Dea Ratna
@dearatna.bsky.social
Sometimes writer, sometimes artist, sometimes photographer, always storyteller.
God, I really wish I were a better Indonesian reader. I'm still not done reading this! I have to read some sentences twice to fully understand them.
I spend less than a third of my life outside of Indonesia, and I'm a better English reader than an Indonesian one.
I spend less than a third of my life outside of Indonesia, and I'm a better English reader than an Indonesian one.
Do you ever just see something and goes "THAT. I WANT THAT"?
Well this is THAT for me last weekend.
Well this is THAT for me last weekend.
August 11, 2025 at 6:49 AM
God, I really wish I were a better Indonesian reader. I'm still not done reading this! I have to read some sentences twice to fully understand them.
I spend less than a third of my life outside of Indonesia, and I'm a better English reader than an Indonesian one.
I spend less than a third of my life outside of Indonesia, and I'm a better English reader than an Indonesian one.
Y'all, I don't handle anger well, turns out. I'm not usually an angry person (like almost never) so I never worked on this when I was regularly meeting my therapist. (Don't have money to afford her services again unfortunately.)
What do I do with this? How does anger management work????
What do I do with this? How does anger management work????
August 1, 2025 at 1:57 PM
Y'all, I don't handle anger well, turns out. I'm not usually an angry person (like almost never) so I never worked on this when I was regularly meeting my therapist. (Don't have money to afford her services again unfortunately.)
What do I do with this? How does anger management work????
What do I do with this? How does anger management work????
I'm currently interviewing for a ghostwriting contract in which the interviewer asked me to send 2-3 articles about the topic. So I wrote it and sent it.
She then accused me of using AI to generate these articles.
My blood started to boil.
She then accused me of using AI to generate these articles.
My blood started to boil.
August 1, 2025 at 4:54 AM
I'm currently interviewing for a ghostwriting contract in which the interviewer asked me to send 2-3 articles about the topic. So I wrote it and sent it.
She then accused me of using AI to generate these articles.
My blood started to boil.
She then accused me of using AI to generate these articles.
My blood started to boil.
Do you ever just see something and goes "THAT. I WANT THAT"?
Well this is THAT for me last weekend.
Well this is THAT for me last weekend.
July 29, 2025 at 8:28 AM
Do you ever just see something and goes "THAT. I WANT THAT"?
Well this is THAT for me last weekend.
Well this is THAT for me last weekend.
5 years ago, within days of each other, three people who had giant impacts on my life passed away.
The most important was my father. Of course he was. He named me. He raised me. His DNA is a part of mine. His behaviors and mannerisms are a blueprint for mine. He died of lung cancer.
The most important was my father. Of course he was. He named me. He raised me. His DNA is a part of mine. His behaviors and mannerisms are a blueprint for mine. He died of lung cancer.
July 29, 2025 at 4:52 AM
5 years ago, within days of each other, three people who had giant impacts on my life passed away.
The most important was my father. Of course he was. He named me. He raised me. His DNA is a part of mine. His behaviors and mannerisms are a blueprint for mine. He died of lung cancer.
The most important was my father. Of course he was. He named me. He raised me. His DNA is a part of mine. His behaviors and mannerisms are a blueprint for mine. He died of lung cancer.
To photograph or not to photograph, that is the question. #photography #unbelonging #visualart
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If I don’t take photos during my vacation, am I still a photographer?
In six days, I took a measly six photos. I didn’t bring any camera equipment. But I still had my phone. So why didn’t I take more photos?
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July 8, 2025 at 3:24 AM
To photograph or not to photograph, that is the question. #photography #unbelonging #visualart
medium.com/@hypercaring...
medium.com/@hypercaring...
It's here! I'm so glad I could be a part of this project all the way from the other side of the globe. I can't participate in Pride here but I can participate in this way.
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Pride
The relationship between our 2SLGBTQQIA+ identities and pride is deeply personal, storied, and nuanced. Between ourselves as individual beautiful beings and the social discourse of pride and queerness...
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June 23, 2025 at 8:02 AM
It's here! I'm so glad I could be a part of this project all the way from the other side of the globe. I can't participate in Pride here but I can participate in this way.
feelszine.com/collections/...
feelszine.com/collections/...
If I had a nickel for every Broadway show that I loved involved two female leads, both nominated for Tonys, hated each other's guts in the beginning, had the love interest changed his attention from one to the other, had a "swordfight", has fake murder(s), who then became lifelong friends...
June 7, 2025 at 12:15 PM
If I had a nickel for every Broadway show that I loved involved two female leads, both nominated for Tonys, hated each other's guts in the beginning, had the love interest changed his attention from one to the other, had a "swordfight", has fake murder(s), who then became lifelong friends...
Looking at a list of design-related companies for work and saw one called Jati Kebon from Belgium.
Got suspicious, looked at their website.
Yup, their name was inspired by the durable teak (jati) wood grown in Indonesia. And kebon is Indonesian for garden.
Got suspicious, looked at their website.
Yup, their name was inspired by the durable teak (jati) wood grown in Indonesia. And kebon is Indonesian for garden.
June 5, 2025 at 8:24 AM
Looking at a list of design-related companies for work and saw one called Jati Kebon from Belgium.
Got suspicious, looked at their website.
Yup, their name was inspired by the durable teak (jati) wood grown in Indonesia. And kebon is Indonesian for garden.
Got suspicious, looked at their website.
Yup, their name was inspired by the durable teak (jati) wood grown in Indonesia. And kebon is Indonesian for garden.
Thanks to the Threat Soap, it feels like I’m doing a micro-performance everyday. I didn’t make clear in my last post about the soap of its dimensions but it is roughly 15 × 6 × 4 cm. Or at least that was its measurements when I took this photo, fresh off of a shower. #threatsoap #contemporaryart
May 8, 2025 at 5:08 AM
Thanks to the Threat Soap, it feels like I’m doing a micro-performance everyday. I didn’t make clear in my last post about the soap of its dimensions but it is roughly 15 × 6 × 4 cm. Or at least that was its measurements when I took this photo, fresh off of a shower. #threatsoap #contemporaryart
Started out as a shower thought, ended up writing about motherhood from the perspective of the child. #writing #musicaltheater #intothewoods #motherhood
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“I don’t want another mother” — a look into motherhood
What are you trying to say, Jack?
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May 6, 2025 at 9:28 AM
Started out as a shower thought, ended up writing about motherhood from the perspective of the child. #writing #musicaltheater #intothewoods #motherhood
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medium.com/hc5-geekery/...
As a writer who is 1/2, I've noticed that when I write, especially fiction, I have to describe the scene visually. I'm playing a text TTRPG and I kept describing how my character is sitting in every post. I noticed that some of my fellow players were not doing this.
As a 1 (or 2) it was weird to learn a few years ago that 5s exist. But our world is weird. Bizarre things happen. In my experience, 5s and 4s learning that 1s and 2s exist absolutely flips their world upside fucking down. Including my partner (5) who says stuff like “I know the concept of an apple.”
April 30, 2025 at 5:53 AM
As a writer who is 1/2, I've noticed that when I write, especially fiction, I have to describe the scene visually. I'm playing a text TTRPG and I kept describing how my character is sitting in every post. I noticed that some of my fellow players were not doing this.
I’m reading Jim Supangkat’s essay on the rise and fall of the New Fine Art Movement in Indonesia. (Only a third through, I’m a much slower reader in Indonesian.) There are already several fascinating insights that Jim wrote, like how the movement is not a trend or school of art like 1/5
April 28, 2025 at 9:28 AM
I’m reading Jim Supangkat’s essay on the rise and fall of the New Fine Art Movement in Indonesia. (Only a third through, I’m a much slower reader in Indonesian.) There are already several fascinating insights that Jim wrote, like how the movement is not a trend or school of art like 1/5
A Cubano that I used to have many times when I was living in Singapore. It was only a couple of blocks from my HDB complex and it was somehow halal. I probably will never set foot in SG again and there is nowhere near me that sells good sandwiches let alone a Cubano.
I don't want to hear about your lost loves, tell me about the restaurant food that haunts you because you'll never be able to taste it again
April 24, 2025 at 6:58 AM
A Cubano that I used to have many times when I was living in Singapore. It was only a couple of blocks from my HDB complex and it was somehow halal. I probably will never set foot in SG again and there is nowhere near me that sells good sandwiches let alone a Cubano.
Everyone is talking about Conclave but here I am flashbacking to reading Dan Brown's Angels and Demons for the first time in the late 00s.
April 24, 2025 at 6:51 AM
Everyone is talking about Conclave but here I am flashbacking to reading Dan Brown's Angels and Demons for the first time in the late 00s.
I've been using an LLM for my day job and it's great. That's because my day job is mostly writing emails and pitches to be sent to hundreds of companies and publications. I just need a template and it makes my job way easier.
It's a different story for my other job as a freelance writer.
It's a different story for my other job as a freelance writer.
April 21, 2025 at 9:57 AM
I've been using an LLM for my day job and it's great. That's because my day job is mostly writing emails and pitches to be sent to hundreds of companies and publications. I just need a template and it makes my job way easier.
It's a different story for my other job as a freelance writer.
It's a different story for my other job as a freelance writer.
Spent HOURS trying to connect a controller to my RG35XXSP so I could plug it into my monitor and turn it into a mini "console", even installed another OS, and then I realized when was I ever going to do that?? If I plugged it into my desk monitor then I could just emulate on my computer!
April 20, 2025 at 5:16 AM
Spent HOURS trying to connect a controller to my RG35XXSP so I could plug it into my monitor and turn it into a mini "console", even installed another OS, and then I realized when was I ever going to do that?? If I plugged it into my desk monitor then I could just emulate on my computer!
Maybe this is a little bit dark but a part of me is glad that my dad passed in 2020 and is not a witness to the condition of our government right now. He was one of the rare civil workers who never abused his high position in the government. In fact, he was actively fighting against those who did.
April 10, 2025 at 7:40 AM
Maybe this is a little bit dark but a part of me is glad that my dad passed in 2020 and is not a witness to the condition of our government right now. He was one of the rare civil workers who never abused his high position in the government. In fact, he was actively fighting against those who did.
I made it to the semifinals for the Kinsman Quarterly Winds of Asia Awards!
Now to wait two more months to find out the winner.
Now to wait two more months to find out the winner.
April 8, 2025 at 4:35 AM
I made it to the semifinals for the Kinsman Quarterly Winds of Asia Awards!
Now to wait two more months to find out the winner.
Now to wait two more months to find out the winner.
Is it a curse or a blessing that your meds ran out just as you were entering your hypomanic state but it also happened a couple of days before a giant family gathering when your family is the host and you had to bake 100+ cinnamon rolls?
April 5, 2025 at 2:38 AM
Is it a curse or a blessing that your meds ran out just as you were entering your hypomanic state but it also happened a couple of days before a giant family gathering when your family is the host and you had to bake 100+ cinnamon rolls?
Downloaded a stretching app because I've been dealing with joint pains lately that may or may not have to do with the new meds I'm taking.
In the welcome email, they told me about Habit Stacking, where you "stack" a new habit on top of one you already have, and that kind of blew my mind.
In the welcome email, they told me about Habit Stacking, where you "stack" a new habit on top of one you already have, and that kind of blew my mind.
April 2, 2025 at 5:53 AM
Downloaded a stretching app because I've been dealing with joint pains lately that may or may not have to do with the new meds I'm taking.
In the welcome email, they told me about Habit Stacking, where you "stack" a new habit on top of one you already have, and that kind of blew my mind.
In the welcome email, they told me about Habit Stacking, where you "stack" a new habit on top of one you already have, and that kind of blew my mind.
Losing my father was hard but losing him thinking I never made a proper connection with him was even harder. Knowing that I did (and in some ways still do) have a connection with him made it easier.
5 years after my father died, I finally realized what I had in common with him
Yes, part of is the amount of cameras we both own, but it’s so much more than that.
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April 1, 2025 at 5:08 AM
Losing my father was hard but losing him thinking I never made a proper connection with him was even harder. Knowing that I did (and in some ways still do) have a connection with him made it easier.
The Black December Statement didn’t come without consequences for its signatories. Many of those artists were “suspended indefinitely” from their schools, or in other words, they were expelled. Ris Purwono was one of those “suspended” artists along with Bonyong and FX Harsono. #contemporaryart
March 24, 2025 at 5:08 AM
The Black December Statement didn’t come without consequences for its signatories. Many of those artists were “suspended indefinitely” from their schools, or in other words, they were expelled. Ris Purwono was one of those “suspended” artists along with Bonyong and FX Harsono. #contemporaryart
Got my first unsolicited email today for my hypercaring5 IG account to help "grow my audience."
As if I care about that. That account is basically just an online portfolio now. Though I am strangely flattered, even if just a teeny tiny bit.
As if I care about that. That account is basically just an online portfolio now. Though I am strangely flattered, even if just a teeny tiny bit.
March 21, 2025 at 4:33 AM
Got my first unsolicited email today for my hypercaring5 IG account to help "grow my audience."
As if I care about that. That account is basically just an online portfolio now. Though I am strangely flattered, even if just a teeny tiny bit.
As if I care about that. That account is basically just an online portfolio now. Though I am strangely flattered, even if just a teeny tiny bit.