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kay operating system
they/he/whatevs
often unclothed 🔞
often stoned 🍁
disabled creative
shaped and informed by trauma
SA and RA survivor
discord: mutuals only (dm)
/æ.'wu/
they/he/whatevs
often unclothed 🔞
often stoned 🍁
disabled creative
shaped and informed by trauma
SA and RA survivor
discord: mutuals only (dm)
/æ.'wu/
come over, i'll take it off for free, and we can be sleepy together
November 13, 2025 at 12:50 AM
come over, i'll take it off for free, and we can be sleepy together
i'm confident in who i am, even if i'm still figuring out who i am. i understand my gender and my sexuality, but know that i don't understand the difference between platonic and romantic love
also, i'm a furry. yeah. figured that out along the way
also, i'm a furry. yeah. figured that out along the way
November 13, 2025 at 12:15 AM
i'm confident in who i am, even if i'm still figuring out who i am. i understand my gender and my sexuality, but know that i don't understand the difference between platonic and romantic love
also, i'm a furry. yeah. figured that out along the way
also, i'm a furry. yeah. figured that out along the way
i have two romantic partners. i do not currently have the capacity for any additional romantic relationships. however, i need socialization and enrichment, so i am open to making new friends and dating established friends. however, i will not be asking anyone out until i've been in therapy a bit
November 13, 2025 at 12:08 AM
i have two romantic partners. i do not currently have the capacity for any additional romantic relationships. however, i need socialization and enrichment, so i am open to making new friends and dating established friends. however, i will not be asking anyone out until i've been in therapy a bit
i'm going to skip ahead to today
my tranniversary is a tough day for me. on this day, i remember everything that shaped me since those first two little pills
all the pain, the loss, the anguish
worth it for being free of my abusers, confident in who i am, and focused on healing
"happy" 6 years
my tranniversary is a tough day for me. on this day, i remember everything that shaped me since those first two little pills
all the pain, the loss, the anguish
worth it for being free of my abusers, confident in who i am, and focused on healing
"happy" 6 years
November 13, 2025 at 12:02 AM
i'm going to skip ahead to today
my tranniversary is a tough day for me. on this day, i remember everything that shaped me since those first two little pills
all the pain, the loss, the anguish
worth it for being free of my abusers, confident in who i am, and focused on healing
"happy" 6 years
my tranniversary is a tough day for me. on this day, i remember everything that shaped me since those first two little pills
all the pain, the loss, the anguish
worth it for being free of my abusers, confident in who i am, and focused on healing
"happy" 6 years
december 2024
i have quit my job to focus on my healing
my new boyf gives me less than 24 hours heads-up that he's fleeing his other partner
i have quit my job to focus on my healing
my new boyf gives me less than 24 hours heads-up that he's fleeing his other partner
November 12, 2025 at 11:56 PM
december 2024
i have quit my job to focus on my healing
my new boyf gives me less than 24 hours heads-up that he's fleeing his other partner
i have quit my job to focus on my healing
my new boyf gives me less than 24 hours heads-up that he's fleeing his other partner
october 2024
i started to experience freedom for the first time
and quickly get myself into a new relationship
"this is so not a rebound" i told myself
it was worse
i started to experience freedom for the first time
and quickly get myself into a new relationship
"this is so not a rebound" i told myself
it was worse
November 12, 2025 at 11:56 PM
october 2024
i started to experience freedom for the first time
and quickly get myself into a new relationship
"this is so not a rebound" i told myself
it was worse
i started to experience freedom for the first time
and quickly get myself into a new relationship
"this is so not a rebound" i told myself
it was worse
september 2024
in the er after having a severe reaction to the covid and flu vaccines for the year
i haven't felt well since then
in the er after having a severe reaction to the covid and flu vaccines for the year
i haven't felt well since then
November 12, 2025 at 11:56 PM
september 2024
in the er after having a severe reaction to the covid and flu vaccines for the year
i haven't felt well since then
in the er after having a severe reaction to the covid and flu vaccines for the year
i haven't felt well since then
haven't celebrated since i moved from albuquerque, sadly
November 12, 2025 at 11:37 PM
haven't celebrated since i moved from albuquerque, sadly
july 2024
goodbye anya. and goodbye to almost the entire community she and i were a part of
i stood up to my abusers. i was free
but wounded. and fragile. and scared
goodbye anya. and goodbye to almost the entire community she and i were a part of
i stood up to my abusers. i was free
but wounded. and fragile. and scared
November 12, 2025 at 11:35 PM
july 2024
goodbye anya. and goodbye to almost the entire community she and i were a part of
i stood up to my abusers. i was free
but wounded. and fragile. and scared
goodbye anya. and goodbye to almost the entire community she and i were a part of
i stood up to my abusers. i was free
but wounded. and fragile. and scared
june 2024
covid again
this time, it's a curiosity. i was only going out at most once a week, masked the entire time. otherwise i was in bed recovering
but anya went to work everyday
and often posted selfies from work
unmasked
covid again
this time, it's a curiosity. i was only going out at most once a week, masked the entire time. otherwise i was in bed recovering
but anya went to work everyday
and often posted selfies from work
unmasked
November 12, 2025 at 11:35 PM
june 2024
covid again
this time, it's a curiosity. i was only going out at most once a week, masked the entire time. otherwise i was in bed recovering
but anya went to work everyday
and often posted selfies from work
unmasked
covid again
this time, it's a curiosity. i was only going out at most once a week, masked the entire time. otherwise i was in bed recovering
but anya went to work everyday
and often posted selfies from work
unmasked
april 30, 2024
taco tuesday
iykyk
taco tuesday
iykyk
November 12, 2025 at 11:35 PM
april 30, 2024
taco tuesday
iykyk
taco tuesday
iykyk
this photo is the day after anya fought with me about their unaired beef with artie at the dinner table for my birthday dinner
anya had begun discarding me after she started to stalk a queer fitness coach friend and got them to agree to date her
anya had begun discarding me after she started to stalk a queer fitness coach friend and got them to agree to date her
November 12, 2025 at 11:35 PM
this photo is the day after anya fought with me about their unaired beef with artie at the dinner table for my birthday dinner
anya had begun discarding me after she started to stalk a queer fitness coach friend and got them to agree to date her
anya had begun discarding me after she started to stalk a queer fitness coach friend and got them to agree to date her
october 2023
i drive a moving truck containing anya's belongings and drive from massachusetts to queens, having a panic attack that lasts until stamford, connecticut
i do this because it is expected of me, apparently being the only queer in existence with truck driving experience
i drive a moving truck containing anya's belongings and drive from massachusetts to queens, having a panic attack that lasts until stamford, connecticut
i do this because it is expected of me, apparently being the only queer in existence with truck driving experience
November 12, 2025 at 11:35 PM
october 2023
i drive a moving truck containing anya's belongings and drive from massachusetts to queens, having a panic attack that lasts until stamford, connecticut
i do this because it is expected of me, apparently being the only queer in existence with truck driving experience
i drive a moving truck containing anya's belongings and drive from massachusetts to queens, having a panic attack that lasts until stamford, connecticut
i do this because it is expected of me, apparently being the only queer in existence with truck driving experience
i look forward to digging into it with a supportive partner by my side
November 12, 2025 at 11:17 PM
i look forward to digging into it with a supportive partner by my side
that summer we began very strongly exploring the fluidity of our gender
we met new people who helped us continue to refine our concept of gender
this was also about the time we learned about being platoniromantic
our understanding of ourself was shooting forward
we met new people who helped us continue to refine our concept of gender
this was also about the time we learned about being platoniromantic
our understanding of ourself was shooting forward
November 12, 2025 at 11:04 PM
that summer we began very strongly exploring the fluidity of our gender
we met new people who helped us continue to refine our concept of gender
this was also about the time we learned about being platoniromantic
our understanding of ourself was shooting forward
we met new people who helped us continue to refine our concept of gender
this was also about the time we learned about being platoniromantic
our understanding of ourself was shooting forward
summer 2023
after six months of being treated like i was disposable, i finally stood up to claire and josie and broke up with them. josie immediately started claiming that i'd abused them. i lost a lot of people from my life that day
after six months of being treated like i was disposable, i finally stood up to claire and josie and broke up with them. josie immediately started claiming that i'd abused them. i lost a lot of people from my life that day
November 12, 2025 at 11:04 PM
summer 2023
after six months of being treated like i was disposable, i finally stood up to claire and josie and broke up with them. josie immediately started claiming that i'd abused them. i lost a lot of people from my life that day
after six months of being treated like i was disposable, i finally stood up to claire and josie and broke up with them. josie immediately started claiming that i'd abused them. i lost a lot of people from my life that day
by november 2022, my divorce is finalized and i'm starting to feel like myself. well, ourself. we figured out we're plural in late 2022
November 12, 2025 at 11:04 PM
by november 2022, my divorce is finalized and i'm starting to feel like myself. well, ourself. we figured out we're plural in late 2022
wishlisted. might need that once i've healed a bit first
November 12, 2025 at 10:49 PM
wishlisted. might need that once i've healed a bit first
in june 2022, i packed up what belongings i'd been able to collect from my former home and moved to nyc to live with artie
November 12, 2025 at 10:45 PM
in june 2022, i packed up what belongings i'd been able to collect from my former home and moved to nyc to live with artie
it didn't take long after getting away from my ex-wife before i began to reexplore and reevaluate the fluidity of my gender
i began using she/they pronouns
i began using she/they pronouns
November 12, 2025 at 10:45 PM
it didn't take long after getting away from my ex-wife before i began to reexplore and reevaluate the fluidity of my gender
i began using she/they pronouns
i began using she/they pronouns
immediately upon my return to anya's apartment, reality pistol-whipped me with covid
November 12, 2025 at 10:45 PM
immediately upon my return to anya's apartment, reality pistol-whipped me with covid
in january 2022, artie flew me out to seattle for a week so i could get a break from life. we relaxed together and they learned that it's dangerous to give me beecher's cheese curd in the middle of the road. i also learned that the climate pledge arena is a fortress when it's not a game day
November 12, 2025 at 10:45 PM
in january 2022, artie flew me out to seattle for a week so i could get a break from life. we relaxed together and they learned that it's dangerous to give me beecher's cheese curd in the middle of the road. i also learned that the climate pledge arena is a fortress when it's not a game day
december 2021
my spouse tells me that we're done. no clear explanation why, just that it's not working out. i pack some bags and drive to anya's. i would later find out she had a problem with polyamory but refused to talk to me about it
(healing seafood bisque)
my spouse tells me that we're done. no clear explanation why, just that it's not working out. i pack some bags and drive to anya's. i would later find out she had a problem with polyamory but refused to talk to me about it
(healing seafood bisque)
November 12, 2025 at 10:28 PM
december 2021
my spouse tells me that we're done. no clear explanation why, just that it's not working out. i pack some bags and drive to anya's. i would later find out she had a problem with polyamory but refused to talk to me about it
(healing seafood bisque)
my spouse tells me that we're done. no clear explanation why, just that it's not working out. i pack some bags and drive to anya's. i would later find out she had a problem with polyamory but refused to talk to me about it
(healing seafood bisque)
october 2021
i was raped by three of my partners during a halloween weekend gathering
upon returning home to my spouse, i was told that she didn't want to hear about my time with my other partners at all
artie was appalled at what happened
to keep the peace, i pretended it wasn't a big deal
i was raped by three of my partners during a halloween weekend gathering
upon returning home to my spouse, i was told that she didn't want to hear about my time with my other partners at all
artie was appalled at what happened
to keep the peace, i pretended it wasn't a big deal
November 12, 2025 at 10:28 PM
october 2021
i was raped by three of my partners during a halloween weekend gathering
upon returning home to my spouse, i was told that she didn't want to hear about my time with my other partners at all
artie was appalled at what happened
to keep the peace, i pretended it wasn't a big deal
i was raped by three of my partners during a halloween weekend gathering
upon returning home to my spouse, i was told that she didn't want to hear about my time with my other partners at all
artie was appalled at what happened
to keep the peace, i pretended it wasn't a big deal