im regulated once more i think my meds are working

it really gets me in my head bc i really do try..

im tired of feeling crazy all the time
i really do
but its not like typical ocd so idk they could think im faking????? but i know theres more to it than that its more complex
it makes me head hurt thinking abt it all

i was excited and now im like ehh idk what games are even good to pkay for engagement anymore the only follower i got today was a bot xD fuckin discord bots dude what is up with those?! frickin insane!!

jsut need to throw a pity party and eventually ill lock in

like do **I** need to change abt myself for people to want to stay longer? i stopped masking and became more comfortable being louder and more me and then things started to dip it felt
idk man funky feeling and not funky fresh

my mom died close to her 40s from some health thing and no one really told me, just blamed asthma but she had so many health issues
im so scared of dying young the closer i get to 30 its really weighing on me the closer the new year gets
these like daily headachea dont help it freaks me out but idk

bro got to be an hour late, spent an hour talking away and went home to work and it took an hour before he was back online so he only had like 3-4 hours left of the day lmaooo what a fucking joke dude
is this a lowkey hissy fit? yes but i just need to YELL its how i stay nice i keep my mouth shut

when it comes to scheduling arguably i do more of the work and the ONLY reason he even has a work computer is for a project he was doing that was mesnt for OT