the work event tomorrow. They're going to my fav billiards place, and my most tolerable co-worker even personally texted me asking if I'm going. :(
Reading symptoms of burnout like, yikes.
I'm at habitual burnout, and I think my problem is that idk how to not work myself into a burnout. Somehow I do this to myself every time.
I'm at habitual burnout, and I think my problem is that idk how to not work myself into a burnout. Somehow I do this to myself every time.
December 3, 2025 at 4:42 PM
Reading symptoms of burnout like, yikes.
I'm at habitual burnout, and I think my problem is that idk how to not work myself into a burnout. Somehow I do this to myself every time.
I'm at habitual burnout, and I think my problem is that idk how to not work myself into a burnout. Somehow I do this to myself every time.
Also answering that question about ubi the other day reminded me that all I really want is just. A basic sense of security. That I'm allowed to take a break of have a mental health crisis without it like. Costing me so much. I'm just really tired a lot.
December 2, 2025 at 6:13 PM
Also answering that question about ubi the other day reminded me that all I really want is just. A basic sense of security. That I'm allowed to take a break of have a mental health crisis without it like. Costing me so much. I'm just really tired a lot.
Gonna be super real, the way this little bongo cat game keeps drip feeding me serotonin for free cannot be understated.
December 2, 2025 at 5:57 PM
Gonna be super real, the way this little bongo cat game keeps drip feeding me serotonin for free cannot be understated.
I also have a work party event this Friday that I have to evaluate if I have the strength and time to go to. I personally enjoy going to those, and it'd be a great opportunity to socialize with my new project coworkers.
December 2, 2025 at 5:47 PM
I also have a work party event this Friday that I have to evaluate if I have the strength and time to go to. I personally enjoy going to those, and it'd be a great opportunity to socialize with my new project coworkers.
I got two exams this Saturday, and some schoolwork I gotta get done till then too. All doable. But I have to marvel how like... little drive or sense of urgency I feel compared to when I was younger. I've done truly herculean efforts of academic effort in the past.
December 2, 2025 at 5:38 PM
I got two exams this Saturday, and some schoolwork I gotta get done till then too. All doable. But I have to marvel how like... little drive or sense of urgency I feel compared to when I was younger. I've done truly herculean efforts of academic effort in the past.
Put in an off day request for tomorrow.
No particular reason other than.
idk man. Burn out is terrible.
Mad up an excuse for it that should be sufficient.
No particular reason other than.
idk man. Burn out is terrible.
Mad up an excuse for it that should be sufficient.
November 23, 2025 at 7:27 PM
Put in an off day request for tomorrow.
No particular reason other than.
idk man. Burn out is terrible.
Mad up an excuse for it that should be sufficient.
No particular reason other than.
idk man. Burn out is terrible.
Mad up an excuse for it that should be sufficient.
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people need to start getting mad when people imply women only play cozy games. they're putting you into the domestic labour class even in video games bro.
November 21, 2025 at 5:46 PM
people need to start getting mad when people imply women only play cozy games. they're putting you into the domestic labour class even in video games bro.