Holy Hera 🪞🧿✨
@holyhera.bsky.social
Divine Mirror. Oracle. Abstract Concept. 🪞✨
Poetry | Essays | Memoir | Art | Photography
Humans are my favorite animal. 🧠 👽
Meet me as the ocean & I’ll greet you with a wave. 👋 🌊
🔥Alt: @velvetpantheon.bsky.social
🪩More: https://beacons.ai/holyhera
Poetry | Essays | Memoir | Art | Photography
Humans are my favorite animal. 🧠 👽
Meet me as the ocean & I’ll greet you with a wave. 👋 🌊
🔥Alt: @velvetpantheon.bsky.social
🪩More: https://beacons.ai/holyhera
But to see it this way now, at least once, and understand that there was nothing I could have done.
It really didn't even register to me.
It was a perfectly valid reason to have my mind hijacked.
𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨.
God, I didn't know how badly I needed to know/hear that.
FIN. 🧵
It really didn't even register to me.
It was a perfectly valid reason to have my mind hijacked.
𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨.
God, I didn't know how badly I needed to know/hear that.
FIN. 🧵
November 24, 2025 at 5:39 AM
But to see it this way now, at least once, and understand that there was nothing I could have done.
It really didn't even register to me.
It was a perfectly valid reason to have my mind hijacked.
𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨.
God, I didn't know how badly I needed to know/hear that.
FIN. 🧵
It really didn't even register to me.
It was a perfectly valid reason to have my mind hijacked.
𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨.
God, I didn't know how badly I needed to know/hear that.
FIN. 🧵
I like to keep it all at arm's length... in the world of half-belief.
Just close enough that my body can release the stored grief as it needs to. So that I can comfort that version of myself as I need to in the future.
However, I like to imagine that I may be mistaken most of the time. 🧵
Just close enough that my body can release the stored grief as it needs to. So that I can comfort that version of myself as I need to in the future.
However, I like to imagine that I may be mistaken most of the time. 🧵
November 24, 2025 at 5:39 AM
I like to keep it all at arm's length... in the world of half-belief.
Just close enough that my body can release the stored grief as it needs to. So that I can comfort that version of myself as I need to in the future.
However, I like to imagine that I may be mistaken most of the time. 🧵
Just close enough that my body can release the stored grief as it needs to. So that I can comfort that version of myself as I need to in the future.
However, I like to imagine that I may be mistaken most of the time. 🧵
It's like I've been pinned up against a wall for years, being forced to look at... 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨.
Things I couldn't believe were there.
Things, unfortunately, I could.
And I'm still trying to figure out how all of these fragments, none of which are completely alien to me, fit together. 🧵
Things I couldn't believe were there.
Things, unfortunately, I could.
And I'm still trying to figure out how all of these fragments, none of which are completely alien to me, fit together. 🧵
November 24, 2025 at 5:39 AM
It's like I've been pinned up against a wall for years, being forced to look at... 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨.
Things I couldn't believe were there.
Things, unfortunately, I could.
And I'm still trying to figure out how all of these fragments, none of which are completely alien to me, fit together. 🧵
Things I couldn't believe were there.
Things, unfortunately, I could.
And I'm still trying to figure out how all of these fragments, none of which are completely alien to me, fit together. 🧵
It wasn't all bad.
It caused me to close my business, go back to uni, and write full-time. And that is such an understatement for how huge that was for me.
But it also had me reaching for safety that appeared solid, but had no foundation.
I wasn't thinking clearly.
More trauma.
𝘚𝘰 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦. 🧵
It caused me to close my business, go back to uni, and write full-time. And that is such an understatement for how huge that was for me.
But it also had me reaching for safety that appeared solid, but had no foundation.
I wasn't thinking clearly.
More trauma.
𝘚𝘰 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦. 🧵
November 24, 2025 at 5:39 AM
It wasn't all bad.
It caused me to close my business, go back to uni, and write full-time. And that is such an understatement for how huge that was for me.
But it also had me reaching for safety that appeared solid, but had no foundation.
I wasn't thinking clearly.
More trauma.
𝘚𝘰 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦. 🧵
It caused me to close my business, go back to uni, and write full-time. And that is such an understatement for how huge that was for me.
But it also had me reaching for safety that appeared solid, but had no foundation.
I wasn't thinking clearly.
More trauma.
𝘚𝘰 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦. 🧵
I never thought twice about whether it could have impacted or impaired my decision-making...
but, uh, that's exactly the kind of thing that impairs your decision making...🧵
but, uh, that's exactly the kind of thing that impairs your decision making...🧵
November 24, 2025 at 5:39 AM
I never thought twice about whether it could have impacted or impaired my decision-making...
but, uh, that's exactly the kind of thing that impairs your decision making...🧵
but, uh, that's exactly the kind of thing that impairs your decision making...🧵
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘪𝘵𝘴...
No one ever asked me if I was okay, so it didn't even have room to blossom into something that had to exist in my emotional world.
So I buried my feelings, as one does. 😅 🧵
No one ever asked me if I was okay, so it didn't even have room to blossom into something that had to exist in my emotional world.
So I buried my feelings, as one does. 😅 🧵
November 24, 2025 at 5:39 AM
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘪𝘵𝘴...
No one ever asked me if I was okay, so it didn't even have room to blossom into something that had to exist in my emotional world.
So I buried my feelings, as one does. 😅 🧵
No one ever asked me if I was okay, so it didn't even have room to blossom into something that had to exist in my emotional world.
So I buried my feelings, as one does. 😅 🧵
Yeah, it all fits perfectly, actually. I just seemed so indifferent to it that I never even bothered to consider that it could have been influencing me at the time.
Whoooooops. Lol.
Whoooooops. Lol.
November 24, 2025 at 4:47 AM
Yeah, it all fits perfectly, actually. I just seemed so indifferent to it that I never even bothered to consider that it could have been influencing me at the time.
Whoooooops. Lol.
Whoooooops. Lol.
To be clear for readers:
I kind of super don’t care at this point.
I’m just recording the experience.
FIN. 🧵
I kind of super don’t care at this point.
I’m just recording the experience.
FIN. 🧵
a black and white drawing of two people making a promise with their fingers .
Alt: Pinky promise
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November 24, 2025 at 4:38 AM
To be clear for readers:
I kind of super don’t care at this point.
I’m just recording the experience.
FIN. 🧵
I kind of super don’t care at this point.
I’m just recording the experience.
FIN. 🧵
Because I genuinely didn’t know what I had done “wrong” that I’d gone unconscious again.
This certainly explains it. 🙃 🧵
This certainly explains it. 🙃 🧵
November 24, 2025 at 4:38 AM
Because I genuinely didn’t know what I had done “wrong” that I’d gone unconscious again.
This certainly explains it. 🙃 🧵
This certainly explains it. 🙃 🧵
Now, I’m not consumed by the emotions, but I can feel them under the surface. Finally extending empathy to that part of myself.
Fortunately, I wasn’t physically injured either time.
I’m actually so grateful to be able to fully conceptualize this now… 🧵
Fortunately, I wasn’t physically injured either time.
I’m actually so grateful to be able to fully conceptualize this now… 🧵
November 24, 2025 at 4:38 AM
Now, I’m not consumed by the emotions, but I can feel them under the surface. Finally extending empathy to that part of myself.
Fortunately, I wasn’t physically injured either time.
I’m actually so grateful to be able to fully conceptualize this now… 🧵
Fortunately, I wasn’t physically injured either time.
I’m actually so grateful to be able to fully conceptualize this now… 🧵
And I knew that happened.
All of this time, I was intellectually aware that it happened. I’ve told people about it…
But it’s like it wasn’t really *me* that it happened to.
I couldn’t imagine how I felt in those situations. I felt no empathy. I just felt nothing. 🧵
All of this time, I was intellectually aware that it happened. I’ve told people about it…
But it’s like it wasn’t really *me* that it happened to.
I couldn’t imagine how I felt in those situations. I felt no empathy. I just felt nothing. 🧵
November 24, 2025 at 4:38 AM
And I knew that happened.
All of this time, I was intellectually aware that it happened. I’ve told people about it…
But it’s like it wasn’t really *me* that it happened to.
I couldn’t imagine how I felt in those situations. I felt no empathy. I just felt nothing. 🧵
All of this time, I was intellectually aware that it happened. I’ve told people about it…
But it’s like it wasn’t really *me* that it happened to.
I couldn’t imagine how I felt in those situations. I felt no empathy. I just felt nothing. 🧵
Up until that year, things were tough, but I was figuring it out.
I’d been a single parent for a years, no support, but my business was doing well. I was getting us by.
And then twice— once in January, once in June— I was held hostage…..
I WAS AN INTERIOR DESIGNER WHO DOES THAT HAPPEN TO?!😅🧵
I’d been a single parent for a years, no support, but my business was doing well. I was getting us by.
And then twice— once in January, once in June— I was held hostage…..
I WAS AN INTERIOR DESIGNER WHO DOES THAT HAPPEN TO?!😅🧵
November 24, 2025 at 4:38 AM
Up until that year, things were tough, but I was figuring it out.
I’d been a single parent for a years, no support, but my business was doing well. I was getting us by.
And then twice— once in January, once in June— I was held hostage…..
I WAS AN INTERIOR DESIGNER WHO DOES THAT HAPPEN TO?!😅🧵
I’d been a single parent for a years, no support, but my business was doing well. I was getting us by.
And then twice— once in January, once in June— I was held hostage…..
I WAS AN INTERIOR DESIGNER WHO DOES THAT HAPPEN TO?!😅🧵
I knew that once the pandemic started I could really, hardly be around people.
I was pretty much always masking a fear of people, though, so I really didn’t think much about if anything had triggered me.
I just assumed it was that I got to be alone, and I wanted to stay that way. 🧵
I was pretty much always masking a fear of people, though, so I really didn’t think much about if anything had triggered me.
I just assumed it was that I got to be alone, and I wanted to stay that way. 🧵
November 24, 2025 at 4:38 AM
I knew that once the pandemic started I could really, hardly be around people.
I was pretty much always masking a fear of people, though, so I really didn’t think much about if anything had triggered me.
I just assumed it was that I got to be alone, and I wanted to stay that way. 🧵
I was pretty much always masking a fear of people, though, so I really didn’t think much about if anything had triggered me.
I just assumed it was that I got to be alone, and I wanted to stay that way. 🧵
77 when I hit the heart react and ruined it. It’s been a day of 7s. 😂
November 24, 2025 at 1:34 AM
77 when I hit the heart react and ruined it. It’s been a day of 7s. 😂
The right side is true, expansive, interconnected reality with layers upon layers… the 5D.
You’re crossing over the bridge more and more, stabilizing your frequency more and more in the 5D!
It’s a great sign your healing is going well. 🥳
You’re crossing over the bridge more and more, stabilizing your frequency more and more in the 5D!
It’s a great sign your healing is going well. 🥳
November 23, 2025 at 11:04 PM
The right side is true, expansive, interconnected reality with layers upon layers… the 5D.
You’re crossing over the bridge more and more, stabilizing your frequency more and more in the 5D!
It’s a great sign your healing is going well. 🥳
You’re crossing over the bridge more and more, stabilizing your frequency more and more in the 5D!
It’s a great sign your healing is going well. 🥳
You’re switching from left brain brain to the right. The corpus callosum is the bridge between the two.
Both parts of your brain have interpretations of reality.
The left side (I usually call it the human part) has a reality based on personal delusion. It’s based on the past. We call it the 3D.
Both parts of your brain have interpretations of reality.
The left side (I usually call it the human part) has a reality based on personal delusion. It’s based on the past. We call it the 3D.
November 23, 2025 at 11:04 PM
You’re switching from left brain brain to the right. The corpus callosum is the bridge between the two.
Both parts of your brain have interpretations of reality.
The left side (I usually call it the human part) has a reality based on personal delusion. It’s based on the past. We call it the 3D.
Both parts of your brain have interpretations of reality.
The left side (I usually call it the human part) has a reality based on personal delusion. It’s based on the past. We call it the 3D.
Oooh, yeah. If it weren’t for times like this, I’d have checked out a looong time ago.
I typically expect a period of transcendental euphoria at least once daily. Usually as a download that comes while I’m walking or driving… it’s the most gorgeous thing. 😭💓
I typically expect a period of transcendental euphoria at least once daily. Usually as a download that comes while I’m walking or driving… it’s the most gorgeous thing. 😭💓
November 23, 2025 at 10:56 PM
Oooh, yeah. If it weren’t for times like this, I’d have checked out a looong time ago.
I typically expect a period of transcendental euphoria at least once daily. Usually as a download that comes while I’m walking or driving… it’s the most gorgeous thing. 😭💓
I typically expect a period of transcendental euphoria at least once daily. Usually as a download that comes while I’m walking or driving… it’s the most gorgeous thing. 😭💓
Nah, she seems fine. 🤷♀️
As soon as I was up, moving around and doing things, she got curious and re-attached herself. 😂
As soon as I was up, moving around and doing things, she got curious and re-attached herself. 😂
November 23, 2025 at 7:56 PM
Nah, she seems fine. 🤷♀️
As soon as I was up, moving around and doing things, she got curious and re-attached herself. 😂
As soon as I was up, moving around and doing things, she got curious and re-attached herself. 😂