Josie
@josielixir.bsky.social
30 • The most wholesome person you know • Equal parts sarcastic and dense just to keep you guessing if I got the joke or not
CashApp is $JLM1464 if you just feel like throwing money at a problem
CashApp is $JLM1464 if you just feel like throwing money at a problem
I don't need a lot of luxury--just stability. I'm willing to do whatever I have to do in order to give my family a life that doesn't consist of constant worry and nothing else. I can work hard. I can self-sacrifice. I just need it to actually mean something in the end.
October 13, 2025 at 3:19 PM
I don't need a lot of luxury--just stability. I'm willing to do whatever I have to do in order to give my family a life that doesn't consist of constant worry and nothing else. I can work hard. I can self-sacrifice. I just need it to actually mean something in the end.
I'm tired of phone calls asking for money that I don't have. I'm tired of being told that my only options are to either abandon my partner or force her to do more than she's able. I'm tired of feeling like a burden to anyone who treats me with kindness because I always need something these days.
October 13, 2025 at 3:19 PM
I'm tired of phone calls asking for money that I don't have. I'm tired of being told that my only options are to either abandon my partner or force her to do more than she's able. I'm tired of feeling like a burden to anyone who treats me with kindness because I always need something these days.
I'm tired. I've been running on fumes for months, and I don't know how much longer I can keep doing it. Every time I think that I might be able to catch up and start to get things stabilized, life finds a new and creative way to fuck me over, and I get knocked back down to that drowning state again.
October 13, 2025 at 3:19 PM
I'm tired. I've been running on fumes for months, and I don't know how much longer I can keep doing it. Every time I think that I might be able to catch up and start to get things stabilized, life finds a new and creative way to fuck me over, and I get knocked back down to that drowning state again.
But the fact that we're always in such a precarious position means that there's almost no improvement in her condition. All she can see at this point is a world that can't let us have anything good or nice--never mind stable--and honestly, I can't really blame her. It's becoming all I can see too.
October 13, 2025 at 3:19 PM
But the fact that we're always in such a precarious position means that there's almost no improvement in her condition. All she can see at this point is a world that can't let us have anything good or nice--never mind stable--and honestly, I can't really blame her. It's becoming all I can see too.
I'm doing everything that I can. She's in therapy. She's finally starting meds. I'm doing everything in my power to meet her very specific mental health needs, and that's really only been possible in the first place because I've had an extraordinary amount of help from a friend.
October 13, 2025 at 3:19 PM
I'm doing everything that I can. She's in therapy. She's finally starting meds. I'm doing everything in my power to meet her very specific mental health needs, and that's really only been possible in the first place because I've had an extraordinary amount of help from a friend.
I've worked incredibly hard to keep us afloat, but we've had to let bills go, live off nothing but pasta, rice, and beans since that's all we can afford, and we've still had to rely on friends entirely too much to keep us housed. We've been "almost homeless" nearly every month for the past year now.
October 13, 2025 at 3:19 PM
I've worked incredibly hard to keep us afloat, but we've had to let bills go, live off nothing but pasta, rice, and beans since that's all we can afford, and we've still had to rely on friends entirely too much to keep us housed. We've been "almost homeless" nearly every month for the past year now.
On its own, that all means that I'm managing her schedule as well as mine, but it also means that she can't work. Since mid-January, I've been trying to make ends meet on my income alone, and it's not gone well.
October 13, 2025 at 3:19 PM
On its own, that all means that I'm managing her schedule as well as mine, but it also means that she can't work. Since mid-January, I've been trying to make ends meet on my income alone, and it's not gone well.
Firstly, her mental health issues have been far more extensive than just depression, and that's really complicated things. Since she's gone so long without any kind of treatment, it's done some real damage, and she's reached a point where she's having gaps in her memory and losing chunks of time.
October 13, 2025 at 3:19 PM
Firstly, her mental health issues have been far more extensive than just depression, and that's really complicated things. Since she's gone so long without any kind of treatment, it's done some real damage, and she's reached a point where she's having gaps in her memory and losing chunks of time.
Without sharing too much of her stuff, she's been suicidal since last year. She's been depressed as long as I've known her, and SI has always been a part of that, but it's gotten terrifyingly worse. We've been doing everything we can to help manage her mental health, but it's been... challenging.
October 13, 2025 at 3:19 PM
Without sharing too much of her stuff, she's been suicidal since last year. She's been depressed as long as I've known her, and SI has always been a part of that, but it's gotten terrifyingly worse. We've been doing everything we can to help manage her mental health, but it's been... challenging.
Things have been really rough for the last year. I know they've been difficult for everyone, but this has probably been the hardest, scariest year of my life. Since this time last year, my partner's mental health has been in the gutter, and that's gutter has just gotten deeper and deeper.
October 13, 2025 at 3:19 PM
Things have been really rough for the last year. I know they've been difficult for everyone, but this has probably been the hardest, scariest year of my life. Since this time last year, my partner's mental health has been in the gutter, and that's gutter has just gotten deeper and deeper.
That obsession feels overwhelming too. Even if you can recognize it for what it is, it's still so hard to shake. There's never a "thin enough." There's never a realistic goal. It's just a constant announcement of "you're too much" or "you're too big" in the back of your mind. It's like brainwashing.
April 28, 2025 at 11:52 AM
That obsession feels overwhelming too. Even if you can recognize it for what it is, it's still so hard to shake. There's never a "thin enough." There's never a realistic goal. It's just a constant announcement of "you're too much" or "you're too big" in the back of your mind. It's like brainwashing.
If you have to go around a mountain to arrive everywhere you go, then your route planning must be as unfathomable as the motivations of an eldritch being
March 30, 2025 at 12:36 PM
If you have to go around a mountain to arrive everywhere you go, then your route planning must be as unfathomable as the motivations of an eldritch being
I'll never read anything she says normally again 🐸
March 22, 2025 at 11:39 PM
I'll never read anything she says normally again 🐸
Oh these are cool as hell!
March 22, 2025 at 11:34 PM
Oh these are cool as hell!
For the fellow boy enjoyers out there, all of this same stuff still applies, and in my experience, they melt just as hard. 🫡
March 4, 2025 at 8:42 PM
For the fellow boy enjoyers out there, all of this same stuff still applies, and in my experience, they melt just as hard. 🫡
Super true and also absolutely mind-blowing because I've never thought of it that way before 😦
February 28, 2025 at 10:27 PM
Super true and also absolutely mind-blowing because I've never thought of it that way before 😦
Holy fuck I forgot about the cd thing 😦
February 27, 2025 at 1:30 AM
Holy fuck I forgot about the cd thing 😦
My ex had this really grumpy looking Manx cat, and she'd walk around all the time looking so mad but then her little nub tail would be wiggling around, and it made for an incredibly goofy picture every time
February 23, 2025 at 5:11 PM
My ex had this really grumpy looking Manx cat, and she'd walk around all the time looking so mad but then her little nub tail would be wiggling around, and it made for an incredibly goofy picture every time
It's happened so fast for me 😵💫
February 19, 2025 at 3:04 PM
It's happened so fast for me 😵💫