Darkness Hayz
@darknesshayz.bsky.social
I’m Hayz, I’m Pans, I’m also a Welsh goth with passions about many things. I love to write poetry. I love the word cwtch, and I love to give them out to others. Anyone reading this - you are loved, you are valued, and you are worth so much more.
I love taking photos of Mr. Flibble.
February 15, 2026 at 3:15 PM
I love taking photos of Mr. Flibble.
That feeling when you realise you never mattered to them, the way they did for you.
I wish you all the best though. I loved you like a sister, even though you were my step sister (even though our parents go divorced). I guess I need to move forward, and come to terms with this.
I wish you all the best though. I loved you like a sister, even though you were my step sister (even though our parents go divorced). I guess I need to move forward, and come to terms with this.
February 15, 2026 at 8:07 AM
That feeling when you realise you never mattered to them, the way they did for you.
I wish you all the best though. I loved you like a sister, even though you were my step sister (even though our parents go divorced). I guess I need to move forward, and come to terms with this.
I wish you all the best though. I loved you like a sister, even though you were my step sister (even though our parents go divorced). I guess I need to move forward, and come to terms with this.
Broke down in tears in the review meeting. They want me to speak to someone about how to deal with emotions around my terminal diagnosis. I’m trying to keep myself together, but it’s so hard.
February 6, 2026 at 1:47 PM
Broke down in tears in the review meeting. They want me to speak to someone about how to deal with emotions around my terminal diagnosis. I’m trying to keep myself together, but it’s so hard.
Oh I need to speak to the mental health team tomorrow. How do I tell them im scared of the inevitable? Terminal cancer fucking sucks. It’s really messing with my head and emotions.
February 6, 2026 at 12:05 AM
Oh I need to speak to the mental health team tomorrow. How do I tell them im scared of the inevitable? Terminal cancer fucking sucks. It’s really messing with my head and emotions.
Mum *watching Silent Witness on iPlayer*: “he [Jake] looks good in a polo neck”
Me: “yeah, Jub….. oh wait wrong show, that’s FBI”
Like how could I get two characters from two different shows, in two different continents mixed up?
#SilentWitness #FBI
Me: “yeah, Jub….. oh wait wrong show, that’s FBI”
Like how could I get two characters from two different shows, in two different continents mixed up?
#SilentWitness #FBI
February 2, 2026 at 8:28 PM
Mum *watching Silent Witness on iPlayer*: “he [Jake] looks good in a polo neck”
Me: “yeah, Jub….. oh wait wrong show, that’s FBI”
Like how could I get two characters from two different shows, in two different continents mixed up?
#SilentWitness #FBI
Me: “yeah, Jub….. oh wait wrong show, that’s FBI”
Like how could I get two characters from two different shows, in two different continents mixed up?
#SilentWitness #FBI
I’ve been watching a lot of vertical dramas. Damn some are heartbreaking. One had my sobbing, as it felt like a part hit home too much for me.
It was a good vertical and I did enjoy it (sobbing an all).
Just when I’m at hospital verticals have became my safe haven.
It was a good vertical and I did enjoy it (sobbing an all).
Just when I’m at hospital verticals have became my safe haven.
February 2, 2026 at 8:21 PM
I’ve been watching a lot of vertical dramas. Damn some are heartbreaking. One had my sobbing, as it felt like a part hit home too much for me.
It was a good vertical and I did enjoy it (sobbing an all).
Just when I’m at hospital verticals have became my safe haven.
It was a good vertical and I did enjoy it (sobbing an all).
Just when I’m at hospital verticals have became my safe haven.
I’ve sent my uncle something from The Traitors store….
A letter saying “by order of the traitors you have been murdered”, and haven’t put whom it’s from, so he has to work out who it was…..
Totally traitors style.
#traitors
A letter saying “by order of the traitors you have been murdered”, and haven’t put whom it’s from, so he has to work out who it was…..
Totally traitors style.
#traitors
January 16, 2026 at 10:23 AM
I’ve sent my uncle something from The Traitors store….
A letter saying “by order of the traitors you have been murdered”, and haven’t put whom it’s from, so he has to work out who it was…..
Totally traitors style.
#traitors
A letter saying “by order of the traitors you have been murdered”, and haven’t put whom it’s from, so he has to work out who it was…..
Totally traitors style.
#traitors
10 years ago I last saw you. 8 years ago, I didn’t even get to say a final goodbye.
I treated you coldly on Christmas Day 2016, I never thought Tay would be the last time we’d see each other.
I beat myself up over this a lot, I know you’d not want me to feel like that, but I do.
I treated you coldly on Christmas Day 2016, I never thought Tay would be the last time we’d see each other.
I beat myself up over this a lot, I know you’d not want me to feel like that, but I do.
January 11, 2026 at 9:20 PM
10 years ago I last saw you. 8 years ago, I didn’t even get to say a final goodbye.
I treated you coldly on Christmas Day 2016, I never thought Tay would be the last time we’d see each other.
I beat myself up over this a lot, I know you’d not want me to feel like that, but I do.
I treated you coldly on Christmas Day 2016, I never thought Tay would be the last time we’d see each other.
I beat myself up over this a lot, I know you’d not want me to feel like that, but I do.
My baby bro has been watching The Boys, me and elder bro Christopher was talking about it. Now it’s got to be a good show if three of us watch it.
December 22, 2025 at 2:11 PM
My baby bro has been watching The Boys, me and elder bro Christopher was talking about it. Now it’s got to be a good show if three of us watch it.
Radio Rock Lite (Finnish station) is playing some great tracks, some I had forgotten about. But nothing is more satisfying than hearing The Rasmus or Poets of the Fall being played 🥰. Plus, I’ve discovered some new bands (well not new to most, new to me).
December 22, 2025 at 10:20 AM
Radio Rock Lite (Finnish station) is playing some great tracks, some I had forgotten about. But nothing is more satisfying than hearing The Rasmus or Poets of the Fall being played 🥰. Plus, I’ve discovered some new bands (well not new to most, new to me).
So, I had a phone call today, that made me doubt if I had my blood transfusion on Tuesday which I did. They wanted to book me in because I on their system I haven’t had it yet.
I said to the guy “I remember going as I saw Santa, Minnie and Mickey. I didn’t imagine that”.
Which I did.
I said to the guy “I remember going as I saw Santa, Minnie and Mickey. I didn’t imagine that”.
Which I did.
December 19, 2025 at 7:17 PM
So, I had a phone call today, that made me doubt if I had my blood transfusion on Tuesday which I did. They wanted to book me in because I on their system I haven’t had it yet.
I said to the guy “I remember going as I saw Santa, Minnie and Mickey. I didn’t imagine that”.
Which I did.
I said to the guy “I remember going as I saw Santa, Minnie and Mickey. I didn’t imagine that”.
Which I did.
Poets of the Fall with @vampirebloom.bsky.social next year in September. I am looking forward it so much. Feels ages since we saw them last time. Code name 🙈🙈🙈 Hel-Don-Ham.
December 19, 2025 at 4:06 PM
Poets of the Fall with @vampirebloom.bsky.social next year in September. I am looking forward it so much. Feels ages since we saw them last time. Code name 🙈🙈🙈 Hel-Don-Ham.
@cocotheparrot.bsky.social thank you for the card. It made me smile 🥰. Sending lots of love and light to you all 💜
December 19, 2025 at 4:02 PM
@cocotheparrot.bsky.social thank you for the card. It made me smile 🥰. Sending lots of love and light to you all 💜
When Lauri came on stage with the Welsh flag I gave him, made my life. Than when he wrapped it around him for Not Like the Other Girls I burst into tears. It was an emotional moment, especially if you know how much the song means to me.
December 16, 2025 at 3:31 AM
When Lauri came on stage with the Welsh flag I gave him, made my life. Than when he wrapped it around him for Not Like the Other Girls I burst into tears. It was an emotional moment, especially if you know how much the song means to me.
Having a blood transfusion in about 12 hours. I would like to thank the person for giving this lil Welsh stranger the greatest of gift for Christmas. Peace, love and light to you and your family. I’ll never know whom you are, but I will never forget what you given me.
December 16, 2025 at 3:13 AM
Having a blood transfusion in about 12 hours. I would like to thank the person for giving this lil Welsh stranger the greatest of gift for Christmas. Peace, love and light to you and your family. I’ll never know whom you are, but I will never forget what you given me.
Cancer consultant said he’ll look into me donating my body for medical research. I said to him “I can’t donate blood, or organs. The NHS has done so much for me my whole life, and I want to give something back”….
I’ve had a long hard think about this. It’s something I want to do.
I’ve had a long hard think about this. It’s something I want to do.
November 14, 2025 at 10:19 PM
Cancer consultant said he’ll look into me donating my body for medical research. I said to him “I can’t donate blood, or organs. The NHS has done so much for me my whole life, and I want to give something back”….
I’ve had a long hard think about this. It’s something I want to do.
I’ve had a long hard think about this. It’s something I want to do.
I just got emotional. I sent dad a message about Euro 2028 and how we should go to the opening game in Wales. Than a taught hit me, why am I planning for something in advance when I don’t know if I’ll be here. As my long term prognosis is poor #fuckyoucancer
November 12, 2025 at 10:09 PM
I just got emotional. I sent dad a message about Euro 2028 and how we should go to the opening game in Wales. Than a taught hit me, why am I planning for something in advance when I don’t know if I’ll be here. As my long term prognosis is poor #fuckyoucancer
Writing a note to my soon to be ex consultant, is very emotional. I i dot want to say goodbye, I’m not ready.
Yes, I do get attached to people emotionally. It’s just he was honest of this
shity storm of cancer and that moment I just knew.
I’m gonna miss seeing him.
Yes, I do get attached to people emotionally. It’s just he was honest of this
shity storm of cancer and that moment I just knew.
I’m gonna miss seeing him.
October 7, 2025 at 9:12 PM
Writing a note to my soon to be ex consultant, is very emotional. I i dot want to say goodbye, I’m not ready.
Yes, I do get attached to people emotionally. It’s just he was honest of this
shity storm of cancer and that moment I just knew.
I’m gonna miss seeing him.
Yes, I do get attached to people emotionally. It’s just he was honest of this
shity storm of cancer and that moment I just knew.
I’m gonna miss seeing him.
Family and non bloody family, I owe you so much love. Making my Finland trip happen, you are all making a younger me dreams come true. Especially @vampirebloom.bsky.social, my mum and my dad (as well as others).. thank you and I love you.
true.id
September 17, 2025 at 10:11 AM
Family and non bloody family, I owe you so much love. Making my Finland trip happen, you are all making a younger me dreams come true. Especially @vampirebloom.bsky.social, my mum and my dad (as well as others).. thank you and I love you.
Fuck with my family, I’ll fuck with you.
A family member is in an awkward situation, and I dunno how to deal with it. The police needs to be involved, but family member doesn’t want to get the police involved, and I dunno where the go from there.
A family member is in an awkward situation, and I dunno how to deal with it. The police needs to be involved, but family member doesn’t want to get the police involved, and I dunno where the go from there.
September 11, 2025 at 11:39 AM
Fuck with my family, I’ll fuck with you.
A family member is in an awkward situation, and I dunno how to deal with it. The police needs to be involved, but family member doesn’t want to get the police involved, and I dunno where the go from there.
A family member is in an awkward situation, and I dunno how to deal with it. The police needs to be involved, but family member doesn’t want to get the police involved, and I dunno where the go from there.
So up to date news regarding my new biopsy result, the MRI result, and the sad news of my cancer returning.
September 8, 2025 at 10:17 AM
So up to date news regarding my new biopsy result, the MRI result, and the sad news of my cancer returning.
I never knew that my town had such a really dark past. I was only looking at my family tree, intrigued what dads street was called back in 1888, and than I uncovered a dark past of the town I live in. It’s really blown my mind 🤯
September 8, 2025 at 10:13 AM
I never knew that my town had such a really dark past. I was only looking at my family tree, intrigued what dads street was called back in 1888, and than I uncovered a dark past of the town I live in. It’s really blown my mind 🤯
When you’re up late and you and your dad just have a random conversion…..
If I can make him smile than it’s worthy of a good job.
DX is Destination X that we’d watch each week and really enjoyed.
If I can make him smile than it’s worthy of a good job.
DX is Destination X that we’d watch each week and really enjoyed.
September 2, 2025 at 9:51 PM
When you’re up late and you and your dad just have a random conversion…..
If I can make him smile than it’s worthy of a good job.
DX is Destination X that we’d watch each week and really enjoyed.
If I can make him smile than it’s worthy of a good job.
DX is Destination X that we’d watch each week and really enjoyed.
When The Rasmus’ song Sky hits you in a different way to before. Especially after yesterday’s news I had, that I’m still trying to process.
August 28, 2025 at 9:07 AM
When The Rasmus’ song Sky hits you in a different way to before. Especially after yesterday’s news I had, that I’m still trying to process.
It was my birthday yesterday, I had a great day.
My life has been a wild ride so far. Up and downs. The one thing I regret, is a choice I made in 2002. A choice I will life with until my dying days.
Though the what ifs, trouble my mind on daily basis.
My life has been a wild ride so far. Up and downs. The one thing I regret, is a choice I made in 2002. A choice I will life with until my dying days.
Though the what ifs, trouble my mind on daily basis.
August 17, 2025 at 12:53 PM
It was my birthday yesterday, I had a great day.
My life has been a wild ride so far. Up and downs. The one thing I regret, is a choice I made in 2002. A choice I will life with until my dying days.
Though the what ifs, trouble my mind on daily basis.
My life has been a wild ride so far. Up and downs. The one thing I regret, is a choice I made in 2002. A choice I will life with until my dying days.
Though the what ifs, trouble my mind on daily basis.