muscles anyways just bc i lift very heavy and i walk 10k most days. with this being said i do think its different bc food cravings are really different for someone who's bigger, or even if you're just american bc tbh i dont crave foods if that makes sense and i can say no a lot easier

day 27 . . . "how do you deal with being around food?"

im not the best person to ask this bc i have a p healthy relationship with food in comparison to other ppl as far as having anorexia goes? if im hungry i'll eat and if i'm not then ok who cares but this is also just bc i know it'll go to my

day 26 . . . "what excites you the most about your ugw?"

thin thighs then lean bulking after

no worries!!! lmk what u think im super curious hehe :D

omg real

u can also just delete the app if it helps? we'll always want the best for you ❤️

( 46.2 )

its so annoyjng and goofy being low bmi 18 ish and feeling fat but im up 0.3kg probably because of my period >_>

day 25 . . . "have you ever purged?"

no and i rly dont want to it sounds super scary to me :/

also awful bc i literally have never eaten this type of food before

( 45.9 )

makes me sad that i couldn't weigh in yday bc i was probably even lighter yday but its okay a new low weight!!!

proud of u!! running is hard at first but it will get better :)

the end of the day bc i mean its not like this is a particularly safe mental illness lol.

even bmi 16 then its not a healthy desire even if im "orth" ab it. anorexia is just anorexia at the end of the day. i dont think i'll want to go lower than 16 i cant rly imagine it in the long term esp since i like working out and having a busy life but i also need to be careful ab what i want :/ at

insufferable asf which is like the worst part of it imo. anyways im also kinda hypocritical bc im very open w numbers n competitive n super conflicted ab recovery (this isnt a safe space for recovering anas at all) so like i cant say that im not problematic yk? if i want to lose until bmi 17 n maybe

also super hypocritical bc they were posting meanspo/fatspo & some rly nasty stuff then its like well how come u guys think i need to "stop having ana" just bc im unhealthier physically. nobody takes anorexia for what it actually does to u. ppl just think it makes u skinny but actually it makes u

day 24 . . . "how do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia?"

i dont support pro-ana/pro-mia at all. it was kinda eye opening for me when i joined this discord server that was like support for ed ppl but semi pro-ed. atp i was alr p close to being uw & ppl discouraged me & were so worried but its

day 23 . . . "did the media play a role in you wanting to lose weight?"

yes and no, i wouldn't say it's my primary driver of weight loss but it ambiently affects me ofc :/

journaling or taking a nap helps for me, idk how to deal with it still but im still trying my hardest, i hope you feel better soon