Dea Ratna
@dearatna.bsky.social
Sometimes writer, sometimes artist, sometimes photographer, always storyteller.
I blame it on the shitty literary program in high school. And by that, I mean there was no literary program. We had to read books when I was in middle school in the States. Here, they just shove you a book of questions and answers, and to make sure you memorize them so you can get a good test score
August 11, 2025 at 6:49 AM
I blame it on the shitty literary program in high school. And by that, I mean there was no literary program. We had to read books when I was in middle school in the States. Here, they just shove you a book of questions and answers, and to make sure you memorize them so you can get a good test score
Yeah absolutely. It would've been a nightmare working with her
August 4, 2025 at 3:46 AM
Yeah absolutely. It would've been a nightmare working with her
We've since ended our interaction (I think, I didn't see another reply and she sent payment for the trial articles) but I'm still pissed. I don't like being accused of something I didn't do and she never acknowledged that I didn't actually plagiarize anything.
August 2, 2025 at 6:13 AM
We've since ended our interaction (I think, I didn't see another reply and she sent payment for the trial articles) but I'm still pissed. I don't like being accused of something I didn't do and she never acknowledged that I didn't actually plagiarize anything.
A was-potential client accused me of using AI and plagiarize another article when I did not do that at all. If you look at my previous posts you'd get more detail, but tldr I tried to prove to her that I didn't use AI. She then told me that I should 'take criticism better.'
August 2, 2025 at 6:08 AM
A was-potential client accused me of using AI and plagiarize another article when I did not do that at all. If you look at my previous posts you'd get more detail, but tldr I tried to prove to her that I didn't use AI. She then told me that I should 'take criticism better.'
I have so much anger energy that I could barely eat earlier. Do I just punch things??? Do I yell?? I already did my cardio exercise for the day but that reply of hers made me angry again. What do???? Argh!!!
BTW it feels like the hypomania is kicking in AND THAT'S NOT GOOD FOR ANGER I ASSUME.
BTW it feels like the hypomania is kicking in AND THAT'S NOT GOOD FOR ANGER I ASSUME.
August 1, 2025 at 1:57 PM
I have so much anger energy that I could barely eat earlier. Do I just punch things??? Do I yell?? I already did my cardio exercise for the day but that reply of hers made me angry again. What do???? Argh!!!
BTW it feels like the hypomania is kicking in AND THAT'S NOT GOOD FOR ANGER I ASSUME.
BTW it feels like the hypomania is kicking in AND THAT'S NOT GOOD FOR ANGER I ASSUME.
I didn't even have access to the internet until I was in high school!!! But also that shouldn't matter because I DIDN'T AND WOULD NEVER USE AI BECAUSE I MAKE IT A POINT OF PRIDE THAT I DON'T.
AGH, this is so frustrating.
AGH, this is so frustrating.
August 1, 2025 at 12:15 PM
I didn't even have access to the internet until I was in high school!!! But also that shouldn't matter because I DIDN'T AND WOULD NEVER USE AI BECAUSE I MAKE IT A POINT OF PRIDE THAT I DON'T.
AGH, this is so frustrating.
AGH, this is so frustrating.
UPDATE: She replied that my work was "too good and polished" to not have been generated by AI. LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK??!! Then she said something about how my "generation" is too reliant on AI and hers doesn't. Because she's fifty.
So??? I'm 35. I didn't grow up on AI.
So??? I'm 35. I didn't grow up on AI.
August 1, 2025 at 12:11 PM
UPDATE: She replied that my work was "too good and polished" to not have been generated by AI. LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK??!! Then she said something about how my "generation" is too reliant on AI and hers doesn't. Because she's fifty.
So??? I'm 35. I didn't grow up on AI.
So??? I'm 35. I didn't grow up on AI.
If my 5+ years of experience still don't deter hirers from thinking I used AI because the AI checker said so, then new writers are so fucked.
I think I'll stick to publishing my writing on my own sites for the next month or so.
I think I'll stick to publishing my writing on my own sites for the next month or so.
August 1, 2025 at 4:54 AM
If my 5+ years of experience still don't deter hirers from thinking I used AI because the AI checker said so, then new writers are so fucked.
I think I'll stick to publishing my writing on my own sites for the next month or so.
I think I'll stick to publishing my writing on my own sites for the next month or so.
I've worked with clients that just didn't like the way I write and that's fine! People have different tastes. But now I have to defend myself from unreliable AI checkers that hirers are using to prove my works aren't AI-generated?
Fuck that.
Fuck that.
August 1, 2025 at 4:54 AM
I've worked with clients that just didn't like the way I write and that's fine! People have different tastes. But now I have to defend myself from unreliable AI checkers that hirers are using to prove my works aren't AI-generated?
Fuck that.
Fuck that.
The way that I dropped everything I was doing to just to tell her all that...
I've been a professional writer since 2019. 2018 if you count the internship. This is way before LLMs were easily available to the public and was good enough to unfortunately take the jobs of several writers.
I've been a professional writer since 2019. 2018 if you count the internship. This is way before LLMs were easily available to the public and was good enough to unfortunately take the jobs of several writers.
August 1, 2025 at 4:54 AM
The way that I dropped everything I was doing to just to tell her all that...
I've been a professional writer since 2019. 2018 if you count the internship. This is way before LLMs were easily available to the public and was good enough to unfortunately take the jobs of several writers.
I've been a professional writer since 2019. 2018 if you count the internship. This is way before LLMs were easily available to the public and was good enough to unfortunately take the jobs of several writers.
She said the AI checker flagged it as AI-generated and shared an article that I had never seen until that point as the article I plagiarized from.
I just sent her a very long response about how AI checker are not 100% accurate and she can see in the doc history that I wrote every single sentence.
I just sent her a very long response about how AI checker are not 100% accurate and she can see in the doc history that I wrote every single sentence.
August 1, 2025 at 4:54 AM
She said the AI checker flagged it as AI-generated and shared an article that I had never seen until that point as the article I plagiarized from.
I just sent her a very long response about how AI checker are not 100% accurate and she can see in the doc history that I wrote every single sentence.
I just sent her a very long response about how AI checker are not 100% accurate and she can see in the doc history that I wrote every single sentence.
Gonna contact the author after I finish reading it and see if we can pick each other's brains.
July 29, 2025 at 8:28 AM
Gonna contact the author after I finish reading it and see if we can pick each other's brains.
Studying art in Singapore while cementing(ish) my queer identity there meant that a lot of my works back then was always about this topic in one way or another. It's still in the back of my mind to write/create something like this again and I'm so happy that someone else here also had the same idea.
July 29, 2025 at 8:28 AM
Studying art in Singapore while cementing(ish) my queer identity there meant that a lot of my works back then was always about this topic in one way or another. It's still in the back of my mind to write/create something like this again and I'm so happy that someone else here also had the same idea.
Celebration of the amazing lives they lived and the people they changed.
July 29, 2025 at 4:52 AM
Celebration of the amazing lives they lived and the people they changed.
And like the writer that I am, I am using writing to sort out my feelings on the matter. The messy and complicated feelings of losing people you care about and still have to live on without them. I hope to one day be able to talk of these three fondly, without a tinge of sadness. Just celebration.
July 29, 2025 at 4:52 AM
And like the writer that I am, I am using writing to sort out my feelings on the matter. The messy and complicated feelings of losing people you care about and still have to live on without them. I hope to one day be able to talk of these three fondly, without a tinge of sadness. Just celebration.
Why am I writing this now? Because I never properly mourned. Yes, even my own father. I remember not telling my client that my dad died and continued to work as soon as he was buried. Even the death of these two strangers that shaped my life still hurts to think about almost as much as my dad's.
July 29, 2025 at 4:52 AM
Why am I writing this now? Because I never properly mourned. Yes, even my own father. I remember not telling my client that my dad died and continued to work as soon as he was buried. Even the death of these two strangers that shaped my life still hurts to think about almost as much as my dad's.
Looking at it from a contemporary lens, that show does not age well. But just because it doesn't hold up, doesn't mean I can just erase how impactful that show was for a young, queer person who thought they were abnormal because everyone else around them was cishet.
July 29, 2025 at 4:52 AM
Looking at it from a contemporary lens, that show does not age well. But just because it doesn't hold up, doesn't mean I can just erase how impactful that show was for a young, queer person who thought they were abnormal because everyone else around them was cishet.
Though I distanced myself from the Glee fandom towards the end of its run, Naya's death reminded me just how important that show was for me. Again, she didn't die of COVID-19 but of drowning. She used the last of her strength to save her son. And thus continue the supposed curse of Glee.
July 29, 2025 at 4:52 AM
Though I distanced myself from the Glee fandom towards the end of its run, Naya's death reminded me just how important that show was for me. Again, she didn't die of COVID-19 but of drowning. She used the last of her strength to save her son. And thus continue the supposed curse of Glee.
Though I don't work in the science field, I still hold a deep love for it and that's because of Mythbusters.
Last but certainly not least was Naya Rivera. Her role as Santana Lopez opened up a floodgate that would eventually lead to a career making art and writing about gender and sexual identity.
Last but certainly not least was Naya Rivera. Her role as Santana Lopez opened up a floodgate that would eventually lead to a career making art and writing about gender and sexual identity.
July 29, 2025 at 4:52 AM
Though I don't work in the science field, I still hold a deep love for it and that's because of Mythbusters.
Last but certainly not least was Naya Rivera. Her role as Santana Lopez opened up a floodgate that would eventually lead to a career making art and writing about gender and sexual identity.
Last but certainly not least was Naya Rivera. Her role as Santana Lopez opened up a floodgate that would eventually lead to a career making art and writing about gender and sexual identity.
Another was Grant Imahara. Mythbusters was my childhood. I grew up watching him, Tory, and Kari mess around in the name of science. He and the cast of Mythbusters showed me that science can be fun and to not take everything at face value. He didn't die of COVID-19 but from an aneurysm.
July 29, 2025 at 4:52 AM
Another was Grant Imahara. Mythbusters was my childhood. I grew up watching him, Tory, and Kari mess around in the name of science. He and the cast of Mythbusters showed me that science can be fun and to not take everything at face value. He didn't die of COVID-19 but from an aneurysm.