tiac
@knockforaloop.bsky.social
▫️ she/her - millennial north american dyke
▫️ poetry, pain, sex, sky photos
▫️ here to make friends 🌻
▫️ https://archiveofourown.org/users/tiac (culturally fandom but not currently practicing)
▫️ poetry, pain, sex, sky photos
▫️ here to make friends 🌻
▫️ https://archiveofourown.org/users/tiac (culturally fandom but not currently practicing)
Life! Family, tooth pain, plumbing disasters. I'm close to the edge, in a gentle sustained way. Like glamping near the cliff I have mapped well in the last years. 🏕️ Love being in therapy again. I wanna dish about the therapist I did NOT keep, whose polycule I learned way too much about in 2 sessions
July 21, 2025 at 7:14 PM
Life! Family, tooth pain, plumbing disasters. I'm close to the edge, in a gentle sustained way. Like glamping near the cliff I have mapped well in the last years. 🏕️ Love being in therapy again. I wanna dish about the therapist I did NOT keep, whose polycule I learned way too much about in 2 sessions
Right now my life feels intensely like one of these 🧩🖼️. I'm mentally assembling it 24/7 and failing and starting over which makes it hard to focus on other stuff like Emails. Or sometimes Emails and Teaching and Dishes are blessed temporary relief!
May 19, 2025 at 2:08 PM
Right now my life feels intensely like one of these 🧩🖼️. I'm mentally assembling it 24/7 and failing and starting over which makes it hard to focus on other stuff like Emails. Or sometimes Emails and Teaching and Dishes are blessed temporary relief!
Well, wait. Sick gift, the fight finds you. 💣
May 7, 2025 at 1:23 AM
Well, wait. Sick gift, the fight finds you. 💣
W/ a lot of slow focused work I am finally getting a good grade in interoception 🧑🎓🫁 & today I suddenly could translate the decades-long sensation of my Tiac Knee Pain-- the mysterious, powerful, consistent companion of my entire adulthood-- into patellar instability. OK! Damn!
May 2, 2025 at 2:19 PM
W/ a lot of slow focused work I am finally getting a good grade in interoception 🧑🎓🫁 & today I suddenly could translate the decades-long sensation of my Tiac Knee Pain-- the mysterious, powerful, consistent companion of my entire adulthood-- into patellar instability. OK! Damn!
Having a body: brutal, sustaining, a a strange loop of death and growth. 🪞🔨🪦🎈 This week I absorbed a new medical emergency which requires surgery I associate with senescence not middle age. And also a lesson with my coach that navigated my broken handstand thru 🪨 and 🧜♀️ to a painless, virtuosic line.
April 3, 2025 at 3:38 PM
Having a body: brutal, sustaining, a a strange loop of death and growth. 🪞🔨🪦🎈 This week I absorbed a new medical emergency which requires surgery I associate with senescence not middle age. And also a lesson with my coach that navigated my broken handstand thru 🪨 and 🧜♀️ to a painless, virtuosic line.
I ask you to pin me to the wall and count each butterfly scale. Put me in a locket on your chain.
March 3, 2025 at 9:43 PM
I ask you to pin me to the wall and count each butterfly scale. Put me in a locket on your chain.
intricate intimacies can include fisting & choking & also ur babe giving u the login for their livejournal from 15 years ago so u can read the private thoughts about the love & sex & work & growth they were experiencing back then under a different name & pronouns 💎⛏️⏳📬
February 23, 2025 at 11:53 PM
intricate intimacies can include fisting & choking & also ur babe giving u the login for their livejournal from 15 years ago so u can read the private thoughts about the love & sex & work & growth they were experiencing back then under a different name & pronouns 💎⛏️⏳📬
Babe, build a house in my rib cage. The warm passageway down through a puddle, where fingerprint becomes world map, spark becomes lake. Your textbook contains me. A warm silo, short lease, heavy gift, cathedral of bone. 🖐️🗺️🌑
February 6, 2025 at 3:29 PM
Babe, build a house in my rib cage. The warm passageway down through a puddle, where fingerprint becomes world map, spark becomes lake. Your textbook contains me. A warm silo, short lease, heavy gift, cathedral of bone. 🖐️🗺️🌑
I try so hard to stay on the racetrack. 🌖🌗🌘 January's alive but bitter. A narrow bridge of stiff clouds. The frozen entrails of a ripped-open squirrel belly. Scent of strangers - bubblegum, cumin - framed and hanging in the chilly air. A cat's claws dig into my shoulders. I am still here.
January 30, 2025 at 2:19 PM
I try so hard to stay on the racetrack. 🌖🌗🌘 January's alive but bitter. A narrow bridge of stiff clouds. The frozen entrails of a ripped-open squirrel belly. Scent of strangers - bubblegum, cumin - framed and hanging in the chilly air. A cat's claws dig into my shoulders. I am still here.
I really love coaching private lessons. It is just fucking nuts to me that this & sex work are considered different worlds. I just met a new client, learned their goals & needs, touched their body intimately, told them what to do, gave them loving attention & care, brought them joy, & got paid
January 18, 2025 at 4:54 PM
I really love coaching private lessons. It is just fucking nuts to me that this & sex work are considered different worlds. I just met a new client, learned their goals & needs, touched their body intimately, told them what to do, gave them loving attention & care, brought them joy, & got paid
It is so good to skate across the dark ice with a partner who matches my speed. Thunderclap, climber, a bouquet of spikes. A mirror that holds both of us. Go on, tell me what's next.
December 31, 2024 at 6:08 AM
It is so good to skate across the dark ice with a partner who matches my speed. Thunderclap, climber, a bouquet of spikes. A mirror that holds both of us. Go on, tell me what's next.
does the internet show up in your dreams? for me it is either represented by not being able to successfully load google maps on my phone, or by a dense and eclectic stack of handwritten papers
December 30, 2024 at 9:53 PM
does the internet show up in your dreams? for me it is either represented by not being able to successfully load google maps on my phone, or by a dense and eclectic stack of handwritten papers
ok musical extroverts/babes on Spotify, I wanna know ur top 20 songs from 2024, put em here: open.spotify.com/playlist/2DS...
babes not on Spotify, I respect ur ethics and wanna know what ur most-listened-to song was this year. mine was act music as usual 💅
babes not on Spotify, I respect ur ethics and wanna know what ur most-listened-to song was this year. mine was act music as usual 💅
👁️ ur top songs 2024
open.spotify.com
December 5, 2024 at 3:52 PM
ok musical extroverts/babes on Spotify, I wanna know ur top 20 songs from 2024, put em here: open.spotify.com/playlist/2DS...
babes not on Spotify, I respect ur ethics and wanna know what ur most-listened-to song was this year. mine was act music as usual 💅
babes not on Spotify, I respect ur ethics and wanna know what ur most-listened-to song was this year. mine was act music as usual 💅
textures in November sunlight & good solitude that pierces all the way down 🥀
November 30, 2024 at 8:54 PM
textures in November sunlight & good solitude that pierces all the way down 🥀
the more I understand myself thru a PDA personality lens (www.drdonnahenderson.com/post/grow-yo...) the more powerful it gets. today I realized I can't learn movement/meditation from a yoga teacher cuz I can't engage w second-person narration that tells me what I'm thinking and feeling 🙄
PDA: Not what you think it is!
Let's talk about the concept of Pathological Demand Avoidance (PDA), though I prefer Tomlin Wilding's interpretation: Pervasive Drive for Autonomy. I prefer this name because it is less judgmental, but also because it focuses less on demand avoidance (which can be caused by an endless number of things) and more on the core issue: the drive for autonomy. PDA is not a formal diagnosis in the DSM-5 or ICD-10, and it is not well known in the U.S., though it is widely acknowledged in the U.K. The cor
www.drdonnahenderson.com
November 28, 2024 at 8:35 PM
the more I understand myself thru a PDA personality lens (www.drdonnahenderson.com/post/grow-yo...) the more powerful it gets. today I realized I can't learn movement/meditation from a yoga teacher cuz I can't engage w second-person narration that tells me what I'm thinking and feeling 🙄
what I can't find on bsky is the text performance bots. not just quote generators but the bot that tweeted every English word, two per day; or the bot that perused stranger's posts to retweet rhyming iambic pentameter; or the abstract ascii art generators. the starfish of our ocean floor!
November 26, 2024 at 12:08 AM
what I can't find on bsky is the text performance bots. not just quote generators but the bot that tweeted every English word, two per day; or the bot that perused stranger's posts to retweet rhyming iambic pentameter; or the abstract ascii art generators. the starfish of our ocean floor!
I've been working w my coach on a range that puts my knees in a vulnerable position and last week for the first time ever I felt my FEAR about the position and my SENSATION in the position as two separate experiences - like icing and cake - instead of one blended overwhelm 🍰🔪
November 24, 2024 at 1:46 PM
I've been working w my coach on a range that puts my knees in a vulnerable position and last week for the first time ever I felt my FEAR about the position and my SENSATION in the position as two separate experiences - like icing and cake - instead of one blended overwhelm 🍰🔪
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the way ppl who work in ice cream parlors get tired of ice cream--that's me as a poet. I'm sick of noticing things
November 18, 2024 at 1:28 PM
the way ppl who work in ice cream parlors get tired of ice cream--that's me as a poet. I'm sick of noticing things
Want to tunnel
back to the moment. Want to
be held inside the membrane,
the trip before fall. Brilliant
yellow leaf before it lets go.
Seedling before branch, bean
before sprout. Body before
decompose. Before heartbeat.
Before bone, before breaking bone.
Before I bit the fruit, worm already in. 🍂
back to the moment. Want to
be held inside the membrane,
the trip before fall. Brilliant
yellow leaf before it lets go.
Seedling before branch, bean
before sprout. Body before
decompose. Before heartbeat.
Before bone, before breaking bone.
Before I bit the fruit, worm already in. 🍂
November 14, 2024 at 4:50 PM
Want to tunnel
back to the moment. Want to
be held inside the membrane,
the trip before fall. Brilliant
yellow leaf before it lets go.
Seedling before branch, bean
before sprout. Body before
decompose. Before heartbeat.
Before bone, before breaking bone.
Before I bit the fruit, worm already in. 🍂
back to the moment. Want to
be held inside the membrane,
the trip before fall. Brilliant
yellow leaf before it lets go.
Seedling before branch, bean
before sprout. Body before
decompose. Before heartbeat.
Before bone, before breaking bone.
Before I bit the fruit, worm already in. 🍂
The ground wets its parched lips. Your insides are my outsides, a looping build which slams the breath out of me.
November 12, 2024 at 3:20 PM
The ground wets its parched lips. Your insides are my outsides, a looping build which slams the breath out of me.
Met a trio of new students last night, so joyful! My teaching self is warm and confident and exuberantly celebratory, it's a pleasure to travel into that space. Getting to hold people's bodies and introduce them to something that is going to feel impossible, good, exciting, and new to them is 💐🤸💐
November 9, 2024 at 4:13 PM
Met a trio of new students last night, so joyful! My teaching self is warm and confident and exuberantly celebratory, it's a pleasure to travel into that space. Getting to hold people's bodies and introduce them to something that is going to feel impossible, good, exciting, and new to them is 💐🤸💐
my bumper sticker says "keep honking, I'm photographing the sunset"
November 7, 2024 at 2:25 AM
my bumper sticker says "keep honking, I'm photographing the sunset"
GOD I badly reinjured myself while fucking trick-or-treating. My tragedies are stupid. 🍬🩼🙄 Commuting today was an unspeakable mountain.
But I can still access this bubble of calm focus and intention: harder than either ignoring pain or giving into it. Channel 🗡️ into action. Ow. Okay.
But I can still access this bubble of calm focus and intention: harder than either ignoring pain or giving into it. Channel 🗡️ into action. Ow. Okay.
I left able to gingerly walk. Held that 🫧 of peace & healed enough to perform 3 days later. So much nuance between rest & overwork! Astonishing for a chronic pain babe whose lifelong strategy was turning off my needs like an over-loud radio. I want to keep this portal open for the rest of my life.
November 1, 2024 at 1:45 PM
GOD I badly reinjured myself while fucking trick-or-treating. My tragedies are stupid. 🍬🩼🙄 Commuting today was an unspeakable mountain.
But I can still access this bubble of calm focus and intention: harder than either ignoring pain or giving into it. Channel 🗡️ into action. Ow. Okay.
But I can still access this bubble of calm focus and intention: harder than either ignoring pain or giving into it. Channel 🗡️ into action. Ow. Okay.
last week my coach & I processed my ankle sprain almost exactly like psychotherapy would process emotional trauma - de-escalating the thicket of compensatory patterns in the rest of my body, approaching the precise injury like a sleeping dragon. gentle mobilization, curiosity without demand. 🐉🤲
October 22, 2024 at 2:41 PM
last week my coach & I processed my ankle sprain almost exactly like psychotherapy would process emotional trauma - de-escalating the thicket of compensatory patterns in the rest of my body, approaching the precise injury like a sleeping dragon. gentle mobilization, curiosity without demand. 🐉🤲