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@h09ap.bsky.social
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Elder millennial. I write about the beautiful violence of being human. Occasionally post skin for shits and giggles.
Morning wood for the fire. 🔥 🍆 💦

#nsfw #fcf
November 14, 2025 at 12:44 PM
November 12, 2025 at 3:59 PM
Insomnia is my nemesis. Take this.

#nsfw
November 12, 2025 at 8:17 AM
Flashback to my time with @cruorcrypt.bsky.social in the pnw. One of my favorite photos.
November 11, 2025 at 5:07 PM
Painting is cheaper than therapy. And it doesn’t ask questions.

#painting #mixedmedia #artastherapy
November 11, 2025 at 4:39 PM
November 10, 2025 at 4:35 PM
Three cards for the morning. Desire without action. Ideas without motion. Holding too tightly to what needs to change. Stop gripping the past so hard your future can’t breathe. Choose forward.

#tarot #morningpull #synchronicity #divination #writingfuel #shadowwork
November 10, 2025 at 4:04 PM
November 10, 2025 at 2:06 PM
Yes, yes it is. It had very little fucks to give. But all those fucks were given hard.
November 10, 2025 at 3:02 AM
Was reading Anais Nin in the bath. Little Birds.

Tight fit, but I get in.That’s the important part. Bodies adapt. Desire does the rest.

#erotica #anaisnin #bath #fcf #spicysky #nsfw #litrotica #hairy #cock #maskfetish #bear
November 7, 2025 at 10:37 PM
Had a moment and went to the liquor store. Ended up making whiskey-soy glazed pork chops with rice pilaf instead. The rye made an incredible caramelized glaze. I'm an actively recovering alcoholic and a foodie. Food won today. Let's see what happens tomorrow.
November 7, 2025 at 12:40 AM
I like to do the things in the kitchen. It's my love language. First two were for @cruorcrypt.bsky.social. My favorite vampire to cook for. 🦇 🫀
November 6, 2025 at 4:24 PM
November 6, 2025 at 1:50 AM
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November 6, 2025 at 1:42 AM
November 6, 2025 at 1:41 AM
This was a sex scene from the light novel I was working on.
November 6, 2025 at 1:38 AM
Was that a green light because you’ve read my writing—or just reckless optimism? 😆

Open to suggestions about subject matter. But, I do have a werewolf story I was thinking of rewriting into something more 🌶️
November 6, 2025 at 12:49 AM
I wrote a stream of consciousness story entitled,"Ho... is you a witch?"

This is a page from it. And yes, that’s really the title. No, I will not be explaining.
November 5, 2025 at 10:18 PM
A movie you’ve seen more than 7 times with a gif
November 5, 2025 at 2:56 PM
Cleaning up. Out of shelves, out of time, out of fucks. So the suitcase is a bookcase now. Somewhere Henry Bemis is laughing his blind ass off. Or maybe he would have loved the joke—if he could still see it.

#books #writerlife #bukowski #twilightzone #henrybemis #bookshelf
November 3, 2025 at 8:00 PM
Another random page from the same piece/the graveyard of ideas that is my google docs.
November 3, 2025 at 5:09 PM
Random pages from something I’m writing. Felt like sharing something of me that isn’t my dick. More dick later. Just words for now.

(@cruorcrypt.bsky.social, as they often do, inspired me to start writing this.)

#writing #prose #honesty #grief #selfreflection #writersofbsky #personalessay
November 3, 2025 at 4:45 PM
Woke up and realized I had no coffee. Drank gas station ☕ with my favorite jeep companion. Caffeine and company.

#coffee #morningritual
November 2, 2025 at 4:08 PM
Post a book you love from the 80s. No explanations, no reviews, just covers.
#BookSky #bookchallenge #readingchallenge #readingcommunity #booktok #bookish #books
November 2, 2025 at 3:56 PM