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Elder millennial. I write about the beautiful violence of being human. Occasionally post skin for shits and giggles.
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Is there a SW who would be open to DM me so I can pick their brain? Disabled baddies would be exceptional. It would be very appreciated. K thanks bye 😊🖤
November 13, 2025 at 9:50 PM
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$8/30

✨️💦💕🙏💕💦✨️
✨️💕 new #nude ready + waiting! 💕✨️

💸🔒 $30 to unlock 🔑💸
November 13, 2025 at 5:26 PM
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Insomnia is my nemesis. Take this.

#nsfw
November 12, 2025 at 8:17 AM
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There so many cute things I want, but more importantly this is a great place to send your first tribute. Don’t be shy, approach with your wallet open.

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November 11, 2025 at 8:45 PM
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"Wouldst thou like to live deliciously?"
Happy #devilsnight Ly definitely did when they asked me to strip and embarrass them in this raunchy, dry humping, spanking, #ropebondage scene #nsfwtwt #enf #bdsm
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October 30, 2025 at 10:21 AM
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Picasso was a certified bastard of a human, but my favorite quote still belongs to him: "Every act of creation is first an act of destruction."

Creation isn't gentle. It's destruction in slow motion—of the self, of ideas. Systems. Sometimes the only way forward is for something to die.
November 13, 2025 at 2:44 PM
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If I reach 200 followers, get a gift off of Throne, or receive a tip by Monday
I will post a video or picture of the tipper or gifters choosing 💫

#findom #switch #tribute #worship
November 13, 2025 at 7:25 PM
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𝒀𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒊𝒍𝒚 𝒓𝒆𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒘𝒊𝒔𝒉𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒚. 🦇

#findom #wishlist #finsky #themdom #femboyfindom #femboy #queerdom #blackfindom #blackdom
November 13, 2025 at 7:39 PM
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𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗽𝗮𝘆, 𝘀𝗼 𝙄 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 🦇
November 13, 2025 at 8:19 PM
The mind is a room. Furnish it with things you don't mind seeing there. You're the one who has sit in it.
November 13, 2025 at 2:49 PM
Picasso was a certified bastard of a human, but my favorite quote still belongs to him: "Every act of creation is first an act of destruction."

Creation isn't gentle. It's destruction in slow motion—of the self, of ideas. Systems. Sometimes the only way forward is for something to die.
November 13, 2025 at 2:44 PM
Tossed my bottle of whiskey yesterday. Wrote sober instead. Numbness has a place, but I enjoy the oddity of my mind in its natural state. Clarity increases signal volume.
November 13, 2025 at 2:33 PM
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November 10, 2025 at 4:35 PM
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Painting is cheaper than therapy. And it doesn’t ask questions.

#painting #mixedmedia #artastherapy
November 11, 2025 at 4:39 PM
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Flashback to my time with @cruorcrypt.bsky.social in the pnw. One of my favorite photos.
November 11, 2025 at 5:07 PM
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420 followers!!
November 13, 2025 at 12:25 AM
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I have 2 mutual aid lists I wanna share and build:
bsky.app/profile/did:...
July 3, 2025 at 2:37 PM
Balancing my own mental health while being there for friends with theirs is hard. I’m doing the best I can with my own mind, but I won't discard someone trying to weather a similar storm. Not easily. There's an obvious threshold, but grace is a thing I believe in. People are not disposable pieces.
November 12, 2025 at 11:31 PM
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also time is fake

its not linear

surviving narcissistic abuse will wake you all the way the fuck up

hi
complex ptsd is a bitch
November 12, 2025 at 5:06 PM
🐺 🫀 🦉
𝑀𝑒 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝐷𝑜𝑚 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑠𝑝𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑔𝑜 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑎𝑛 𝑜𝑤𝑙 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑜𝑑𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑢𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑏𝑦 𝑎 𝑏𝑖𝑔 𝑏𝑎𝑑 𝑤𝑜𝑙𝑓 𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑑 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑎 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡. 🦉 🐺
a small owl is walking on its hind legs in front of a ladder .
Alt: a small owl is walking on its hind legs in front of a ladder .
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November 12, 2025 at 3:46 PM
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$1487 to go for October rent before court on Thursday.

Even if you can’t donate, please continue to amplify. 🤲🏽

gofund.me/1395745ca
November 12, 2025 at 2:48 AM
Insomnia is my nemesis. Take this.

#nsfw
November 12, 2025 at 8:17 AM
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This is a treat for my pup and boy toy once again being the only ones to support my goals.
𝒀𝒐𝒖’𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒂 𝒑𝒊𝒙𝒆𝒍 𝒑𝒖𝒎𝒑𝒆𝒓 🦇
November 12, 2025 at 12:03 AM
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Boy toy gave yall an advance. $71/$160
We pushing $51/160

Thanks to my Lilypad who is the most loyal and devoted pup ever. @npcpuppy.bsky.social
Only have received one tip. $25/$160
November 11, 2025 at 10:57 PM
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This promo did not receive enough attention 😵‍💫
November 11, 2025 at 10:05 PM