Darkness Hayz
@darknesshayz.bsky.social
I’m Hayz, I’m Pans, I’m also a Welsh goth with passions about many things. I love to write poetry. I love the word cwtch, and I love to give them out to others. Anyone reading this - you are loved, you are valued, and you are worth so much more.
Cancer consultant said he’ll look into me donating my body for medical research. I said to him “I can’t donate blood, or organs. The NHS has done so much for me my whole life, and I want to give something back”….
I’ve had a long hard think about this. It’s something I want to do.
I’ve had a long hard think about this. It’s something I want to do.
November 14, 2025 at 10:19 PM
Cancer consultant said he’ll look into me donating my body for medical research. I said to him “I can’t donate blood, or organs. The NHS has done so much for me my whole life, and I want to give something back”….
I’ve had a long hard think about this. It’s something I want to do.
I’ve had a long hard think about this. It’s something I want to do.
I just got emotional. I sent dad a message about Euro 2028 and how we should go to the opening game in Wales. Than a taught hit me, why am I planning for something in advance when I don’t know if I’ll be here. As my long term prognosis is poor #fuckyoucancer
November 12, 2025 at 10:09 PM
I just got emotional. I sent dad a message about Euro 2028 and how we should go to the opening game in Wales. Than a taught hit me, why am I planning for something in advance when I don’t know if I’ll be here. As my long term prognosis is poor #fuckyoucancer
Writing a note to my soon to be ex consultant, is very emotional. I i dot want to say goodbye, I’m not ready.
Yes, I do get attached to people emotionally. It’s just he was honest of this
shity storm of cancer and that moment I just knew.
I’m gonna miss seeing him.
Yes, I do get attached to people emotionally. It’s just he was honest of this
shity storm of cancer and that moment I just knew.
I’m gonna miss seeing him.
October 7, 2025 at 9:12 PM
Writing a note to my soon to be ex consultant, is very emotional. I i dot want to say goodbye, I’m not ready.
Yes, I do get attached to people emotionally. It’s just he was honest of this
shity storm of cancer and that moment I just knew.
I’m gonna miss seeing him.
Yes, I do get attached to people emotionally. It’s just he was honest of this
shity storm of cancer and that moment I just knew.
I’m gonna miss seeing him.
Family and non bloody family, I owe you so much love. Making my Finland trip happen, you are all making a younger me dreams come true. Especially @vampirebloom.bsky.social, my mum and my dad (as well as others).. thank you and I love you.
true.id
September 17, 2025 at 10:11 AM
Family and non bloody family, I owe you so much love. Making my Finland trip happen, you are all making a younger me dreams come true. Especially @vampirebloom.bsky.social, my mum and my dad (as well as others).. thank you and I love you.
Fuck with my family, I’ll fuck with you.
A family member is in an awkward situation, and I dunno how to deal with it. The police needs to be involved, but family member doesn’t want to get the police involved, and I dunno where the go from there.
A family member is in an awkward situation, and I dunno how to deal with it. The police needs to be involved, but family member doesn’t want to get the police involved, and I dunno where the go from there.
September 11, 2025 at 11:39 AM
Fuck with my family, I’ll fuck with you.
A family member is in an awkward situation, and I dunno how to deal with it. The police needs to be involved, but family member doesn’t want to get the police involved, and I dunno where the go from there.
A family member is in an awkward situation, and I dunno how to deal with it. The police needs to be involved, but family member doesn’t want to get the police involved, and I dunno where the go from there.
So up to date news regarding my new biopsy result, the MRI result, and the sad news of my cancer returning.
September 8, 2025 at 10:17 AM
So up to date news regarding my new biopsy result, the MRI result, and the sad news of my cancer returning.
I never knew that my town had such a really dark past. I was only looking at my family tree, intrigued what dads street was called back in 1888, and than I uncovered a dark past of the town I live in. It’s really blown my mind 🤯
September 8, 2025 at 10:13 AM
I never knew that my town had such a really dark past. I was only looking at my family tree, intrigued what dads street was called back in 1888, and than I uncovered a dark past of the town I live in. It’s really blown my mind 🤯
When you’re up late and you and your dad just have a random conversion…..
If I can make him smile than it’s worthy of a good job.
DX is Destination X that we’d watch each week and really enjoyed.
If I can make him smile than it’s worthy of a good job.
DX is Destination X that we’d watch each week and really enjoyed.
September 2, 2025 at 9:51 PM
When you’re up late and you and your dad just have a random conversion…..
If I can make him smile than it’s worthy of a good job.
DX is Destination X that we’d watch each week and really enjoyed.
If I can make him smile than it’s worthy of a good job.
DX is Destination X that we’d watch each week and really enjoyed.
When The Rasmus’ song Sky hits you in a different way to before. Especially after yesterday’s news I had, that I’m still trying to process.
August 28, 2025 at 9:07 AM
When The Rasmus’ song Sky hits you in a different way to before. Especially after yesterday’s news I had, that I’m still trying to process.
It was my birthday yesterday, I had a great day.
My life has been a wild ride so far. Up and downs. The one thing I regret, is a choice I made in 2002. A choice I will life with until my dying days.
Though the what ifs, trouble my mind on daily basis.
My life has been a wild ride so far. Up and downs. The one thing I regret, is a choice I made in 2002. A choice I will life with until my dying days.
Though the what ifs, trouble my mind on daily basis.
August 17, 2025 at 12:53 PM
It was my birthday yesterday, I had a great day.
My life has been a wild ride so far. Up and downs. The one thing I regret, is a choice I made in 2002. A choice I will life with until my dying days.
Though the what ifs, trouble my mind on daily basis.
My life has been a wild ride so far. Up and downs. The one thing I regret, is a choice I made in 2002. A choice I will life with until my dying days.
Though the what ifs, trouble my mind on daily basis.
I have a freaking Westlife song in my head…. It’s this song youtu.be/UK3um0k0vN8?...
I haven’t listened to them, this song or even this album in a while, so not sure why it’s suddenly in my head.
I haven’t listened to them, this song or even this album in a while, so not sure why it’s suddenly in my head.
Westlife - Moments (Official Audio)
YouTube video by westlifeVEVO
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August 2, 2025 at 8:13 PM
I have a freaking Westlife song in my head…. It’s this song youtu.be/UK3um0k0vN8?...
I haven’t listened to them, this song or even this album in a while, so not sure why it’s suddenly in my head.
I haven’t listened to them, this song or even this album in a while, so not sure why it’s suddenly in my head.
Still can’t believe in under three months I’ll be in Finland. I’ve waited such a long time, since 1996. So, nearly 30 years, it’s been a long wait.
July 21, 2025 at 8:29 AM
Still can’t believe in under three months I’ll be in Finland. I’ve waited such a long time, since 1996. So, nearly 30 years, it’s been a long wait.
Waiting for results suck. It’s been four weeks, and feels like it’s been a year. I’m not sure how I am going to cope if the results are bad. I’m focusing on my adventures with @vampirebloom.bsky.social, and that’s helping massively, and I can’t wait for that.
July 20, 2025 at 10:37 AM
Waiting for results suck. It’s been four weeks, and feels like it’s been a year. I’m not sure how I am going to cope if the results are bad. I’m focusing on my adventures with @vampirebloom.bsky.social, and that’s helping massively, and I can’t wait for that.
So I’m doing my family tree, and read about what happened to my great grand uncle Richard in the war, it’s really said.
Go to Private Richard Hayne. I’m so proud of him and also his fellow soldiers. You, sir will forever be remembered.
Go to Private Richard Hayne. I’m so proud of him and also his fellow soldiers. You, sir will forever be remembered.
June 1917
www.barrywarmuseum.co.uk
July 7, 2025 at 10:57 AM
So I’m doing my family tree, and read about what happened to my great grand uncle Richard in the war, it’s really said.
Go to Private Richard Hayne. I’m so proud of him and also his fellow soldiers. You, sir will forever be remembered.
Go to Private Richard Hayne. I’m so proud of him and also his fellow soldiers. You, sir will forever be remembered.
So, the latest MRI has shown a slight growth of a mass. They need to do another biopsy to assess what it is. I know deep down what it is, and I’m just reliving emotions from 2023 all over again.
Im struggling to contain everything in front of family. I have a mask on where I play pretend 1/3
Im struggling to contain everything in front of family. I have a mask on where I play pretend 1/3
June 16, 2025 at 8:49 AM
So, the latest MRI has shown a slight growth of a mass. They need to do another biopsy to assess what it is. I know deep down what it is, and I’m just reliving emotions from 2023 all over again.
Im struggling to contain everything in front of family. I have a mask on where I play pretend 1/3
Im struggling to contain everything in front of family. I have a mask on where I play pretend 1/3
Think I’m going to just emerse myself into some vertical dramas on ReelShort or some vertical app. I need to switch off and escape for a bit.
June 10, 2025 at 8:11 AM
Think I’m going to just emerse myself into some vertical dramas on ReelShort or some vertical app. I need to switch off and escape for a bit.
I’m so anxious for Thursday and being called in to see the ENT consultant. It’s really unnerving me as he doesn’t do Thursday clinic, he’s in theatre on that day. So he’s fitting me in before he heads of the the OR. It’s sent my anxious worm into some kind of melt down.
June 10, 2025 at 8:09 AM
I’m so anxious for Thursday and being called in to see the ENT consultant. It’s really unnerving me as he doesn’t do Thursday clinic, he’s in theatre on that day. So he’s fitting me in before he heads of the the OR. It’s sent my anxious worm into some kind of melt down.
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My statement on what's unfolding in Los Angeles.
June 8, 2025 at 11:32 PM
My statement on what's unfolding in Los Angeles.
Looked at my ancestors records from 1921, and read about Lovasise. I got to othanhood and my heart just went 😭, when I read “mother dead”. That’s just so tragic. A six year old, losing her mum at that age 😭😭😭😭
June 8, 2025 at 3:58 PM
Looked at my ancestors records from 1921, and read about Lovasise. I got to othanhood and my heart just went 😭, when I read “mother dead”. That’s just so tragic. A six year old, losing her mum at that age 😭😭😭😭
Emotional abuse comes in all forms. Toxic behaviour comes in all forms. Just a shame when it comes from family.
June 8, 2025 at 11:21 AM
Emotional abuse comes in all forms. Toxic behaviour comes in all forms. Just a shame when it comes from family.
The ENT consultant wants to see me next week and I’m having a major freak out here….
I am meant to see him in August, not two months before.
I am meant to see him in August, not two months before.
June 5, 2025 at 4:15 PM
The ENT consultant wants to see me next week and I’m having a major freak out here….
I am meant to see him in August, not two months before.
I am meant to see him in August, not two months before.
Broke my ankle, with a high ankle fracture, a few weeks ago. I hate the recovery process, it’s going so slooooooooooo. I’ve had an operation on to add pins and plates - great fun. I have to wear a moon boot for the next three weeks. Can’t wait to put weight on foot again.
May 24, 2025 at 9:07 AM
Broke my ankle, with a high ankle fracture, a few weeks ago. I hate the recovery process, it’s going so slooooooooooo. I’ve had an operation on to add pins and plates - great fun. I have to wear a moon boot for the next three weeks. Can’t wait to put weight on foot again.
I think my dad is discovering I know a lot about Finnish tennis players than I do British tennis players 🙈.
May 24, 2025 at 8:59 AM
I think my dad is discovering I know a lot about Finnish tennis players than I do British tennis players 🙈.
I love it when I work hard on something, and than it gets chucked up in my face how I don’t do anything. One way to crush my self esteem, thanks for that.
a woman with purple hair says her confidence is shattered
ALT: a woman with purple hair says her confidence is shattered
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April 17, 2025 at 12:21 PM
I love it when I work hard on something, and than it gets chucked up in my face how I don’t do anything. One way to crush my self esteem, thanks for that.
Would it be weird if I ask my ENT consultant to sign the photo of me and him? I want to frame it, because he played a massive part in my cancer journey, and I want to smile whenever I look at it, and be even more thankful everyday.
April 9, 2025 at 11:21 PM
Would it be weird if I ask my ENT consultant to sign the photo of me and him? I want to frame it, because he played a massive part in my cancer journey, and I want to smile whenever I look at it, and be even more thankful everyday.