My dad doesn’t know my wishes yet. My mum, baby bro and my step dad know. Just working out ways to tell my dad.

His smiling face whenever he saw me, his honesty and reassurance not only to me, but my family.

This goodbye/thank you note is tough.

I am aware I need to focus on my health regarding my new cancer diagnosis, but family is a very important core of my values. I’ll always put them first. Me I always place second.

Giving me the news. I wanted to hug him and tell him everything is going to be alright and to thank him for everything he has done for me.

He had seen me laughing and joking 2 months before as he was part of the team that did my biopsy and he came to explain the operation, I was all smiles and joking with him. 2 months later, he saw me at my weakest. I just hope when he didn’t tell Mr Stew my reaction as he was close to tears

Thanks. I was so crushed. I held it together when Mr Stew told me, but after he left I just cried non stop for near enough 10 minutes. Dr Natchi (cancer dr) whom is lovely, was so patient. I felt for Dr Huw though, as he nearly began crying too.

Into the unknown, the dark abyss of nothing. Like the woman in me did in 2023.

Life isn’t perfect, it is stressful, but I have those besides me, that are help guiding me. 3/3

That I’m okay, but at night when I’m alone I slip that mask off and break down.

No one in my household knows this, and luckily they aren’t on here, so can’t see this.

I need to learn from the past, even if it feels like it’s repeating its self, I know what I am facing, I’m not waking 2/3