I dunno what else to say.

The idea of love is nice.
The reality is I'm often too much for myself and need to be around people that bring me comfort or I'll fall apart

I got myself this Sephiroth. Sephiroth is the one true thing I allow myself to buy things just for nostalgia or childhood feeling.
But I'm glad I chose FF7.
It's my folks favorite and was very informative to me growing up!

This year has been so stressful but guess what!!
I've already grown and know more and have better people in my life now, and the good ones have stayed!!!

I haven't self harmed in over a year!

So I've been handling things better now. I do feel the urges but my Prozac has been helping with that.
It's because I have a hard time regulating my emotions/stress. I get overwhelmed and want to self harm, I've had it since I was a child.

Need this for when I leave my room lol

I feel like this about being Latino("illegal immigrant") and White American type mix.
I never got to know my dad or his family. I feel like I lost out on that heritage. I have always felt denied in that aspect as well.

Well, I completely fucked up the angle of the floor pattern so I should probably repaint it...
My brain forgot the angles should be sharper the closer to the camera it is

Kinda freaked out over moving my mattress and finding this here. I didn't do that.
Someone was hiding something under my bed at some point.

"Feel Like a Ghost"
Was actually a story I was working on specifically for my character Zero.
Takes place in the Dream Realm

"Bad Future" is the story of Wiseman, takes place in the fictional world I've been working on.
Takes place after Maynard's death, Mortis becomes main character.

When am I ever gonna finish this art

Today is rough. A lot of pain and kinda processing a lot.

I guess I've come to understand why my heart holds onto people no longer in my life or people I'm thinking of letting go of ...