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@kayos.xyz
kay operating system
they/he/whatevs
often unclothed 🔞
often stoned 🍁
disabled creative
shaped and informed by trauma
SA and RA survivor
discord: mutuals only (dm)
/æ.'wu/
they/he/whatevs
often unclothed 🔞
often stoned 🍁
disabled creative
shaped and informed by trauma
SA and RA survivor
discord: mutuals only (dm)
/æ.'wu/
is it strange that sometimes i'm comforted by the fact i can clearly make out some of the more subtle shapes of my skull in selfies?
November 13, 2025 at 7:24 PM
is it strange that sometimes i'm comforted by the fact i can clearly make out some of the more subtle shapes of my skull in selfies?
Without downloading any new pics, describe your gender
November 13, 2025 at 5:51 PM
Without downloading any new pics, describe your gender
got a new mask
need a new masc
need a new masc
November 13, 2025 at 4:36 PM
got a new mask
need a new masc
need a new masc
looks like it's an insomnia night
ask me anything, i guess?
ngl.link/kayos.xyz
(this is a rare photo where i look at my face and think, "aw, he's kinda cute")
ask me anything, i guess?
ngl.link/kayos.xyz
(this is a rare photo where i look at my face and think, "aw, he's kinda cute")
November 13, 2025 at 6:52 AM
looks like it's an insomnia night
ask me anything, i guess?
ngl.link/kayos.xyz
(this is a rare photo where i look at my face and think, "aw, he's kinda cute")
ask me anything, i guess?
ngl.link/kayos.xyz
(this is a rare photo where i look at my face and think, "aw, he's kinda cute")
took a heavy duty sleeping pill, put on some classic comedy, and got my kindle loaded up
it's bed time, blueskies. sweet dreams
help me wake up to good news?
venom and cashapp: truekayos
it's bed time, blueskies. sweet dreams
help me wake up to good news?
venom and cashapp: truekayos
November 13, 2025 at 5:34 AM
took a heavy duty sleeping pill, put on some classic comedy, and got my kindle loaded up
it's bed time, blueskies. sweet dreams
help me wake up to good news?
venom and cashapp: truekayos
it's bed time, blueskies. sweet dreams
help me wake up to good news?
venom and cashapp: truekayos
i'm going to skip ahead to today
my tranniversary is a tough day for me. on this day, i remember everything that shaped me since those first two little pills
all the pain, the loss, the anguish
worth it for being free of my abusers, confident in who i am, and focused on healing
"happy" 6 years
my tranniversary is a tough day for me. on this day, i remember everything that shaped me since those first two little pills
all the pain, the loss, the anguish
worth it for being free of my abusers, confident in who i am, and focused on healing
"happy" 6 years
November 13, 2025 at 12:02 AM
i'm going to skip ahead to today
my tranniversary is a tough day for me. on this day, i remember everything that shaped me since those first two little pills
all the pain, the loss, the anguish
worth it for being free of my abusers, confident in who i am, and focused on healing
"happy" 6 years
my tranniversary is a tough day for me. on this day, i remember everything that shaped me since those first two little pills
all the pain, the loss, the anguish
worth it for being free of my abusers, confident in who i am, and focused on healing
"happy" 6 years
december 2024
i have quit my job to focus on my healing
my new boyf gives me less than 24 hours heads-up that he's fleeing his other partner
i have quit my job to focus on my healing
my new boyf gives me less than 24 hours heads-up that he's fleeing his other partner
November 12, 2025 at 11:56 PM
december 2024
i have quit my job to focus on my healing
my new boyf gives me less than 24 hours heads-up that he's fleeing his other partner
i have quit my job to focus on my healing
my new boyf gives me less than 24 hours heads-up that he's fleeing his other partner
october 2024
i started to experience freedom for the first time
and quickly get myself into a new relationship
"this is so not a rebound" i told myself
it was worse
i started to experience freedom for the first time
and quickly get myself into a new relationship
"this is so not a rebound" i told myself
it was worse
November 12, 2025 at 11:56 PM
october 2024
i started to experience freedom for the first time
and quickly get myself into a new relationship
"this is so not a rebound" i told myself
it was worse
i started to experience freedom for the first time
and quickly get myself into a new relationship
"this is so not a rebound" i told myself
it was worse
september 2024
in the er after having a severe reaction to the covid and flu vaccines for the year
i haven't felt well since then
in the er after having a severe reaction to the covid and flu vaccines for the year
i haven't felt well since then
November 12, 2025 at 11:56 PM
september 2024
in the er after having a severe reaction to the covid and flu vaccines for the year
i haven't felt well since then
in the er after having a severe reaction to the covid and flu vaccines for the year
i haven't felt well since then
july 2024
goodbye anya. and goodbye to almost the entire community she and i were a part of
i stood up to my abusers. i was free
but wounded. and fragile. and scared
goodbye anya. and goodbye to almost the entire community she and i were a part of
i stood up to my abusers. i was free
but wounded. and fragile. and scared
November 12, 2025 at 11:35 PM
july 2024
goodbye anya. and goodbye to almost the entire community she and i were a part of
i stood up to my abusers. i was free
but wounded. and fragile. and scared
goodbye anya. and goodbye to almost the entire community she and i were a part of
i stood up to my abusers. i was free
but wounded. and fragile. and scared
june 2024
covid again
this time, it's a curiosity. i was only going out at most once a week, masked the entire time. otherwise i was in bed recovering
but anya went to work everyday
and often posted selfies from work
unmasked
covid again
this time, it's a curiosity. i was only going out at most once a week, masked the entire time. otherwise i was in bed recovering
but anya went to work everyday
and often posted selfies from work
unmasked
November 12, 2025 at 11:35 PM
june 2024
covid again
this time, it's a curiosity. i was only going out at most once a week, masked the entire time. otherwise i was in bed recovering
but anya went to work everyday
and often posted selfies from work
unmasked
covid again
this time, it's a curiosity. i was only going out at most once a week, masked the entire time. otherwise i was in bed recovering
but anya went to work everyday
and often posted selfies from work
unmasked
april 30, 2024
taco tuesday
iykyk
taco tuesday
iykyk
November 12, 2025 at 11:35 PM
april 30, 2024
taco tuesday
iykyk
taco tuesday
iykyk
this photo is the day after anya fought with me about their unaired beef with artie at the dinner table for my birthday dinner
anya had begun discarding me after she started to stalk a queer fitness coach friend and got them to agree to date her
anya had begun discarding me after she started to stalk a queer fitness coach friend and got them to agree to date her
November 12, 2025 at 11:35 PM
this photo is the day after anya fought with me about their unaired beef with artie at the dinner table for my birthday dinner
anya had begun discarding me after she started to stalk a queer fitness coach friend and got them to agree to date her
anya had begun discarding me after she started to stalk a queer fitness coach friend and got them to agree to date her
october 2023
i drive a moving truck containing anya's belongings and drive from massachusetts to queens, having a panic attack that lasts until stamford, connecticut
i do this because it is expected of me, apparently being the only queer in existence with truck driving experience
i drive a moving truck containing anya's belongings and drive from massachusetts to queens, having a panic attack that lasts until stamford, connecticut
i do this because it is expected of me, apparently being the only queer in existence with truck driving experience
November 12, 2025 at 11:35 PM
october 2023
i drive a moving truck containing anya's belongings and drive from massachusetts to queens, having a panic attack that lasts until stamford, connecticut
i do this because it is expected of me, apparently being the only queer in existence with truck driving experience
i drive a moving truck containing anya's belongings and drive from massachusetts to queens, having a panic attack that lasts until stamford, connecticut
i do this because it is expected of me, apparently being the only queer in existence with truck driving experience
that summer we began very strongly exploring the fluidity of our gender
we met new people who helped us continue to refine our concept of gender
this was also about the time we learned about being platoniromantic
our understanding of ourself was shooting forward
we met new people who helped us continue to refine our concept of gender
this was also about the time we learned about being platoniromantic
our understanding of ourself was shooting forward
November 12, 2025 at 11:04 PM
that summer we began very strongly exploring the fluidity of our gender
we met new people who helped us continue to refine our concept of gender
this was also about the time we learned about being platoniromantic
our understanding of ourself was shooting forward
we met new people who helped us continue to refine our concept of gender
this was also about the time we learned about being platoniromantic
our understanding of ourself was shooting forward
summer 2023
after six months of being treated like i was disposable, i finally stood up to claire and josie and broke up with them. josie immediately started claiming that i'd abused them. i lost a lot of people from my life that day
after six months of being treated like i was disposable, i finally stood up to claire and josie and broke up with them. josie immediately started claiming that i'd abused them. i lost a lot of people from my life that day
November 12, 2025 at 11:04 PM
summer 2023
after six months of being treated like i was disposable, i finally stood up to claire and josie and broke up with them. josie immediately started claiming that i'd abused them. i lost a lot of people from my life that day
after six months of being treated like i was disposable, i finally stood up to claire and josie and broke up with them. josie immediately started claiming that i'd abused them. i lost a lot of people from my life that day
by november 2022, my divorce is finalized and i'm starting to feel like myself. well, ourself. we figured out we're plural in late 2022
November 12, 2025 at 11:04 PM
by november 2022, my divorce is finalized and i'm starting to feel like myself. well, ourself. we figured out we're plural in late 2022
in june 2022, i packed up what belongings i'd been able to collect from my former home and moved to nyc to live with artie
November 12, 2025 at 10:45 PM
in june 2022, i packed up what belongings i'd been able to collect from my former home and moved to nyc to live with artie
it didn't take long after getting away from my ex-wife before i began to reexplore and reevaluate the fluidity of my gender
i began using she/they pronouns
i began using she/they pronouns
November 12, 2025 at 10:45 PM
it didn't take long after getting away from my ex-wife before i began to reexplore and reevaluate the fluidity of my gender
i began using she/they pronouns
i began using she/they pronouns
immediately upon my return to anya's apartment, reality pistol-whipped me with covid
November 12, 2025 at 10:45 PM
immediately upon my return to anya's apartment, reality pistol-whipped me with covid
in january 2022, artie flew me out to seattle for a week so i could get a break from life. we relaxed together and they learned that it's dangerous to give me beecher's cheese curd in the middle of the road. i also learned that the climate pledge arena is a fortress when it's not a game day
November 12, 2025 at 10:45 PM
in january 2022, artie flew me out to seattle for a week so i could get a break from life. we relaxed together and they learned that it's dangerous to give me beecher's cheese curd in the middle of the road. i also learned that the climate pledge arena is a fortress when it's not a game day
december 2021
my spouse tells me that we're done. no clear explanation why, just that it's not working out. i pack some bags and drive to anya's. i would later find out she had a problem with polyamory but refused to talk to me about it
(healing seafood bisque)
my spouse tells me that we're done. no clear explanation why, just that it's not working out. i pack some bags and drive to anya's. i would later find out she had a problem with polyamory but refused to talk to me about it
(healing seafood bisque)
November 12, 2025 at 10:28 PM
december 2021
my spouse tells me that we're done. no clear explanation why, just that it's not working out. i pack some bags and drive to anya's. i would later find out she had a problem with polyamory but refused to talk to me about it
(healing seafood bisque)
my spouse tells me that we're done. no clear explanation why, just that it's not working out. i pack some bags and drive to anya's. i would later find out she had a problem with polyamory but refused to talk to me about it
(healing seafood bisque)
october 2021
i was raped by three of my partners during a halloween weekend gathering
upon returning home to my spouse, i was told that she didn't want to hear about my time with my other partners at all
artie was appalled at what happened
to keep the peace, i pretended it wasn't a big deal
i was raped by three of my partners during a halloween weekend gathering
upon returning home to my spouse, i was told that she didn't want to hear about my time with my other partners at all
artie was appalled at what happened
to keep the peace, i pretended it wasn't a big deal
November 12, 2025 at 10:28 PM
october 2021
i was raped by three of my partners during a halloween weekend gathering
upon returning home to my spouse, i was told that she didn't want to hear about my time with my other partners at all
artie was appalled at what happened
to keep the peace, i pretended it wasn't a big deal
i was raped by three of my partners during a halloween weekend gathering
upon returning home to my spouse, i was told that she didn't want to hear about my time with my other partners at all
artie was appalled at what happened
to keep the peace, i pretended it wasn't a big deal
september 2021
i had been releasing videos on tiktok and attracted the wrong attention with a video discussing the terms i used to describe my identity: libs of tiktok
i faced death threats and attempts at doxxing and swatting me. and a partner who decided to try to fight the twitter trolls
i had been releasing videos on tiktok and attracted the wrong attention with a video discussing the terms i used to describe my identity: libs of tiktok
i faced death threats and attempts at doxxing and swatting me. and a partner who decided to try to fight the twitter trolls
November 12, 2025 at 10:28 PM
september 2021
i had been releasing videos on tiktok and attracted the wrong attention with a video discussing the terms i used to describe my identity: libs of tiktok
i faced death threats and attempts at doxxing and swatting me. and a partner who decided to try to fight the twitter trolls
i had been releasing videos on tiktok and attracted the wrong attention with a video discussing the terms i used to describe my identity: libs of tiktok
i faced death threats and attempts at doxxing and swatting me. and a partner who decided to try to fight the twitter trolls
artie and i talked and agreed to start dating. we discussed the structure of our relationship and what the expectations were of each of us
(i posted so many selfies like this and people still thought i was a dom and a top. i'm just autistic)
(i posted so many selfies like this and people still thought i was a dom and a top. i'm just autistic)
November 12, 2025 at 10:28 PM
artie and i talked and agreed to start dating. we discussed the structure of our relationship and what the expectations were of each of us
(i posted so many selfies like this and people still thought i was a dom and a top. i'm just autistic)
(i posted so many selfies like this and people still thought i was a dom and a top. i'm just autistic)